Monday, October 31, 2005

Happy Halloween

Today I am a pilot. I am wearing my FIL's flight suit and my Grandpa's helmet. I am too cute.

I cannot wait until tonight. Bug's first Halloween. The photo shoot went SOOOO well on Saturday. I love the pictures. She is the cutest baby ever.

Currently it is dark and rainy outside. I love it.

This is my Sweetie's favorite holiday. I simply want him happy with the day. Not exactly sure what we are doing tonight, it will depend on the weather. He loves this holiday more and more every year. He is already planning costumes for the three of us for years to come. There is nothing better than hearing my Sweetie become giddy after finding out about a costume contest at work. Good thing we live close. He went home and grabbed his great costume.

This weekend was good. Friday was time with Brother and SIL. Saturday was the photoshoot and a day with just the three of us. Bug was in the best mood giggling and laughing all day. Sunday was busy. We went to the later service since this will be the service with the baptism (they alternate between the middle and later services). It is different from the one we know but nothing too drastic. It reminds me a lot of CEC. Due to the later service we got out to our chores later than normal. We stopped for a quick visit with MIL, SIL, and Niece. Then we went and purchased Bug's dress for Sunday - SOOOO pretty. Then we got a b-day present for DarkDiva's youngest (b-day party on Saturday) and headed to the grocery store. Even with going non-stop we did not get home until 6:00. This made for a tired little family.

The good news is that I got my Chili last night. Thank you Mom. Now I just have to wait to get off from work so I can get my Bug and we can begin our celebration. I cannot wait.

Pictures to come.

Friday, October 28, 2005

Friday Friday Friday

Yesterday I woke up late, got ketchup on my shirt, and got thrown up on at daycare (by Bug so that is ok). However, my day was good. My project at work is coming along nicely and I have really enjoyed my work this week. Damn, I just had a great post and it disappeared. Recover blog you failed me. Let's see if I can remember what I was saying - though I am sure it will not be as clever.

I think I am meant to be an accountant. I studied three hours yesterday, one at lunch and two at night. I am really enjoying this. I have gone over cash, marketable securities, partnerships, and owners equity. The biggest thing is that all of this was covered in Advanced, my horrible semester due to SKIDS in Spring 2004. I know it was the stress of working with idiots that caused me to do so poorly. How do I know this? I remember so much of what I am studying right now. The exact same information that was on the tests in this class. I cannot wait until I pass, I will send a letter to Dr. G and let her know the good news.

Today I went to the doctor. It was my follow up from my medicine changed 6 weeks ago for my thyroid. I have lost 12 pounds according to their scale. The NP was impressed but wants to make sure it is not because of my medicine still being too high. If it is not my thyroid I will have to see a dermatologist. So they drew my blood and I will find out on Monday the outcome. If my current meds are too high, can't I stay on them until my b-day??? LOL, no, I would not do that, I know the risks and I know why they are watching me so closely.

I am wearing a sleeveless shirt today. I used to never wear sleeveless anything. Then September 2004 my Sweetie picked out a sundress for me and since I have had the greatest confidence. Ok it is not all from the dress, more like the dress was one of the results. The other result is at daycare in her PJs.

In my 47 pounds lost, I have finally hit a point where I am in between sizes. The jeans I am wearing now are too big, I need a belt. I even put them on straight out of the dryer. However, the next size down is still too tight. Although I did get them zipped and buttoned. I went into the living room to show Sweetie. I told him "I can't sit or breath, but I can zip them up and I couldn't before". He laughed and said he was proud. I can really tell the difference in my body. Everyone at work comments on how much I have lost. My temp calls me Lil Bit. I have even been told that I need a new wardrobe. Little do they know I have a nice wardrobe as soon as I get back to that size. I gained my weight so quickly due to my thyroid that I did not purchase a lot of clothing.

This weekend is going to be a little lazy. Tonight we are seeing my Brother, tomorrow we are taking Bug to get her Halloween pictures taken, and Sunday is Church and store.

And then.....

HALLOWEEN - YAY. I get to dress up for work. Don't know what I am going to be yet, but it will be fun regardless. Me and My Cow.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Tired

So we all know that I get sick easily. We all know that stress can make me sick. So I am making sure to go to bed on time. So far so good. I am exhausted today regardless, but it is a step. I tell myself that even if I am not done studying, I have to go to bed. I will study less if I get sick. So that is where I stand.

To explain something some might not understand. I have to test before December because my application will expire in December. I have to test one section. However, I do not have to pass. Once I pass one section, I have 18 moths to pass the other three.

When I pass, I will feel a great accomplishment. However, if I do not pass this time due to going to sleep on time, or playing with my daughter, I will not feel a complete failure. This test covers A LOT of information and I have higher priorities in my life. That said, I do not want to have to study again. And there are three other people taking this section with me.

The baptism e-mail went out yesterday. I cannot wait. After the service, we are going to lunch. Nothing fancy, just a chance to stare happily at my little bug. We have to see if the outfit we have for her will fit, she has gotten so big.

I am wearing a shirt today that I do not even remember the last time I wore it. I have not been this weight since 2000 before our Vegas trip. I am feeling great, other than the tired part. Only three more pounds, as of last Friday, for my b-day goal.

Yay Birthdays. Mine is now 18 days away. I have to decide what I want to do. I want it to be grand. I have an invitation from DarkDiva to go to a winery and zoo in Johnson City. Not sure that is what I want. I am being very selfish about this birthday. I am doing what I want. It falls on a Saturday this year. YAY.

I think I might pack up my little family and head to the Ansel Adams's exhibit. I love his photography and that would be a great way to celebrate. Sweetie bought me a huge framed Ansel Adams photograph for my 21st b-day. That was a great b-day present. Bug also has her first b-day party invitation for that day. We shall see if we make it, she has never actually met the b-day girl so it is not like it would be a complete loss if we did not go.

Another thing hit me yesterday as I was typing up the baptism e-mail, I need to know what to wear. I know Bug will be the center of attention, but I also want to look good and confident. It is a special day.

My Sweetie and I are going to finish Bug's costume today - did I mention she will be a cow? So exciting. We are entering a very special time for her, a lot of new things. It is so awesome being a mom. My Sweetie and I agree. I had no idea I could love or worry this much. I also cannot believe how close it has brought Sweetie and me.

Now it is time to head out. I need to pick up a bug and kiss a husband.

Monday, October 24, 2005

Honey, I have a headache!

I get migraines. It is true. Today I got one that caused me to throw up four times. Not fun at all. Once my headache gets to a point, I need sleep, medicine, and fatty foods to get rid of it. Luckily, my Sweetie went and got me some good fatty food for dinner.

Today was one of those days where you can't believe everything in your life is true. I was holding Bug today and watching her in her amazing ways made me really stop and think "wow she is our baby, this is real life".

Last night was also like this. After my blogging we watched Grey's Anatomy, yes we watch this one too. However, we were in bed due to being so tired. I have this thing where I try ever so often to sleep the wrong way on the bed. This drives my Sweetie crazy, in a funny haha crazy way. So I was lying the wrong way on the bed while watching TV. Sweetie proceeded to lay on me. This led to about three tickling matches. This morning, he thanked me for being so silly with him. That is my favorite thing about us, the silliness. While we were watching tv, being silly, and listening to the monitor, I couldn't help but take it all in with a deep breath (hard to do when someone tickles you) and smile. Life is good.

My milkshake is doing its job and my head is feeling a bit better. I am tired. I studied during lunch so I think I am going to take a break tonight. Cash and securities will have to wait until tomorrow.

I always say that I hate migraines but I love how they feel when they end. I am not quite at that point yet of absolutely no pain, but I am getting close.

Randomness: The push bars for the doors at work, to leave the wings and go back to the main hallway or lobby, are heat activated. Tiffany proved it to me by me trying to open it with my foot. My question then is, why don't they let the robots roam the halls? Maybe I am ignorant, wouldn't be the first time, but I don't understand why doors going OUT of a restricted area would be heat sensitive?

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Over too quickly

This weekend passed much too quickly. I worked an actual normal day on Friday. Mostly because I left at 5 without a word. We shall see the results tomorrow. Saturday night we enjoyed an evening with Best Friend, Best Friend's husband, and Sam. It was so good to see them again. It lasted until the wee hours and it was well worth it.

Today was relaxing. Currently, Sweetie and I are in bed watching TV attempting to sleep early. We will see if it works. Due to church and getting in very late, we only got about 4 hours of sleep and we are exhausted.

Here's to a wonderful week. Who knows, maybe I will only work 40 hours.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

SCREW THIS

extra vacation might not be worth this. Excuse my language but I am so fucking pissed. My boss sucks. he should never be in management. I worked 14 hours today.

At Work

Yes, it is another long day. All I have to say is that I am leaving early tomorrow and not stepping foot in here until Monday.

My Sweetie is so wonderful with picking up the slack. OK what slack, he does everything. Well he is wonderful about picking up Bug and entertaining her when I have to work late.

I am very happy right now. My friends are amazing. I am so truly blessed with the friends that I have. The two women from the reunion are already planning our next get together. My greatest guy friend ever, Thomas, from high school is coming to visit in February. I cannot wait. I plan to take a day off from work to spend time with him and his wife. Plus the Divas and Mars have been a great support network during this stressful time.

You know, I have never mentioned Mars. She and I were best friends way back in the day. We met at church and she moved away when I was in 5th grade. Well, over the summer she came back. YAY. I have not had the chance to meet up with her, but it is coming and I cannot wait.

It is strange, my co-worker friend Tiffany, has really turned into a real friend. In spite of her being barely 22, she is awesome. In many ways I feel like the big sister with her - crazy crazy girl. However, I have to admit she was the second reason for my staying here, that and the time off.

So why am I blogging if I should be working? My boss has me on "stand-by" for when he finally wants to discuss my accounts. That is ok. I keep thinking next quarter has to be better. Plus I keep looking forward to the week off that I am taking in between Christmas and New Years. Bug and I are going to live it up.

This has been a hell-of-a three weeks. But as my Sweetie says, it will be worth it. Now back to that studying aspect. I have to get onto that. My temp at work (who is now a full time employee) is also studying for the FAR section to test the same time as me. To motivate myself I suggested we study during lunches together. I know you all must be freaking out if you know anything about her. However, I cannot have her pass and me fail. Whatever works for motivation, right?

I cannot believe Halloween is so soon. Last Halloween was so wonderful. No one at work knew I was pregnant. It was my secret. This year I get to show off a little cow. That is what we need to do this weekend, the remainder of her costume and photos.

Oh and Sweetie is all better. Of course he is. This is his normal course. He gets sick about every 6 months or so, is dying for less than 24 hours, and then is normal again. This one lasted 22 hours.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

New Pics



Time to catch up

OK this is going to be long, just warning you.

The reunion. It was such a blast. It was casual and fun. Many of the people who came on Saturday did not come on Sunday and vice versa. The two women that we hung out with on Saturday continued to offer great entertainment. The food was good and the company good. The only hard part was watching the video year book. The only shot of me was with my two best friends at the time. While part of me wishes someone would have hit me on the back of the head to show me that they were not true friends I believe the past put me where I am now. Plus neither came to the reunion. Although each had someone ask about them. The last part of the evening consisted of me, Sweetie, Bug, two "new" friends, and three other people sitting around gossiping. I know it is bad, but we had great fun. The funniest part was when we discussed one guy who apparently has come out of the closet, I said "He IS??" They all turned to me, laughed and confirmed the statement. Another funny thing is I did not run into any other accountants, at least none that advertised it. I did run into three or four teachers. It is funny, we closed the bars on Saturday and then we closed the park on Sunday. They actually lock the gate. We were all sitting around talking and a cop car pulled up. He was very understanding and let us say our goodbyes and pack up. And I have already received and e-mail from the two "new" friends asking when we can get together again. Next time less alcohol.

Update on Bug - She is eating cereal in a high chair and from a spoon. You start the cereal very watered down with formula and then reduce the amount of liquid gradually. Well, last night was the first time the formula was thick enough to use the spoon. She is doing so good. She is going to be a cow for Halloween. I know very different from our original plan, but we fell in love with the costume. I just heard her sigh over the monitor, man I love her.

Sweetie is sick. If you have ever had a sick man around you, you can relate. He is miserable. He started throwing up last night and today has not been better. He called me today because he wanted to hear my voice and because he felt squirmy.

Work: Is it better? Some. I worked 13.25 hours yesterday. That sucks. And then I get slack for leaving at 5 to get Bug. I am trying to make it work. I did not go to the interview. Sweetie brought up a good point, I am trying to study for the CPA. If I am trying to get used to a new company and job I will be more stressed. Plus there was NO way I could get away.

What else is new? I have felt out of it for over three weeks now. I cannot wait until the hours decrease.

This weekend. I am not sure what we are doing this weekend. I would love to do as another blog I read wrote and sit around in PJ's all weekend. Rather, I think I will study as much as I can and try to relax. I am hoping I don't have to work.

OK time to feed bug more cereal or at least see if she wants to wake up to eat.

Checking in

I have not disappeared. I will write more about the reunion part 2, bug update, work, interview update, and other nonsense as soon as I get a free moment.

In the meantime, Bug is Famous.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Reunion Part One of Two

So the event I helped plan last night went well. I helped plan it in the sense that I wanted an adult night. However, few people know I helped since the invite went out from the organizer as to avoid confusion.

I was dressed up, feeling great, and with my Sweetie on my arm in my favorite outfit of his. When we got there we found the organizer and one of her good friends. Actually the good friend recognized me. She said I was the only one (other than the organizer as they are great friends since high school) that she recognized.

A word to sum the evening: Fantastic.

There was almost a fight when one guy who I went through all of school with approached a woman thinking she was a classmate. You see the only planning was really "let's meet at 8". We could not get a reservation for our group due to costs and not knowing how many people would turn up. So he approached this woman and said "Enter name here??" It was not her and the guy with this woman assumed that my classmate was hitting on this woman. The man proceeded to push the classmate (and he is not a big guy at all) by the neck. Luckily another classmate, one all the girls had a crush on, came and broke everything up explaining to this man that the classmate thought she was someone we knew and that we were there for a reunion.

So my impact in HS was much larger than I thought. I had two people who I was friends with in elementary, was in brownies and girlscouts with this, but not friends in high school approach me and give me big hugs and ask how I am. Oh and this classmate who was pushed also told me his life story for the last 10 years. He approached me which I thought was so interesting. We were in kindergarten together and did UIL together in 2nd grade. However, I never really spoke with him since, other than if we were in the same class. He came up and said "Hey Melissa, how are you doing?" He ended the conversation when the organizer came to save me, he was rather drunk, and he said "WOW you both look so fantastic". I also had others know who I am and I was just shocked. One of the ex-girlscouts (although once a girlscout always a girlscout) has a 10 month old and lives close. I am thinking "play mate for Bug". This biggest thing about this girl that I remember is that in 1st grade she walked on her tip toes everywhere. I wanted to be more like her so I did the same thing.

However, not all of it was like old friends. There was a group in HS of some preppy and mean girls and guys. They were there. However, they had their own table and did not approach everyone else. Honestly I don't care. One of the girls used to make fun of me in Jr high because I did not have all the "in" items. She was there. I did not recognize her at all. She looked like a tramp. So funny.

I must say I am a cheap drunk now, very different from before Bug. After only three beers, my feet no longer hurt and I was feeling great. I did walk over and look at the "prep" table but did not stop and say hi.

I am not sure what time, the organizer, her old friend, their designated driver, my Sweetie, and I headed out to find more action. We went to "Cheers shot bar" where I enjoyed a buttery nipple - LOVE THOSE. And then we walked many many many blocks to the "Gingerman" where we sat outside, drank some dark beer and chatted. I totally blew their "good girl" image of me and I will be invited to the next party, lol. The funny thing is that between us we have 5 kids. At 2, we were kicked out. Closing a bar, I don't think I have done that in 10 years, lol.

Anyway these two women live close, have kids, and a lot in common with me and my Sweetie. I even sent an e-mail to the ex-girl scout asking to meet up sometime.

It was so fantastic. It was great to see everyone last night. It was a great preview on how today will be. I can't wait. I get to show off my Bug.

Now I must go and get myself all cute for tonight. I have to get there early to help set up. It is hard being so needed. I will try to post pictures tonight if I get a chance.

Friday, October 14, 2005

TGIF

Summary of the work situation: They want me for a second interview - but they want me for 3 hours and it is (with good traffic) 45 minutes away. BLAH. I got my boss a boss's day card. I am good like that. He is still driving me crazy. However, I feel I need to make it work.

Reunion: Tomorrow is the adult portion. We shall see how this works since the group doesn't have any reservations. Sweetie and I might just make it a date night and people watch.

TMI: There is nothing better than morning nookie when there is no time. I was 30 minutes late to work *blushing*

Weight Loss: I lost another 3 pounds this week. My total is now 45. Please notice the new star on the side. Only 5 more until my B-day goal. And 4 weeks do that :-)

CPA: Testing Scheduled Nov 30th at 9:00. Wish me luck. Somehow I need to find time to study. It is very hard when you have a husband and baby like I do, I want to spend every minute with them.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

New Quiz

New Quiz on my other blog

Interview

As Tiffany, my co-worker and friend said, the interview was not perfect. There were not any huge alarms like with the SKIDS interview. However, I did not rush home wishing and hoping to get it. The time off, vacation wise, would be 1/2. I have to decide if half the time off is more important or if 7k is. I was really looking forward to taking 4 weeks off next year with my Bug.

So I got into work late, as expected, and I did not leave until almost 9. The biggest difference is that I did not mind. My boss was more like his old self today. Maybe he was just PMSing as the AP manager said.

Boss' day is Sunday. I think I will get my boss a card or something.

So what changed? A few things. I believe it is all about state of mind. I am trying very hard to be happy there. Life is too short otherwise. Also my Sweetie and I got onto a discussion about what we would say if Bug hated her school and wanted to quit going. I turned and said "I would say that she can't quit, and instead focus on helping her find a way to make it bearable". I went quiet and said "I have to make it bearable before I leave." Then my Best Friend had me write my boss a letter telling him how I feel. However, she told me not to send it until the next day. I believe she knew what she was doing. She told me my first draft would be emotional. It was. However, I got it out. Although I didn't send it, I got into a better place with everything. Hard to describe. Then there was the interview. I "stepped out" on my company. I set up the meeting secretly and discussed changing my place. However, once I was there, it wasn't perfect, it made me realize that my work isn't so bad. Not that this place would suck or anything.

Now everything could change tomorrow. I will honestly consider everything if an offer is made. However, if it isn't, I won't be jumping out any windows.

My Sweetie is just so wonderful. He has no trouble taking care of Bug when she needs it. It makes me relieved. And now it is time for bed. 6:00 comes early.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Sitting and Waiting

I promised myself that I would not be negative with this post. However, I should have left 20 minutes ago. I don't mind working late. What I do mind is when they say "hey there is a small potential for an entry so please sit around and do nothing and wait on us".

BLAH.

Tomorrow is the interview. I am nervous. Looks like the commute would be half. The time off would be half. Hmmmmmmm. Like I said before, it has to be perfect. I have accepted jobs where things weren't right but the price was good. It isn't worth it. Although 7k extra a year would be nice.

The benefits here are so good.

Well, I HAVE to study tonight. My Sweetie and I worked on our evening and morning routines to make sure everything gets done and timely.

Monday, October 10, 2005

Tabasco Addict


It is official. My Sweetie is a tobasco addict. He took our bottle to work today for his chips. This is an issue. LOL. Next thing you know he will buy Tobasco by the gallon.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

4 MONTHS OLD

Bug turned 4 months on Friday. Since everyone has been so good listening to my complaining this week, I will reward you with photos: 1)See she can be a devil baby, look at those eyes, and that tongue 2)Happy Bug 3)Sweetie eating Bug's neck, of course. Look at her Sweater, so cute 4)Bug on her pretty new blanket.



Sunday :-)

I am at work, like a good girl. I thought I should hop on while reports run. Such a good employee am I. Friday, my Sweetie, Bug, and I went grocery shopping (I know, such a party lifestyle). Saturday, I woke up early and came into work. I beat my boss and left after him. I think I got a lot done.

I am very torn as to whether or not I should go to another company.

Last night I got a fever, stupid working too hard. Luckily, it broke during the night. We did not go to church as planned and instead slept in as late as a Bug would allow. Then we went to the grocery store again (forgot items, of course) and went shopping for reunion clothes.

I am so pumped. We found me an AWESOME outfit. I cannot wait. I am wearing some of it now, the top and jacket. I might wear it on my interview. My Sweetie was worried because it shows of my tattoos. I told him that if I was unemployed and looking for a job, I would hide them. However, I am employed, so for me to leave is going to have to be for a company that is ok with hard working employees with tattoos.

I am happy and doing good. In the parking lot of Khols, Mom and I think we saw an ex-friend. Not sure if it is true. If so she has given up the big Texas vehicles, who knows. I just hope she got to see my Bug. She is so perfect. OK I think I have done enough work. I am headed back to my Sweetie and Bug.

Friday, October 07, 2005

YAY ME

After a crappy week, there is some good.

Obesity is linked to many health problems, including type 2 diabetes, heart disease, high blood pressure, arthritis, sleep apnea, and stroke.

You are considered Obese if you have a BMI over 30.

To find out your BMI follow this link

Ladies and Gentlemen, please let me announce to the world that my BMI is no longer over 30. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY. All those health risks, goodbye. I have lost 42 pounds. I am feeling great and my jeans are falling off. I added another star to the right. Yay ME. I am only 1 pound from what I weighed when I started HES and SEU.

Long time no blogging

Never post that the next day is going to be good. Never, Ever, Ever.

I just got home from work. Yes take a moment to look at the time. I worked from 7-12 tonight.

But let's recap first.

Tuesday was Sweetie's first day at his new job. He loves it.

Tuesday and Wednesday were not good for me. My boss sucks. The boss the I blogged about last year, writing that I love him as a boss? Yep, the very one. He has changed. He does not support me and my family.

Bug has an ear infection. I am home for the remainder of the week. However, I am working from home and going in at night. I got home last night at 11:30. Luckily my Sweetie was awake, along with Bug. I gave her a bath, mostly to calm me from my day and he made me dinner. Today he came home for lunch. He works so close. If only I did... I will get back to that. He made me lunch and ate with me. He loves me so much.

Yes, my boss sucks. I don't hate anyone but he is growing on me. I am home with Bug. I have to be. There are no other options. He tells me it won't work, that I need to be at work (that working from home won't work). Now keep in mind when I left the voice mail that I had to pick Bug up from daycare and when I left a voice mail after the appointment, both times I said that I would work from home (as much as I can with an upset infant) and that I would work every evening and on the weekend (but not next weekend that is the reunion). That was not good enough for him. He suggested that I call some stranger and have them come to My home and watch MY sick baby. Screw him. Now keep in mind my company has 6, yes 6, months of sick time. All you need is a note from a doctor regarding a family member or yourself. I have this note. Technically, I don't have to do anything. But I am a damn good employee and I am doing so good. I got so pissed that I couldn't even blog about it. My Sweetie got so pissed that he almost called my boss. My Mom also did as well. That would have been bad. hmmmmm perhaps that would be good....... I even called my boss' boss and complained to him. I am just trying to make it work. I love my company and everyone but my boss. Hmmmm, maybe I could get him relocated. That is a thought. I am a scorpion, I can do that. It is the face to face that I can't do.

I have an interview on Wednesday. I don't know if anything will come of it. But it is good to know that companies closer to home like what they see in my resume.

So good things of the past few days? I have an amazing group of friends. They are supporting me and making me feel good. My Sweetie loves me more than anything. He waited up for me again. All I have to be is in his arms to feel

This is how I have felt this week:

Monday, October 03, 2005

More than you wanted to know about me

I am in a revealing mood. We purchased a tv today. Ours is dying and we wanted to celebrate Sweetie's job.

So here I sit while I watch him manipulate our entertainment center to fit our "the best for the next five minutes" tv.

I was looking through my bookmarks. A person's computer says a lot about them. More than the documents inside, book marked sites are a reflection of a person's true self, ok maybe not that extreme. In my bookmark list I have several parent sites, walking sites, message boards that discuss many things including sex. I realize that I am a complex person.

In as many ways as I am open, I am a personal person. My experiences have defined who I am. My Sweetie and I were talking on the way to Fry's today. I am more confident than I have ever been. Every one seems to notice it. Even with 35 pounds left to lose, I am feeling great. If I don't lose another oz, I know that I am a beautiful and sexy person.

An older gentleman approached Serif and me tonight and commented on how small she is. He said she had the best seat in the house in my arms and said "You're doing great Mom." It made me smile.

So I know, it must be boring to read about how happy I am in my life. But I can't help it. I have experienced such pain and sadness that I love everyday that is good. I make sure that I don't take advantage of such things as a fantastic marriage, a wonderful daughter, and a roof over my head. You never know what will happen. All you can do is hope for the best from any horrible situation. That is what I have learned. Good comes from all bad, even if you don't see it at first. If you are lucky, You will see it within minutes. Otherwise you have to have faith that things will make sense eventually.

So here I sit, my living room is now a mess with books everywhere. Someday I will read all of these books. Tomorrow is Tuesday, world domination Tuesday. Tomorrow will be good. Wednesday is BestFriend's husband's b-day. Yay for 34. It is also the anniversary of finding out that we were pregnant. Such a good day.

Of the things on the floor, a painting by the Blue Man Group in Las Vegas, Pooh House from Disney World honeymoon, the picture of Sweetie and me at my BBA graduation, and the copper tin with notes of what my Sweetie loves about me (not to forget first anniversary gifts, wood carving of love, etc). These are all things that mean a great deal to us. We are the best of friends. I feel sorry for any couple where the two people are not best friends. We know more about each other than anyone else. We can finish each other's sentences and anticipate any need of the other. We can say a simple word like "Westwood" and know what it means. My Sweetie knows my Missyisms with the proper pronunciations and meaning. For example, zerbal. While I say these words, I will not reveal the meanings. Our relationship has changed and emerged, evolved and grown. We are not the same couple from thirteen years ago, let alone a year ago.

Why do I ramble like this? Mostly because I can, lol. Also, I feel so secure, happy, and confident that expressing these sentimental feelings will not hurt me.

I am strong.

I am awesome.

I am madly in love.

Tomorrow

My Sweetie starts his new job TOMORROW. Go baby, Go baby, Go baby. Tonight must be a night of celebrating (although we found out on Friday).

This morning was so great. We woke up on time (but earlier than we have). When I came out of the bedroom I saw Sweetie gathering everything for oatmeal. I make GREAT oatmeal. We cooked it together while enjoying each other and then getting my "oh so happy" bug ready this morning.

Life is good.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

The Human Condition

Saturday night my Sweetie and I went to Carmina Burana performed by the Ballet Austin. It was wonderful. The show began with One/the body's grace. Actually, the Ballet Austin will be premiering the full version of this show in New York at the Joyce Theater October 5-9. This is so wonderful.

Back to this performance. The show started with an exert from One/the body's grace. It was beautiful. Then the main event began. O Fortuna is the first piece. The curtain lifts to show very industrial props. The stage has several men wearing sleeveless hooded black shirts. Two of the men are in the center of the stage with the remaining cast in the background in front of the choir. One man is behind what looks like a prison door with the other on the other side. It is a powerful piece. The main thing to keep in mind with this production is that the dances were not necessarily associated with the poems that the piece is based on. Through powerful music the men from the back begin the dance with the other two men, taking down the prison-like wall. These men are gorgeous. There is nothing I like better than a stage full of men dancing, but then again I am partial to this kind of thing (aka fall 1994 when my Sweetie was a part of SWT's first all male modern dance performance). So the best part of this portion? In my opinion, was when all men but three threw their shirts off revealing only black like speedos underneath. Can I say YUM??? There was a huge smile on my face (which did not bother my Sweetie as he saw a lot of a woman's butt cheek during the opening act).

The remaining portion of the performance was wonderful. The singers were heavenly. I am going to make sure to put this on my ipod so I can relive it. It was such a wonderful evening. We started with a romantic dinner and drinks, went to the ballet, and finished with cheesecake for dessert. It was so "us".

Remaining report on the weekend: Friday - niece's b-day party, wonderful. Saturday - listed above, wonderful. Sunday - Church, Serif's first blessing and met the Priest. Family nap (Mom, me, Serif, and Sweetie were so lazy), get together at MotoDiva's house with her family and DarkDiva's family, so wonderful (but missed BestFriend from this mix) we discussed Carnaval (I can't wait), and now I am here posting before heading to bed for some snuggling ;-)

Another great part of the evening was when my Sweetie commented on my pants being too big. That made me simply beam.

Here we are before heading out: