Thursday, June 10, 2010

feeling a little lost

Bug is now 5. How can that be? Didn't I just have her? She is amazing and awesome.

I go back to work in three weeks. I have been working from home and it is hard. Between L (who is awesome too), and systems not working and things being slower from home, I am just spinning my wheels. I worked 5.5 hours today from home and got nothing done. I don't want to leave, I am just tired of reports not working.

I feel like I am losing my grasp on everything. I am not one for a pity party, I just feel like I need an outlet. Luckily, I got on some happy pills today. I hope it helps. I need a routine, some structure, something to help my brain. I need to be able to touch something and have it work. And most importantly, I think I need some work on me. My weight has gotten to me, I feel unattractive. I am going to do something about it right now. Time for some lists, goals, baby steps so I feel accomplished.

Thank you, all I needed was to vent for a little while. Maybe writing about it will help. If I decide it is getting too personal, I will move the address.

2 comments:

Trish Taylor said...

Don't worry, sweetie! It's probably just a passing thing with hormones and post baby thing!? I hope! YOU are accomplishing GREAT things whether you realize it or not! You're a great, nurturing mother who is thankful everyday... with a great attitude. Smile.... someone loves you! XO

Tiffany said...

I agree with Trish. Missy you're AMAZING and things will get back to normal soon. We should definitely do lunch soon. I need to see Lucas. =) As for the weightloss issue, I need help with that as well so you can be my weightloss buddy. After all, you definitely made a great "water buddy" at Broadwing. LOL Love ya! Talk to you soon!