Back to Reality

My weekend was so very fun. Now it is time to get back to reality. Yesterday was busy at work. Honestly, it is crazy. Nothing I cannot handle as I was lucky enough to be able to leave on time. I don't mind crazy days when you still get a lunch and don't have to work late. Last night it was obvious that the weekend of little sleep caught up to me. I was exhausted.

This morning I got to sleep in a little as Bug had a ENT appointment at 9. All is good. We go back in another 4 months. He expects for one if not both of the tubes to be out at that point. We will continue to go to him to make sure the fluid does not build back up. He said we may need to put them back in during the winter. Bug is getting so big. She asked me to do her hair this morning, walked into the examination room, asked to sit in the big chair alone, and didn't say a word when anyone put anything in her ears. She is the best.

Next week my CPA review starts. YIKES. I am very excited. However, I am still lacking my CDs and username and password to log in. It is all good. I also need to schedule the actual test.

Three weeks until Chuys/Daisy/Mother's Day. I can do it. Diet wise, I want to get back on the beach. However, due to the BB, I did not go to the store yet. I did get a good phase 2 lunch today; chef salad, fruit, yogurt, and a sobe lean. Yummy. I am focused on keeping these toe nails as pretty as they are right now - every 10 pound loss = mani/pedi. Sweetie said he would even go with me and get his done. He must love me a TON.

I love being busy, but it means less time to blog or read blogs. Oh well, such is life. I will get back to checking in with everyone as soon as work starts to slow down.

The Results Are In

After four weeks on SouthBeach, I measured myself. The results are good. I am down 6 pounds. I am keeping at my 1 pound a week loss. That works for me. I am happy with any loss. But the most awesome thing is that I am also down 1" on each calf, 1" on each arm, 1" off my hips, and 2" off my waist. No wonder Sweetie says I look thinner - I am. I like this. Talk about motivation to start exercising. If I can have a loss like this without exercising, imagine what exercising could do. That is the goal for this next week.

This was a great weekend. Sweetie and I enjoyed each other so much. I love weekends that turn out great without any plans or expectations. I got my hair trimmed, Sweetie got his cut very short again - he can't pay for a trim, he just doesn't think it makes sense. We got errands done, talked a lot, spent time with family, took care of Bug, felt frustration together with Bug (she is 20 months and just starting to feel better while still not herself, that can cause frustration), and made the best SB friendly hamburgers. Mom and I even had a chance for a couple of good talks. It has been awhile since we just chatted - in spite of seeing each other on an average of three times a week. And the sewing party was a success. We talked about the upcoming wedding. I hope we didn't freak SIL#2 out too much. We kept asking about details and she had not thought of them. It will all come together.

It was just a good weekend. It was the kind of weekend that makes you feel very comfortable in your life, like putting on your favorite pair of jeans. I really am happy in my life. I know this is where I am supposed to be. So why so sentimental? Other than me being my normal self? Valentine's Day is coming up. And before you groan, it is a special day to me. Nothing to do with hearts, candy, or overpriced flowers that wilt by the end of the night. No, for me it marks the night that Sweetie proposed to me. This Wednesday marks 10 years for us. Ten years since he got on stage and proposed to me. Ten years since I made the most important, and best, decision of my life. Yes, I am very sentimental. Yes, I am very date driven. Yes, this is how the posts are going to be this week. What are we doing to celebrate? Not sure. Something very us, I am sure.

With that I am going to bed. I have a little girl whose schedule is off and I need to get her to sleep.

What day is today?

I am a little lost today. Yesterday, I stayed home with Bug. I think she is getting in more teeth and it is bringing her down. She was super grumpy so I decided she needed a mommy day. She took TWO naps - she hasn't done that for like 8 months, unless she is sick. The first one was 2 hours and the second was 3 hours. We had fun, we played and went to Target. It was a very nice and relaxing day. And, of course, now today feels like a Monday.

So let's talk about the 'ol diet. I hit my 5 pound mark. Please keep in mind each oz has been slow to lose due to my meds. This weekend, with carnaval, I was not spot on. I had some spinach dip, crackers, and brownie bites at the hotel room. And then I had honey mustard dressing and brocolli and cheese soup at Kerby Lane. That combined with the hamburger and french fries at Fudruckers on Sunday - means I gained a little weight back, hence the reason I weighed today and not yesterday. What I learned is that I went off and I got right back on. The old Missy would have eaten badly all day Sunday. I was good. Yesterday, I ate phase one and today I am back to phase two. I don't feel guilty or upset with myself. That is another huge problem for me, I expect perfection. And when I don't give it, I give up. That is not the case this time. Yay me for taking this as the lifestyle change that it is.

And one more month until my next blood work. Hoping they reduce meds at that point.

Today is a beautiful day. It makes me want to walk. I hope I get a chance tonight before the craziness of the evening begins. I have been contemplating rejoining the gym. However, Sweetie pointed out that we might want to have the habit of exercise before we add a commute into the mix - even a 5 minutes one. So, I am going to use that as a goal - myabe when I reach a certain weight and I need some intense exercise to reach goal. Until then I am going to workout to the best of my ability at home and put that $115 a month towards our next vacation.

I am feeling good. Which is good. Last night I had sadness. I hate middle of the night, wake up wide awake, kind of sadness. But I am feeling much better this morning. I think it was mostly due to needing more sleep. Who knows. But what I do know is that when the alarm went off I was sleeping so nicely that I didn't get up and exercise. I pressed snooze. And I was dreaming that my dreams were making the alarm go off.

OK It is time to start getting ready to get my Bug.

How is it already Wednesday?

I am happy again today. I had my 90 day review today - a month late. It went REALLY well. No raise or anything like that but good to know that they like my work. And I like it here, so everyone is happy.

So last night with my bubble bath I had planned on drinking some wine. But I didn't want to open a bottle for just me. I need to get some of those small bottles, I love those. So I got a glass of water and one extra-dark chocolate. I was going to indulge. I took it to the tub. It sat on the side. Bug gave it to me to move - she will give you things, and do things, just to hear "thank you". We finished our bath. I looked at the chocolate. Did not want it. Wasn't even tempted. I walked over to Sweetie and told him that chocolate would wait until I had my ultimate Missy Bath. And I put it back into the container. Man this is awesome. I could get used to this.

Sweetie also had a review today - though his was his annual. Yay! Sweetie got a small raise. Way to go!!! Tonight is gaming night at our house. This means Sweetie gets to play his game without too much interruption.

Carnaval is coming up quickly - Saturday. I need to decide what I am going to wear. Sweetie and I are not going as outragous as last year. We just don't have the time. My goal is something simple, sexy, and comfortable.

In other news, still no trampoline. There is a huge shortage on the kind that I want. Luckily I have a great deal coming when it finally gets here. If it ever gets here. /sigh

Not much more going on. I feel boring today. I want to go and get my Bug and go home. Sweetie hopes that we can do a lil shopping tonight. I hope we find what we are looking for.

Oh and drum roll please - our get out of debt plan is working - one credit card and one loan paid off. YAY!!!!! One step at a time.

Bathtime

Feeling good. Today is day two of phase two. Well I did start phase two 12 hours early as I had dinner on Sunday with a healthy grain. I am feeling good. But there are two things that I NEED to do. I need to exercise and I need to stop weighing myself everyday. This only frustrates me. I know I am on medication that can make losing weight impossible. I know this. I know this is out of my control. But I still check. Everyday. Check to see how I have done. But when the scale doesn't move I get a lil sad. So only once a week now. I do have to report that phase one did take care of my cravings. I didn't think it would work, but it has. The first week I was living for my sugar free snack at night. Last night I didn't have it, or even want it. Awesome. I know that this is a lifestyle change. I know that I am eating much healthier. I just need to give my body a chance to respond.

Today the plumber came and fixed our water. The pressure has been very low for over a year. OMG I heart my plumber. Why? Because he fixed it. I had no idea the low level of pressure that we were putting up with until it was fixed. And man it is fixed. For the first time since having Bug, I had a great bath. Now it wasn't the candlelit, ipod playing, wine drinking bath that I planned. Instead I enjoyed a candlelit bath with my Bug. And it was perfect. I am so very happy. Water pressure...I tell ya, it is the little things in life.

randomness from the head of a mouse

I am all over the place today. I am still feeling great - day 12. I am not depressed. I am simply emotional. I want to surround myself with family and friends. I also want to organize. Yes, I am in that kind of mood. We went out to eat last night. I have the SB dining book. I did great. All phase one and then pudding when we got home. Yay me. And it is official SIL#2's wedding date is set for 7/14. I have 24 weeks, I can do it.

This weekend is going to be fun. Tonight is family night and helping Mom make sandwiches for a funeral. I know it doesn't sound like fun, but it is since we are helping. Tomorrow is Bug's friend's b-day party - I thought was last weekend, nope. Then on Sunday we are hoping to get some good photos of Bug and SIL#1's dog in the park.

I am also in a mood let my internets know more about me. What is going on in that pretty head of mine?
~I want to do the LiveStrong Challenge - Oct 12-14 in Austin. There is a 5k run/walk and a bike ride. I want to do the 5k.
~Cap 10k is still on my mind. Hopefully, I can get out and walk more than once next week.
~Blog Blowout is mid-April. This is going to be a blast. I cannot wait to meet everyone face to face.
~I have not had any fast food in almost two weeks. That is awesome.
~My favorite morning drink. Take two cups of 1% milk - heat in microwave 2-2:30. Put in a cup with a bag of tea - ( I have tried chai and vanilla caramel truffle) - and two splenda. This is sooo good. I have been totally getting in my dairy.
~I feel so much healthier. I go back for more blood work March 7th. I am hoping, hoping, hoping, that finally they are going to reduce my meds.
~Interesting thing, when I got my eyes tested I told them about my Graves'. Graves' has a potential for eye issues - so optometrists know about it as well. They asked if I had the radiation and when I said that I was using the meds two doctors at different points and not near each other interrupted me saying I was on meds with "oh, of course you probably want more children." Now with my research I have found that this treatment is supposed to keep my fertility in tact, but that scared the crap out of me.
~Chatting with DarkDiva and her Jeff made me want to rejoin our old gym. The main reason we quit was cost. Second was hours of the family time in the pool and the daycare. The hours have changed. Yay. We might be rejoining.
~I just passed on Chocolate Cake, banana split pie, and carrot cake. And TWICE, as I went into the break room TWICE. I AM SOOO GOOD
~I am now surfing Southbeachdiet.com for phase two chocolate cake recipes
~I think it is cool that my friend's husbands are reading my blog
~When I was passing on the Sweets the second time, my boss says "didn't you complete a marathon or something like that" - DAMN can't say yes while eating chocolate cake. Well, I am sure MotoDiva would argue that. And SHE has completed a half ironman, so maybe she is more right than I am.
~I don't think celery is a good alternative to chocolate cake.
~When I reach my first goal - BMI under 30, I am getting a manicure and pedicure.
~There are no phase two chocolate cake recipes. I will have to look in the cookbooks.

OK off to get a Bug. Have a great weekend.

BOO YA

Today marks day one of week TWO of phase one. The last week, the week that I am sure is going to test me. But week one was a full on success. I know I posted about it last night, but you never know what could happen before going to bed. Luckily I enjoyed my "no sugar added" skinny cow, and had a good nights sleep.

So good that I got up and walked this morning. Before 7:00 and in the dark and cold. And while it was only 20 minutes due to time, it felt good. I hope to be able to do it again tomorrow.

I listened to the radio as I walked and they said that today is the most depressing day of 2007. "THE MOST DEPRESSING DAY OF THE YEAR - According to studies, today is the most depressing day of the whole year. People are most likely to get the blues today because the weather is bad, you freak over your Christmas debt, and you've broken your New Years Resolutions. " Of course, I heard this while I was walking, and we used cash for all our Christmas purchases. For some, I can see how today could be depressing. But I am just happy that it isn't me. In fact I laughed out loud when they said it. Life is good!

Tonight is gymnastics and since it is Sweetie's turn, I am going to treat myself to hair dye and a manicure. I cannot wait until phase two when I can have a glass of red wine with my pampering.

Other than that we are boring and I cannot think of the witty things that have run through my mind all day that would make an excellent blog. I totally need to stop and write it down as it hits me.

I am feeling great again. Woo Hoo. And I need to fucus on how I feel. My thyroid will still fight me for my weight loss - well the meds will. So every single oz is positive. By the way, I updated my sidebar, new BMI listed. I am getting closer. My first goal is to be below 30. That is only 9 pounds away. I can do this.

time to blog

As I write this Sweetie is in the kitchen swaying with Bug in his arms and singing a little song to get her to sleep. There is nothing sexier than a father.

I feel that I have not truly blogged in some time. Between ice, work, getting back on schedule, and life in general - I have found the time just slip by. This was a great weekend. Today is day 7 on South Beach Phase One. The last time I tried phase one, I caved on day 5. Today at day 7 - I am going strong. Official weigh in to come tomorrow. For the first time in over 10 months, I feel in control. While I am still fighting some cravings, I have been successful when Sweetie and Bug have eaten non-phase one foods around me. I am simply not as hungry as I used to be. And we are eating great food. I feel more control with everything in my life. I am happy at work, happy at home, and finally am taking actual control of my health.

Yesterday, Sweetie needed some alone time to work on some freelance. After a three hour nap, Bug and I headed out. We went to B&N first. OK so I know my daughter is small. I know she is tiny. But she has good cheeks, is not skin and bones, and if you watch her play you can tell she is healthy healthy healthy. I am so sick of people saying "wow she is small". Some people say petite. This woman at B&N sees Bug and you would think she saw something horrible. She says "she is so small!" I smile at Bug and say "yes, she is". Then she says "No, I mean she is really tiny. She is small right?". I say "yes, she is in the 3rd percentile, but very healthy" I continue to watch bug who is picking out a book and stuffie and climbing into a chair - without any aid. The lady then makes a comment about her son being in the 77th percentile. This is not a contest. The higher the number does not mean the healthier or better. And asking me if she really is small - did she think I was in denial? I get comments about her size all the time. This was the first time that someone was like this about it. GRRRRR. In spite of this Bug and I had fun and she got three books out of the deal.

We then went to the mall. We walked it 1.5 times. Now it is not a big mall - but that was a ton of walking for a Bug. She even made me do some interval training. Then we hit Target - of course. This is where it gets interesting. On SB you can have sugar free pudding. My HEB has the chocolate and swirl. Target had so many flavors, I got several but the best was mint chocolate sundae. I am set for several weeks now. I know it is the little things in life. Bug and I had the best time and Sweetie was very productive. The best part? Not a single melt down.

Today was the store and I am prepared for the second half of phase one. Bring it on.

Nine weeks until the 10k. I gotta get to my training.

Snow

It is snowing! Yep, in Texas. I worked one hour yesterday before coming home - no one was there. I packed up some work to do from home and got my Bug. The weather didn't get as bad as they were afraid - which is good. But some ice causes problems here as we are not used to it.

Today, my work is closed. Yay. That means that any work I do from home will be to get ahead and not to make sure that I do not have to use PTO. Sweetie is home too. We are going to have a fun day. Watching movies and playing are on order. Right now we are watching Signing Times - this is an awesome show.

One good thing about the weather - well there are a lot of good things - but is that I started phase one of South Beach yesterday. It is hard to be bad when you don't have bad food in the house and can't go out to get it. I made Missy Mess phase one style last night along with cauliflower. We will have the leftovers for lunch today. YAY!

More in depth post to come along with photos of snow. Right now I must entertain Sweetie and Bug.