Last night played out a little different than planned. MotoDiva called and told me that she wanted my Mom to attend the 48 Hour Film Festival. So we packed Serif up for her first movie theater visit. She was wonderful. It was so neat to see my Sweetie on the big screen. MotoDiva also let us know that we are signed up for the Houston 48 hour event. We shall see if we can make it. I know my Sweetie had such a great time making the short film.
After the movie, we went over to MotoDiva’s for an after party. OK so it was Mom, my Sweetie, Serif and I all hanging out with MotoDiva and her family chatting and eating quesadillas. While it was a late night, it was a lot of fun.
Today has been laid back. I wrote earlier in the week about starting to walk again. That did not happen because the doctor told me to wait until Serif is 4 weeks old. I am feeling so good that I contemplated starting earlier than advised. However, I read that while the outside of the incision is doing good that the inside can take up to 8 weeks to heal. I know I need to follow the doctor’s advice, and it is only one more week. I do not want to do something stupid and set myself back with healing.
Today also marked an important day for my JuneBug. She lost her umbilical stump this morning. YAY – she was holding on to that darn thing for too long. Now we are going to set up a photo shoot.
Tonight is dinner with BestFriend and her husband. We have not hung out with them since Serif’s arrival.
I know this post is less than thought provoking. I have some meaningful posts in my head, I just need the time to get it all written out.
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
She is Official
Yesterday we received Serif’s Social Security Card in the mail. She is official. I love seeing her name in print. I love her so much. I love that she is a combination of my Sweetie and me.
Today she is three weeks old. I cannot believe it. Our life has changed so much since her arrival. Our love is stronger, our focus has changed, and now we are a family.
This summer is already very busy.
Today my JuenBug will be without me or my Sweetie for the first time. This is hard for me, but I trust my mom.
This weekend is 4th of July. We are going to do our normal thing; fireworks, good food, and family.
July 9th is my Mom’s b-day. She has requested to have her b-day at my house so that she can hold her grandbaby all day.
July 21st is MIL’s b-day. I am not sure what we are doing for her day.
August 4th is my Sweetie’s 30th b-day. I cannot believe I am married to someone so old – hehe. The following weekend we are celebrating in a big way. I cannot wait.
August 8th is Serif’s two-month appointment.
August 23rd we are going to a Round Rock Express baseball game with Mom and her company.
August 31st I go back to work and Serif starts her school.
With that, my angel awakes from her nap needing her mommy. I must go and snuggle. I cannot get enough, she is so beautiful.
Today she is three weeks old. I cannot believe it. Our life has changed so much since her arrival. Our love is stronger, our focus has changed, and now we are a family.
This summer is already very busy.
Today my JuenBug will be without me or my Sweetie for the first time. This is hard for me, but I trust my mom.
This weekend is 4th of July. We are going to do our normal thing; fireworks, good food, and family.
July 9th is my Mom’s b-day. She has requested to have her b-day at my house so that she can hold her grandbaby all day.
July 21st is MIL’s b-day. I am not sure what we are doing for her day.
August 4th is my Sweetie’s 30th b-day. I cannot believe I am married to someone so old – hehe. The following weekend we are celebrating in a big way. I cannot wait.
August 8th is Serif’s two-month appointment.
August 23rd we are going to a Round Rock Express baseball game with Mom and her company.
August 31st I go back to work and Serif starts her school.
With that, my angel awakes from her nap needing her mommy. I must go and snuggle. I cannot get enough, she is so beautiful.
Monday, June 27, 2005
48 hours
This weekend was action packed. Friday, Brother, Brother’s wife, Mom, and my little family got together for dinner. Because I had not left the house from Tuesday morning through Friday evening, we decided to go out to eat. Enter Serif’s first restaurant visit.
We went to our Chinese place, as we promised the owner, for her first restaurant. She was perfect. Everyone commented on how cute she was. I love it. During the majority of the meal she was in her daddy’s lap. He LOVED it. He is such a great dad. I really cannot say it enough.
Saturday was a big day for our angel. In the afternoon, we had a wonderful visit from friends in town from Dallas. It was great to see them again. We definitely need to plan a trip to Dallas.
Saturday was also important because I got into a pair of jeans that are a size smaller than my comfy pre-pregnancy jeans. YAY ME!!!! My Sweetie has been so supportive and told me how great I look.
After visiting with our friends from out of town, we packed up (which takes a bit longer now with Serif) and headed over to MotoDiva’s. This was Serif’s first visit to someone else’s home. Upon arrival, MotoDiva met us outside and told me several times how beautiful I looked. That made my day.
It was strange being there. The last time I was there Serif was in my belly – this time she was in my arms.
The reason we went to MotoDiva is a project called the 48 hour film project. The goal is to make a short movie (4-7 minutes) within 48 hours. MotoDiva set everything up and submitted the application. On Friday night, she went to the kick-off party and discovered the theme, a character name, and a line for the movie that must be used. The movie had to be turned in on Sunday – hence 48 hours. Saturday the group worked on the filming. Luckily, a friend of Best Friend’s husband’s has made movies before and had some nice equipment to use. My Sweetie was one of the main stars, along with DarkDiva. They were wonderful. Serif and I even had a small role. We left after 1am due to Serif wanting to go home. We have not seen the final product yet, but tomorrow night we will see all the movies for this project. I cannot wait. Mom is going to watch Serif so my Sweetie and I can both attend.
Today has been wonderful. I have spent a lot of the day simply staring at my baby. She is so beautiful. I am so very happy today. I feel great, physically and mentally. Tonight my Sweetie and I are planning a romantic dinner. I am also hoping to go for a walk tonight.
For more information on The 48 Hour Film Project
We went to our Chinese place, as we promised the owner, for her first restaurant. She was perfect. Everyone commented on how cute she was. I love it. During the majority of the meal she was in her daddy’s lap. He LOVED it. He is such a great dad. I really cannot say it enough.
Saturday was a big day for our angel. In the afternoon, we had a wonderful visit from friends in town from Dallas. It was great to see them again. We definitely need to plan a trip to Dallas.
Saturday was also important because I got into a pair of jeans that are a size smaller than my comfy pre-pregnancy jeans. YAY ME!!!! My Sweetie has been so supportive and told me how great I look.
After visiting with our friends from out of town, we packed up (which takes a bit longer now with Serif) and headed over to MotoDiva’s. This was Serif’s first visit to someone else’s home. Upon arrival, MotoDiva met us outside and told me several times how beautiful I looked. That made my day.
It was strange being there. The last time I was there Serif was in my belly – this time she was in my arms.
The reason we went to MotoDiva is a project called the 48 hour film project. The goal is to make a short movie (4-7 minutes) within 48 hours. MotoDiva set everything up and submitted the application. On Friday night, she went to the kick-off party and discovered the theme, a character name, and a line for the movie that must be used. The movie had to be turned in on Sunday – hence 48 hours. Saturday the group worked on the filming. Luckily, a friend of Best Friend’s husband’s has made movies before and had some nice equipment to use. My Sweetie was one of the main stars, along with DarkDiva. They were wonderful. Serif and I even had a small role. We left after 1am due to Serif wanting to go home. We have not seen the final product yet, but tomorrow night we will see all the movies for this project. I cannot wait. Mom is going to watch Serif so my Sweetie and I can both attend.
Today has been wonderful. I have spent a lot of the day simply staring at my baby. She is so beautiful. I am so very happy today. I feel great, physically and mentally. Tonight my Sweetie and I are planning a romantic dinner. I am also hoping to go for a walk tonight.
For more information on The 48 Hour Film Project
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Long Lost Friend
When I was a freshman in High School I made a friend who was very important to me. He was a junior at the time and a guy friend that was just that, a friend. We never messed around or tried to take things to the next level. He was a wonderful friend who would have offered the shirt off his back if he thought it would help. As things tend to happen, we grew apart. While cleaning in preparation of Serif’s arrival, I found a wallet with some old pictures. I found a picture of my brother at his senior prom and the senior picture of this friend (Thomas). On Tuesday, I thought of him a lot, wondering how I could find him and what he was doing. Last I heard, he was still dating his girlfriend from 1995.
Yesterday, my Sweetie ims me and says that he thinks Thomas just e-mailed him looking for me. I asked for him to send me the e-mail. After confirming that I am who he was looking for and that he is my long lost friend, we began e-mailing. He lives out of state now and is happily married to the same girl he was dating from 1995.
I am so happy that he found me. It is nice to chat with a friend from the past who did not stab me in the back or turn out to be a false.
Yesterday, my Sweetie ims me and says that he thinks Thomas just e-mailed him looking for me. I asked for him to send me the e-mail. After confirming that I am who he was looking for and that he is my long lost friend, we began e-mailing. He lives out of state now and is happily married to the same girl he was dating from 1995.
I am so happy that he found me. It is nice to chat with a friend from the past who did not stab me in the back or turn out to be a false.
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
1st Bath
Ok so this blog is starting to be a lot about my little “baby font” (as they call her at work). Hope that it is not too boring. But it is what my Sweetie and I love to discuss right now.
Last night DarkDiva paid us a visit. It was so good to see her and to be able to show off Serif’s weight gain. However, we are THOSE parents now. Before she could escape my Sweetie brought out the camcorder and showed our home movies that consisted of our Whataburger the night before our angel arrived and continued through the hospital and our coming home. She was a trooper, probably because she is a mom as well, and smiled and laughed at all the appropriate places.
Today was a good day. We took it easy. Unfortunately Serif’s belly was not too happy today and she had some big spit ups. No fever or bad colors, so nothing to worry about. However, it made her rather stinky. So tonight was her first bath. Up until this point, we have spot cleaned due to her umbilical cord stump still in tact. However, tonight was the night. I filmed while my Sweetie carefully bathed our JuneBug making sure to keep the cord stump dry. The best part was that her mood was wonderful throughout the bath. Now she smells wonderful and her hair is sticking straight up ☺
Alas it is time to go and snuggle my two favorite people in the world.
Last night DarkDiva paid us a visit. It was so good to see her and to be able to show off Serif’s weight gain. However, we are THOSE parents now. Before she could escape my Sweetie brought out the camcorder and showed our home movies that consisted of our Whataburger the night before our angel arrived and continued through the hospital and our coming home. She was a trooper, probably because she is a mom as well, and smiled and laughed at all the appropriate places.
Today was a good day. We took it easy. Unfortunately Serif’s belly was not too happy today and she had some big spit ups. No fever or bad colors, so nothing to worry about. However, it made her rather stinky. So tonight was her first bath. Up until this point, we have spot cleaned due to her umbilical cord stump still in tact. However, tonight was the night. I filmed while my Sweetie carefully bathed our JuneBug making sure to keep the cord stump dry. The best part was that her mood was wonderful throughout the bath. Now she smells wonderful and her hair is sticking straight up ☺
Alas it is time to go and snuggle my two favorite people in the world.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
2-week appointment
Today was a big day. Today was my Sweetie’s first day back at work. Luckily between phone calls and instant messaging, he has stayed in the loop for all of the day’s events. He missed us so much. This morning was Serif’s two-week appointment. How can it be two weeks already?
The results are good. Her gas on Sunday was normal and since she is not experiencing colic he was not worried. Thank goodness on that front. 5:00 screaming baby does not sound like fun to me. I much prefer my little wiggle-worm at that time. Her umbilical cord stump looks good and should be coming off this week – I sure hope so. She has not grown any in regards to length. However, her weight has increased. By the two-week visit, a healthy baby should be back to their birth weight. We were not sure if she would make this goal since she lost so much in the hospital. However, our little girl is an over achiever. She gained 15 oz over this past week. She is now 7 lbs and 13 oz over her birth weight. I cannot believe it! I knew she gained – her cheeks are chubbier and she is gaining a nice double chin (this is the only time in her life where this will be a goal that everyone wants to see). I am so proud of her. She is doing so good. We do not go back until August for her two-month appointment. YAY I am a proud mommy.
Today was good. After lunch, I took a nice nap with my JuneBug and even answered some work e-mails. My Sweetie is on his way home. He called to let me know and even sang a little song for me. It made me smile so big. I love that man. Oh and I am wearing my favorite jeans today. The best part is that they are as comfortable as I remember.
Today is a very good day.
The results are good. Her gas on Sunday was normal and since she is not experiencing colic he was not worried. Thank goodness on that front. 5:00 screaming baby does not sound like fun to me. I much prefer my little wiggle-worm at that time. Her umbilical cord stump looks good and should be coming off this week – I sure hope so. She has not grown any in regards to length. However, her weight has increased. By the two-week visit, a healthy baby should be back to their birth weight. We were not sure if she would make this goal since she lost so much in the hospital. However, our little girl is an over achiever. She gained 15 oz over this past week. She is now 7 lbs and 13 oz over her birth weight. I cannot believe it! I knew she gained – her cheeks are chubbier and she is gaining a nice double chin (this is the only time in her life where this will be a goal that everyone wants to see). I am so proud of her. She is doing so good. We do not go back until August for her two-month appointment. YAY I am a proud mommy.
Today was good. After lunch, I took a nice nap with my JuneBug and even answered some work e-mails. My Sweetie is on his way home. He called to let me know and even sang a little song for me. It made me smile so big. I love that man. Oh and I am wearing my favorite jeans today. The best part is that they are as comfortable as I remember.
Today is a very good day.
Monday, June 20, 2005
Best weight loss tool ever
Today was my two-week follow up appointment. I must say that I absolutely love my doctor. As we walked into his practice area the doctor saw us and gave me a big hug and commented on how Serif is so cute.
The results of the appointment are that my incision is looking great. I can start exercising at the one month mark. We are cleared for sex, I know everyone was waiting anxiously to hear this news – this is one good thing about a c-section, no waiting 6 weeks like with vaginal. And of course, this led to the discussion about birth control. Since we got pregnant the first time without protection, we know to not take any chances. Needless to say, I received a prescription for the “mini-pill”.
Then came the weigh-in. This was the best part of the whole appointment. I gained 5 pounds during my pregnancy. My JuneBug weighed 6lbs 3ozs so I hoped to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight. I know that I can fit into my pre-pregnancy jeans but do not feel comfortable wearing jeans with my incision. The weigh in, which I had to remind the nurse about, was better than that. I weighed in at 14 pounds less than my pre-pregnancy weight. I am 19 pounds less than my weigh-in 2 weeks ago. This is a huge ego boost. My Sweetie has been telling me how thin I look, I guess he was right. Now I can focus on the remaining weight that I started the pregnancy with as well as toning my tummy.
Yesterday was Father’s day. It was so wonderful to be able to celebrate this holiday full out. MIL, SIL, Niece, Mom, and Grandpa came over for a BBQ lunch. Serif gave her daddy three Winnie-the-Pooh puppets – which he loved. MotoDiva and her daughter came over and brought Jambalaya. It was a great day even though my little angel suffered from a gassy tummy. Last night my family (I love writing that) was in bed. My Sweetie was working on the computer while Serif and I went to sleep. We were using skin on skin to help her tummy work through the gas. Just as I was starting to fall asleep, I awoke to my Sweetie voice. He looked at me while I held our baby and told me that I looked so beautiful.
Life is beyond blissful.
The results of the appointment are that my incision is looking great. I can start exercising at the one month mark. We are cleared for sex, I know everyone was waiting anxiously to hear this news – this is one good thing about a c-section, no waiting 6 weeks like with vaginal. And of course, this led to the discussion about birth control. Since we got pregnant the first time without protection, we know to not take any chances. Needless to say, I received a prescription for the “mini-pill”.
Then came the weigh-in. This was the best part of the whole appointment. I gained 5 pounds during my pregnancy. My JuneBug weighed 6lbs 3ozs so I hoped to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight. I know that I can fit into my pre-pregnancy jeans but do not feel comfortable wearing jeans with my incision. The weigh in, which I had to remind the nurse about, was better than that. I weighed in at 14 pounds less than my pre-pregnancy weight. I am 19 pounds less than my weigh-in 2 weeks ago. This is a huge ego boost. My Sweetie has been telling me how thin I look, I guess he was right. Now I can focus on the remaining weight that I started the pregnancy with as well as toning my tummy.
Yesterday was Father’s day. It was so wonderful to be able to celebrate this holiday full out. MIL, SIL, Niece, Mom, and Grandpa came over for a BBQ lunch. Serif gave her daddy three Winnie-the-Pooh puppets – which he loved. MotoDiva and her daughter came over and brought Jambalaya. It was a great day even though my little angel suffered from a gassy tummy. Last night my family (I love writing that) was in bed. My Sweetie was working on the computer while Serif and I went to sleep. We were using skin on skin to help her tummy work through the gas. Just as I was starting to fall asleep, I awoke to my Sweetie voice. He looked at me while I held our baby and told me that I looked so beautiful.
Life is beyond blissful.
Friday, June 17, 2005
Perfect Angel update, passionate kisses, and forgiveness
I have not posted much this week. I have been wonderfully distracted.
My Sweetie goes back to work on Tuesday and I have been absorbing every second that I can with him. Just when I thought our relationship could not get any better (we fell in love all over again with getting pregnant) I find where we are now. Bringing Serif into the world with him has made that love deeper and stronger. Passion is yet again more intense. My favorite things in the world are hugs and kisses. I thought I received more than I could ever desire when I was pregnant. Now, I receive even more. For example, today I drove my Sweetie to pick up his car from the shop after a much needed State Inspection. He was riding in the backseat with our angel. When we arrived, I asked if he had everything and if I should wait for him or head home. He said, “I only need a kiss from you then you can head home”. He then came into the front seat and gave me a wonderful kiss, not just a quick peck goodbye. This also happened in Serif’s room while we were packing her up for our outing today. He set down Serif (who was in her car seat), pulled me close, and kissed me. It does not get any better than that. Not only has bringing Serif home helped show us our passion, but also how well we work together. We are a great team. Every part of taking care of our infant is a team effort, that is one great thing about pumping. We both ease her crying, change her diapers, feed her, and snuggle her. We both adore her completely and cannot imagine life without her, even after only 10 days.
Right now, my two favorite people in the world are napping on the couch next to me. I could stare at them for days on end. I love them so much. They are my world.
Tuesday and Thursday served as rest days after big outings from the day before. Wednesday we went out shopping at several stores over the course of three hours. Our angel slept the entire time. Today we went to lunch with MIL and SIL. After, we went to MIL’s work to show off our JuneBug and ending the outing with stopping by Mom’s work for an impromptu visit. She slept the entire time.
Change of subject for a minute. I have written before about forgiveness. This is something I feel strongly about. You have to forgive to live. I am very emotional due to sky rocketing hormones and overwhelming life changes. While writing this, I am watching Oprah. They are talking about molestation – which is something I have no experience regarding, thank goodness. However, they also spoke of forgiveness. I really like the definition that Oprah gave regarding forgiveness and would like to share it with my readers. She said that forgiveness is giving up any hope that the past could be any different. She went on to explain that it takes a lot of energy to hate (or hold disappointment or negative feelings). She finished with saying that forgiveness is deciding that no longer will you be tied to the past.
Now that I have covered my Sweetie, my JuneBug, emotions, daily outings, and deep thoughts it is time for me to close. I must go and pump.
My Sweetie goes back to work on Tuesday and I have been absorbing every second that I can with him. Just when I thought our relationship could not get any better (we fell in love all over again with getting pregnant) I find where we are now. Bringing Serif into the world with him has made that love deeper and stronger. Passion is yet again more intense. My favorite things in the world are hugs and kisses. I thought I received more than I could ever desire when I was pregnant. Now, I receive even more. For example, today I drove my Sweetie to pick up his car from the shop after a much needed State Inspection. He was riding in the backseat with our angel. When we arrived, I asked if he had everything and if I should wait for him or head home. He said, “I only need a kiss from you then you can head home”. He then came into the front seat and gave me a wonderful kiss, not just a quick peck goodbye. This also happened in Serif’s room while we were packing her up for our outing today. He set down Serif (who was in her car seat), pulled me close, and kissed me. It does not get any better than that. Not only has bringing Serif home helped show us our passion, but also how well we work together. We are a great team. Every part of taking care of our infant is a team effort, that is one great thing about pumping. We both ease her crying, change her diapers, feed her, and snuggle her. We both adore her completely and cannot imagine life without her, even after only 10 days.
Right now, my two favorite people in the world are napping on the couch next to me. I could stare at them for days on end. I love them so much. They are my world.
Tuesday and Thursday served as rest days after big outings from the day before. Wednesday we went out shopping at several stores over the course of three hours. Our angel slept the entire time. Today we went to lunch with MIL and SIL. After, we went to MIL’s work to show off our JuneBug and ending the outing with stopping by Mom’s work for an impromptu visit. She slept the entire time.
Change of subject for a minute. I have written before about forgiveness. This is something I feel strongly about. You have to forgive to live. I am very emotional due to sky rocketing hormones and overwhelming life changes. While writing this, I am watching Oprah. They are talking about molestation – which is something I have no experience regarding, thank goodness. However, they also spoke of forgiveness. I really like the definition that Oprah gave regarding forgiveness and would like to share it with my readers. She said that forgiveness is giving up any hope that the past could be any different. She went on to explain that it takes a lot of energy to hate (or hold disappointment or negative feelings). She finished with saying that forgiveness is deciding that no longer will you be tied to the past.
Now that I have covered my Sweetie, my JuneBug, emotions, daily outings, and deep thoughts it is time for me to close. I must go and pump.
Monday, June 13, 2005
First Outing
Today was a wonderful day. Although life is very different when living in three hour increments. We took Serif to her first outing today – her first doctor’s appointment. She is doing so well. She is back up to 6lbs 1oz and now is 19.75 inches in length. The doctor’s opinion is that she is a very healthy baby. We go back on June 21st for her 2 week appointment. After the appointment we went to the grocery store. I wore a snuggly sling
I am currently in bed writing this. My Sweetie is next to me with Serif in his arms. Life is good. Although it has not even been a week, becoming a parent has changed everything. We are so happy. My Sweetie makes sure that I snuggle my JuneBug on a daily basis because he says that he loves to see me with her, he loves to watch his girls together.
I am feeling great. I cannot get over how good I feel. This morning I put Serif on the bed and laid down to simply stare at her. I did not even realize it until after watching her for a few minutes that I was on my belly without any pain or discomfort. I have not been able to do this for a few months. That combined with passionate kisses from my Sweetie makes me feel fantastic.
Now I must try to get a couple of hours sleep before my angel is ready for her next feeding. I absolutely love this.
My Sweetie would like me to let everyone know that he intends to post pictures very soon - they are waiting on his computer. He has been distracted with staring at our creation.
I am currently in bed writing this. My Sweetie is next to me with Serif in his arms. Life is good. Although it has not even been a week, becoming a parent has changed everything. We are so happy. My Sweetie makes sure that I snuggle my JuneBug on a daily basis because he says that he loves to see me with her, he loves to watch his girls together.
I am feeling great. I cannot get over how good I feel. This morning I put Serif on the bed and laid down to simply stare at her. I did not even realize it until after watching her for a few minutes that I was on my belly without any pain or discomfort. I have not been able to do this for a few months. That combined with passionate kisses from my Sweetie makes me feel fantastic.
Now I must try to get a couple of hours sleep before my angel is ready for her next feeding. I absolutely love this.
My Sweetie would like me to let everyone know that he intends to post pictures very soon - they are waiting on his computer. He has been distracted with staring at our creation.
Sunday, June 12, 2005
First Night Home
I am feeling so good right now. I do not feel any pain regarding the surgery. I can look at my daughter while I write this and know that my Sweetie is resting peacefully on the couch.
Last night she slept in my arms in our bed. My Sweetie wanted that. He feels she is safest in my arms. Mom and Brother left around midnight and she fed at 1:00 and 3:30. After the 3:30 feeding, we all crawled into bed to sleep. We slept until after 8:30. This was such a wonderful gift. She woke up hungry and I to engorged breasts. While I pumped, still issues with her latching on, Sweetie cleaned her diaper. Now both are sleeping.
I know today will be busy. People will be coming over to see my baby. Did I mention that she is perfect and the most beautiful baby ever? My mom brought over my baby book and there is a big resemblance between me and Serif. However, she seems to have a nice mixture of both of us. She has Sweetie’s toes and blood type for sure.
I am so happy.
Last night she slept in my arms in our bed. My Sweetie wanted that. He feels she is safest in my arms. Mom and Brother left around midnight and she fed at 1:00 and 3:30. After the 3:30 feeding, we all crawled into bed to sleep. We slept until after 8:30. This was such a wonderful gift. She woke up hungry and I to engorged breasts. While I pumped, still issues with her latching on, Sweetie cleaned her diaper. Now both are sleeping.
I know today will be busy. People will be coming over to see my baby. Did I mention that she is perfect and the most beautiful baby ever? My mom brought over my baby book and there is a big resemblance between me and Serif. However, she seems to have a nice mixture of both of us. She has Sweetie’s toes and blood type for sure.
I am so happy.
Home Again
This will most likely be a long post. I have many days to blog about. Currently I am sitting in my dining room with a bassinet next to me and my Sweetie on the couch taking a nap. However, that I am getting ahead of myself.
Since I do not wish to bore you with the details of Tuesday’s surgery, although I find it all very exciting, I will try to hit the main points. We arrived at the hospital at 11 for my surgery at 1. This was exciting. My Sweetie and I took pictures of my soon to be smaller belly and generally hung out. My mom met us in the pre-op room and helped to entertain us. Unfortunately my doctor was running late due to another surgery. I did not go into the operating room until almost 3:00.
Here is the cliff notes version of what happened. I walked into the operating room to start the process. Sweetie puts on his scrubs and joins me when he is allowed into the sterile environment. The first thing I receive is a spinal tap. The first attempt did not take and I received some pain. I consider myself to have a high tolerance of pain and I was brought to tears. The second attempt was much better and began working instantly. You know how when you drink your legs become very heavy. This is what it felt like at first. The next thing I knew I was numb from the nipples down – yes this is what the anesthesiologist told me to expect, not chest but nipples. We thought he was crazy for saying this. However, it is true. I was not numb from the chest down, but more specifically from the nipples down. I did not feel the tugging or pulling that I read I would in the beginning. Actually, I do not even know when they officially started. They allowed my Sweetie to come into the room. I was so happy to see him. I had already gotten sick due to the spinal tap and just needed his presence. My Sweetie was cheering me on and making sure that I was ok. I was great and even cracked a few jokes with everyone in the room. The next thing we hear is about the size of her head. This caused my Sweetie to stand up and watch the surgery. While he did not see the initial incision, he did watch everything else. I can officially say that my man knows me inside and out. Next thing I know is that I feel a HUGE pressure on my chest. Keep in mind that I had a screen blocking my view of anything. The pressure (which I expected from my research) was the action of pushing the baby out. She was already engaged in my pelvis some and this was harder than anticipated. I would not have been able to deliver her naturally. Then I hear “Here she comes” from the doctor and I instantly begin to tear up. He brought her out and said “I am sorry, but I have to show her to you right now she is so beautiful.” And she was. My Sweetie went to her side while they began finishing up with me. After an initial cleaning, her brought her to me. We both were overcome with tears. I was able to kiss her a couple times and he went to the nursery with her to get her checked out. The nurse called a few minutes later to find out her official stats.
At 3:04pm on June 7, 2005, Serif Paige Tolleson entered the world weighing a whopping 6lbs 3oz and 19 inches in length.
By the time the staff was ready to move me into the recovery room, I was already losing some of my numbness. While in recovery, my Sweetie brought her to me to hold and attempt breastfeeding. She could only stay a minute because she had an appointment with a bath. I finished in recovery and got to check into my room. The numbness was all but gone at this point. Due to the late surgery, it was not long before visitors began filling the room. In fact, I had visitors before I had my baby in my arms. My room was filled with people. I felt so very blessed, loved, happy, overcome and amazing. My Sweetie stayed with the baby no matter where she went and took perfect care of me when he was in the room. He constantly told me through tear filled eyes how much he loves me and how I am so beautiful.
We stayed four nights. Sweetie stayed each night with me. I was not feeling bad at all. Tuesday night I stood up without any problems. By Wednesday morning, I met the requirements to enjoy a normal diet of hospital food. Wednesday afternoon I was unhooked from the machines and able to take a shower on my own. I was very impressed with my progress. Thursday night Serif’s weight showed more than a 10% weight loss. This combined with her petite size had us stay an extra night. Friday night she showed everyone and gained back enough weight to allow her to go home without concern.
Throughout this “vacation”, I was very well taken care of. I have to brag about my Sweetie. He was so wonderful. As of writing this, I still have not changed a diaper. Due to the surgery, I was still in the operating room when he went to the nursery and the nurses went over swaddling, diapers, umbilical cord care, burping, and various other words of wisdom. He came to the room prepared and very competent. He got up with me to console her each time she cried. When she was not easily consoled, he had me stay in bed and he paced with her. I know that he is my partner in this. He is already such a great father. Even the nurses commented on how great he is. He was so involved with the pregnancy. I knew he would be great when she arrived. However, I had no idea how above and beyond he would be. He would have me nap while he stayed awake. While I was pumping, he would bring me water without me asking him to and help me drink it since I did not have a free hand. He got very excited to be able to feed Serif when we introduced an SNS feeding system into the routine. And he showed the correct amount of concern when we found out about her weight loss. As I sit here, I can see his detailed log of Serif’s activities (feedings and diapers). He loves her so much. He loves me so much. He loves our family so much.
We came home yesterday afternoon after taping a magical moment with a large butterfly and receiving the ok from a pediatrician. Once home my Sweetie went to the door first so that he could tape Serif and me getting out of the car and coming into the house. Inside we found a wonderful surprise. My friends borrowed my Mom’s house key and came in and left vases filled with flowers throughout the house. It was a wonderful surprise. The afternoon/evening consisted of both Grandmas coming over as well as Brother.
It was such a magical journey. Since this post is almost twice the length I normally like to write, I will begin a new post to discuss our first night home.
I am so unbelievably happy.
Since I do not wish to bore you with the details of Tuesday’s surgery, although I find it all very exciting, I will try to hit the main points. We arrived at the hospital at 11 for my surgery at 1. This was exciting. My Sweetie and I took pictures of my soon to be smaller belly and generally hung out. My mom met us in the pre-op room and helped to entertain us. Unfortunately my doctor was running late due to another surgery. I did not go into the operating room until almost 3:00.
Here is the cliff notes version of what happened. I walked into the operating room to start the process. Sweetie puts on his scrubs and joins me when he is allowed into the sterile environment. The first thing I receive is a spinal tap. The first attempt did not take and I received some pain. I consider myself to have a high tolerance of pain and I was brought to tears. The second attempt was much better and began working instantly. You know how when you drink your legs become very heavy. This is what it felt like at first. The next thing I knew I was numb from the nipples down – yes this is what the anesthesiologist told me to expect, not chest but nipples. We thought he was crazy for saying this. However, it is true. I was not numb from the chest down, but more specifically from the nipples down. I did not feel the tugging or pulling that I read I would in the beginning. Actually, I do not even know when they officially started. They allowed my Sweetie to come into the room. I was so happy to see him. I had already gotten sick due to the spinal tap and just needed his presence. My Sweetie was cheering me on and making sure that I was ok. I was great and even cracked a few jokes with everyone in the room. The next thing we hear is about the size of her head. This caused my Sweetie to stand up and watch the surgery. While he did not see the initial incision, he did watch everything else. I can officially say that my man knows me inside and out. Next thing I know is that I feel a HUGE pressure on my chest. Keep in mind that I had a screen blocking my view of anything. The pressure (which I expected from my research) was the action of pushing the baby out. She was already engaged in my pelvis some and this was harder than anticipated. I would not have been able to deliver her naturally. Then I hear “Here she comes” from the doctor and I instantly begin to tear up. He brought her out and said “I am sorry, but I have to show her to you right now she is so beautiful.” And she was. My Sweetie went to her side while they began finishing up with me. After an initial cleaning, her brought her to me. We both were overcome with tears. I was able to kiss her a couple times and he went to the nursery with her to get her checked out. The nurse called a few minutes later to find out her official stats.
At 3:04pm on June 7, 2005, Serif Paige Tolleson entered the world weighing a whopping 6lbs 3oz and 19 inches in length.
By the time the staff was ready to move me into the recovery room, I was already losing some of my numbness. While in recovery, my Sweetie brought her to me to hold and attempt breastfeeding. She could only stay a minute because she had an appointment with a bath. I finished in recovery and got to check into my room. The numbness was all but gone at this point. Due to the late surgery, it was not long before visitors began filling the room. In fact, I had visitors before I had my baby in my arms. My room was filled with people. I felt so very blessed, loved, happy, overcome and amazing. My Sweetie stayed with the baby no matter where she went and took perfect care of me when he was in the room. He constantly told me through tear filled eyes how much he loves me and how I am so beautiful.
We stayed four nights. Sweetie stayed each night with me. I was not feeling bad at all. Tuesday night I stood up without any problems. By Wednesday morning, I met the requirements to enjoy a normal diet of hospital food. Wednesday afternoon I was unhooked from the machines and able to take a shower on my own. I was very impressed with my progress. Thursday night Serif’s weight showed more than a 10% weight loss. This combined with her petite size had us stay an extra night. Friday night she showed everyone and gained back enough weight to allow her to go home without concern.
Throughout this “vacation”, I was very well taken care of. I have to brag about my Sweetie. He was so wonderful. As of writing this, I still have not changed a diaper. Due to the surgery, I was still in the operating room when he went to the nursery and the nurses went over swaddling, diapers, umbilical cord care, burping, and various other words of wisdom. He came to the room prepared and very competent. He got up with me to console her each time she cried. When she was not easily consoled, he had me stay in bed and he paced with her. I know that he is my partner in this. He is already such a great father. Even the nurses commented on how great he is. He was so involved with the pregnancy. I knew he would be great when she arrived. However, I had no idea how above and beyond he would be. He would have me nap while he stayed awake. While I was pumping, he would bring me water without me asking him to and help me drink it since I did not have a free hand. He got very excited to be able to feed Serif when we introduced an SNS feeding system into the routine. And he showed the correct amount of concern when we found out about her weight loss. As I sit here, I can see his detailed log of Serif’s activities (feedings and diapers). He loves her so much. He loves me so much. He loves our family so much.
We came home yesterday afternoon after taping a magical moment with a large butterfly and receiving the ok from a pediatrician. Once home my Sweetie went to the door first so that he could tape Serif and me getting out of the car and coming into the house. Inside we found a wonderful surprise. My friends borrowed my Mom’s house key and came in and left vases filled with flowers throughout the house. It was a wonderful surprise. The afternoon/evening consisted of both Grandmas coming over as well as Brother.
It was such a magical journey. Since this post is almost twice the length I normally like to write, I will begin a new post to discuss our first night home.
I am so unbelievably happy.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Heading out
Last night was a nice send off dinner. Mom, Brother, and Brother’s wife came over for dinner. Unfortunately, my niece was ill so MIL and SIL were not able to make it. When going to bed we set the alarm for 2:00am for my last meal. We went to WhataBurger for an early breakfast for me. My Sweetie brought the camcorder and we taped our thoughts about today’s events and explaining Whataburger to my JuneBug. This was the first place we ate after finding out we were pregnant and now the last place during the pregnancy that I ate. It was so much fun. We got home and I finished packing everything for the hospital. I had the “oh my goodness, I am in labor” bag packed, but I needed the planned ahead with entertainment items and such.
Now all I have left is a shower and I will be ready to go. This is so amazing and crazy. I have received so many warm thoughts and wishes. Some from people I would not expect, and that means so much. My hormones are rather high today – but I feel so very loved and blessed.
Now I must go and prepare to become a Mom. I love the sound of that.
Now all I have left is a shower and I will be ready to go. This is so amazing and crazy. I have received so many warm thoughts and wishes. Some from people I would not expect, and that means so much. My hormones are rather high today – but I feel so very loved and blessed.
Now I must go and prepare to become a Mom. I love the sound of that.
Monday, June 06, 2005
24 hours and counting
Not that I am counting. But in 24 hours I will go in for my c-section. YAYAYAYAYAY. I am so distracted today. I hope I am making sense to my temp. Today's appointment was wonderful. I lost weight and now am only at gaining 5.6 pounds - which is crazy.
Doctor wants me to still get the c-section. He told my Sweetie that if it were his wife, he would want her to have the c-section. That is all it took. My Sweetie said "then we shall see you tomorrow". I cannot wait.
I am hoping some "final thoughts" tonight. After that I probably won't be able to post again until I come home, unless I get my Sweetie to post my thoughts for me. I am sure his blog will have pictures of our angel.
Now I am going back to training.
Doctor wants me to still get the c-section. He told my Sweetie that if it were his wife, he would want her to have the c-section. That is all it took. My Sweetie said "then we shall see you tomorrow". I cannot wait.
I am hoping some "final thoughts" tonight. After that I probably won't be able to post again until I come home, unless I get my Sweetie to post my thoughts for me. I am sure his blog will have pictures of our angel.
Now I am going back to training.
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Glow in the dark excitement
Yesterday was the best date day. We had lunch outside at the Arboretum and then headed to BabiesRus to pick up our crib. After stopping to purchase a couple more items for our JuneBug’s room, we headed to dinner. A fabulously romantic dinner was exactly what we needed for our last alone day before her arrival. We then headed to Main Event and played a round of glow in the dark miniature golf. It was so much fun, as well as entertaining to watch me play with my big belly.
Today was another great day preparing for our baby’s homecoming. MIL and Sweetie assembled the crib and took care of the yard. Mom and I did the grocery shopping and picked up a couple of items for baby – such as the #1 children’s book right now and magazines of her birth month. Her room is complete. I absolutely love the way the crib looks against the paint. My Sweetie chose very well. He took many photos and perhaps he will post some.
After dinner with MIL and Mom, I decided to begin my pampering. Since tomorrow will consist of a family dinner and last minute packing, I knew tonight would be my last real chance. I was able to take a long bubble bath – with many kisses from my Sweetie when he checked on me. I enjoyed a facial and shaved my legs (yes I can still shave my legs on my own).
Tomorrow morning is our last appointment. I believe she might have flipped again. We shall know for sure soon enough. I will also receive any last minute advice from my doctor for Tuesday’s main event. I want to treasure these last moments, these moments where my Sweetie and I are gushing with excitement. These last moments before our whole world changes.
Now I must get some sleep. Our appointment is early in the morning.
Today was another great day preparing for our baby’s homecoming. MIL and Sweetie assembled the crib and took care of the yard. Mom and I did the grocery shopping and picked up a couple of items for baby – such as the #1 children’s book right now and magazines of her birth month. Her room is complete. I absolutely love the way the crib looks against the paint. My Sweetie chose very well. He took many photos and perhaps he will post some.
After dinner with MIL and Mom, I decided to begin my pampering. Since tomorrow will consist of a family dinner and last minute packing, I knew tonight would be my last real chance. I was able to take a long bubble bath – with many kisses from my Sweetie when he checked on me. I enjoyed a facial and shaved my legs (yes I can still shave my legs on my own).
Tomorrow morning is our last appointment. I believe she might have flipped again. We shall know for sure soon enough. I will also receive any last minute advice from my doctor for Tuesday’s main event. I want to treasure these last moments, these moments where my Sweetie and I are gushing with excitement. These last moments before our whole world changes.
Now I must get some sleep. Our appointment is early in the morning.
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Plastic wrapped butterflies
I have a brief moment to post while my Sweetie and MIL move the crib into the room. Rather the box that the parts of the crib are in – some assembly required. It actually arrived when we were told. We finally have a crib. MIL and Sweetie will assemble the crib tomorrow. Tomorrow the room will be complete and ready for its new owner.
Last night was amazing. I am so very blessed and loved. My Sweetie was so wonderful about everything. It was a Diva only event but he did not want to be away from me for any extended time. He occupied himself with video taping and taking digital photos of the five divas (myself included) and my mom – who is their rent-a-mom.
We enjoyed Chinese food and bubble tea. After dinner, the fun began. DarkDiva started her work of art on my belly. It was a great set up. I was sitting in a papason (sp?) chair reclined in MotoDiva’s dining room. Everyone was in the same room and we were able to chat throughout the evening. My belly looks amazing. She really outdid herself. As of this morning, it is already darker than the last time. We applied cotton balls to the dried henna and then wrapped plastic wrap around my belly. This helped the area create the needed heat for development. The best part was at one point I had DarkDiva painting my belly and BestFriend was rubbing my feet with lotion and applying polish. It was heaven. At the same time, MotoDiva applied henna to Mom’s palm. This led to the fact that Sweetie needed some henna as well. He is such a good sport. MotoDiva told him to take off his shirt, and he did. She suggested a design on his shoulder and he did not even put up a single fight. She applied a very manly butterfly.
After over three hours, the artwork was complete. I was not only thrilled by the results, but DarkDiva was happy with her design as well. Everyone received henna and all the women received a sparkly toenail polish topcoat to show support for Tuesday’s events.
Many people suggested to my Sweetie that he should send me to a spa for a day at the end of my pregnancy. Last night was my spa treatment. It was even better than an actual spa. I was pampered in a stress free environment surrounded by people I love. I cannot stop smiling about it. I am so very lucky.
After the final blessing from the Divas, I am ready to have my JuneBug. Now she just needs to hold out until Tuesday. I am having some contractions, though nothing within the time frame to warrant calling the doctor. She also moved lower during the night. This is nothing of which to get excited. This just means the process is starting. I could stay exactly like this for days or weeks.
Today is a date day for Sweetie and me. It has been wonderful so far. After I finish this post, we will head back out for more fun. Tomorrow will consist of cleaning the last minute items for her arrival. Monday is the final doctor’s appointment, my last day of work until August 31, and a family dinner in celebration of the next day.
So much is planned for the next three days, yet it feels like time is going so slow. My Sweetie is so amazing about all of this. He is so excited to meet her. He tells me how much he adores me and how much he loves our family.
OK I am starting to get emotional. I am off to finish my date day.
Last night was amazing. I am so very blessed and loved. My Sweetie was so wonderful about everything. It was a Diva only event but he did not want to be away from me for any extended time. He occupied himself with video taping and taking digital photos of the five divas (myself included) and my mom – who is their rent-a-mom.
We enjoyed Chinese food and bubble tea. After dinner, the fun began. DarkDiva started her work of art on my belly. It was a great set up. I was sitting in a papason (sp?) chair reclined in MotoDiva’s dining room. Everyone was in the same room and we were able to chat throughout the evening. My belly looks amazing. She really outdid herself. As of this morning, it is already darker than the last time. We applied cotton balls to the dried henna and then wrapped plastic wrap around my belly. This helped the area create the needed heat for development. The best part was at one point I had DarkDiva painting my belly and BestFriend was rubbing my feet with lotion and applying polish. It was heaven. At the same time, MotoDiva applied henna to Mom’s palm. This led to the fact that Sweetie needed some henna as well. He is such a good sport. MotoDiva told him to take off his shirt, and he did. She suggested a design on his shoulder and he did not even put up a single fight. She applied a very manly butterfly.
After over three hours, the artwork was complete. I was not only thrilled by the results, but DarkDiva was happy with her design as well. Everyone received henna and all the women received a sparkly toenail polish topcoat to show support for Tuesday’s events.
Many people suggested to my Sweetie that he should send me to a spa for a day at the end of my pregnancy. Last night was my spa treatment. It was even better than an actual spa. I was pampered in a stress free environment surrounded by people I love. I cannot stop smiling about it. I am so very lucky.
After the final blessing from the Divas, I am ready to have my JuneBug. Now she just needs to hold out until Tuesday. I am having some contractions, though nothing within the time frame to warrant calling the doctor. She also moved lower during the night. This is nothing of which to get excited. This just means the process is starting. I could stay exactly like this for days or weeks.
Today is a date day for Sweetie and me. It has been wonderful so far. After I finish this post, we will head back out for more fun. Tomorrow will consist of cleaning the last minute items for her arrival. Monday is the final doctor’s appointment, my last day of work until August 31, and a family dinner in celebration of the next day.
So much is planned for the next three days, yet it feels like time is going so slow. My Sweetie is so amazing about all of this. He is so excited to meet her. He tells me how much he adores me and how much he loves our family.
OK I am starting to get emotional. I am off to finish my date day.
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Happy Belly
Looking out my window, I contemplate the life inside me. Our world is changing and quickly. My uneven belly shows me where she is sleeping. I place my hand on her, only flesh separating us for the next few days.
I am so excited. Scared? Yes, of course. I just want to meet this girl so badly.
Two days of work remain. Is that not crazy? The training is going well. Although I am confident that she cannot replace me and when I return they will be happy to have my knowledge and expertise back.
Tomorrow night we have a grand adventure planned. The Divas are throwing a dinner in honor of JuneBug’s upcoming arrival. We will have a relaxing dinner and DarkDiva will proceed to adorn my belly with a henna design for the upcoming event. We are meeting at MotoDiva’s house. I suggested the location because she lives very close to the hospital (just in case).
In the film we developed over the weekend we received the pictures of the last pregnant belly henna design. The pictures came out perfect. I cannot wait to see the design DarkDiva chooses for tomorrow.
I am so excited. Scared? Yes, of course. I just want to meet this girl so badly.
Two days of work remain. Is that not crazy? The training is going well. Although I am confident that she cannot replace me and when I return they will be happy to have my knowledge and expertise back.
Tomorrow night we have a grand adventure planned. The Divas are throwing a dinner in honor of JuneBug’s upcoming arrival. We will have a relaxing dinner and DarkDiva will proceed to adorn my belly with a henna design for the upcoming event. We are meeting at MotoDiva’s house. I suggested the location because she lives very close to the hospital (just in case).
In the film we developed over the weekend we received the pictures of the last pregnant belly henna design. The pictures came out perfect. I cannot wait to see the design DarkDiva chooses for tomorrow.
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
38 Week Appointment
Today was our 38-week appointment. In spite of the odds, she flipped. The flipping finished in the waiting room for the appointment. This is so rare at this point that the doctor almost did not check to see her positioning. However, he is still concerned about my pelvis size so the appointment for Tuesday still stands.
Tonight we went to dinner with Best Friend and her husband. It was a great dinner and now I am full and very tired, not sleeping for the last two nights has not helped. Because of this, my post is much shorter than normal. I am off to the land of slumber. Hopefully my Sweetie will not require many pillows, I am so comfortable right now.
Only 3 more days of work, wooo hooo!!!!
Tonight we went to dinner with Best Friend and her husband. It was a great dinner and now I am full and very tired, not sleeping for the last two nights has not helped. Because of this, my post is much shorter than normal. I am off to the land of slumber. Hopefully my Sweetie will not require many pillows, I am so comfortable right now.
Only 3 more days of work, wooo hooo!!!!
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