Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Goodbye 2008 - Hello 2009
This year the focus was to give up control. Oh how this was the focus for the whole year. From the amazing second honey moon to which I had no control in planning to accepting that fertility is yet another thing out of my control. Sometimes things are not meant to be.
This year was also wonderful in other areas, don't get me wrong. Sweetie and I grew closer together with the highs and lows of the year. I am very grateful for the point we are at now. I also am very proud of passing the first of four tests for CMA, next test scheduled Feb 28th.
I am excited about this next year. I plan to bring it in the best way possible, with Sweetie, Bug, Mom, MIL, and Niece. There will be games and fun. Let's only hope I can stay awake late enough to see the New Year.
I hope everyone have a safe and happy New Year Eve/Day!
Bring on 2009 - I am ready!
Saturday, December 27, 2008
I forgot
How did I forget? Sweetie got his RosettaStone Japanese language. He wanted this for the longest time. He completed the second lesson yesterday and is in love with the program. And since he is a user on the wiifit he added me as a user for his. Not sure when I will have time to use it as my studies for the second test for CMA start next week.
Friday, December 26, 2008
MERRY CHRISTMAS and all that
That time of year is upon us again. Another Christmas has come and gone. This year was odd. The season went too quickly to do all we wanted, people were missing from the fun, and I fought my own sadness. But I did what Christmas is all about for me, focus on family and friends. Sweetie and I spent this week cleaning. The house had been neglected in a bad way. In no way were we ready for a white glove inspection, but it made me feel so good. SIL is right, having people over is the best motivation to keep a house clean.
Christmas Eve was so much fun. I had to work for a few hours but nothing horrible. I had to even go back in so I took Bug with me. That was fun. Of course our weather was warm and she and I enjoyed the windows down on the ride, too funny. Christmas Eve was at our house this year. We enjoyed a scavenger hunt of sorts, making our own sparkling sodas, decorating cookies, homemade waffles, and opening presents. It was exhausting and fun.
Christmas Day was laid back. Due to Brother moving we decided to do things differently. Instead of full dinner we had sandwiches. It was fun and relaxing. Sweetie got me a WiiFit for Christmas, thanks to his best Elf helper BestFriend. I started playing it today. AWESOME. It is fun. I plan to use it with my walking. I don't know why but it seems that I feel more accountable with the wiifit than just weight watchers. Perhaps it is because Sweetie can see my progress on the TV.
Along the same lines we are talking about waiting to try for #2 until I lose some weight. We want to take care of any risks that we can. I am not waiting to be at goal weight, we are wanting to get a move on - lol. However my goal is to lose enough to get into the overweight category and not obese. As I say this we might change the plans if at any given moment. Speaking of health and all that, I am finally feeling better. I got on another antibiotic on Monday and I think finally I am kicking this sinus infection/cold that has lingered for over a month. So that is good.
So you might be wondering where are the Christmas pictures. There is an awesome story which goes with that. You see I need to upload my pics from two cameras. Yes, two. Santa brought me a Nikon D200. So half of the pictures are on my normal camera and half on the new one. I love the new one even though I am still learning how to use it.
OK back to enjoying the long weekend. I hope everyone had a great Christmas.
Christmas Eve was so much fun. I had to work for a few hours but nothing horrible. I had to even go back in so I took Bug with me. That was fun. Of course our weather was warm and she and I enjoyed the windows down on the ride, too funny. Christmas Eve was at our house this year. We enjoyed a scavenger hunt of sorts, making our own sparkling sodas, decorating cookies, homemade waffles, and opening presents. It was exhausting and fun.
Christmas Day was laid back. Due to Brother moving we decided to do things differently. Instead of full dinner we had sandwiches. It was fun and relaxing. Sweetie got me a WiiFit for Christmas, thanks to his best Elf helper BestFriend. I started playing it today. AWESOME. It is fun. I plan to use it with my walking. I don't know why but it seems that I feel more accountable with the wiifit than just weight watchers. Perhaps it is because Sweetie can see my progress on the TV.
Along the same lines we are talking about waiting to try for #2 until I lose some weight. We want to take care of any risks that we can. I am not waiting to be at goal weight, we are wanting to get a move on - lol. However my goal is to lose enough to get into the overweight category and not obese. As I say this we might change the plans if at any given moment. Speaking of health and all that, I am finally feeling better. I got on another antibiotic on Monday and I think finally I am kicking this sinus infection/cold that has lingered for over a month. So that is good.
So you might be wondering where are the Christmas pictures. There is an awesome story which goes with that. You see I need to upload my pics from two cameras. Yes, two. Santa brought me a Nikon D200. So half of the pictures are on my normal camera and half on the new one. I love the new one even though I am still learning how to use it.
OK back to enjoying the long weekend. I hope everyone had a great Christmas.
Friday, December 19, 2008
thyroid
Well thyroid is normal. That is good. I know it is. So I don't know what is going on. Perhaps it is just sadness over loss, perhaps it is me going crazy. Who knows. What I do know is that my focus is going to be exercising again and eating right. It is something I can do where I have control.
In other news I have so much to do this weekend before Christmas Eve next week. It will all get done, just need some focus.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Feeling Better
The Christmas party was fun last night. It was nice to relax and enjoy the food. Today Sweetie and I took off from work and did Christmas shopping. Good company, cracking people up, giving to charity, buying Bug the item's she asked for, and letting go helped a lot today.
Tomorrow is the Nutcracker. I am so looking forward to it. Sunday is the Jingle Bell 5k.
I decided that since I don't have control right now to simply try to let go, yes easier said than done. But it seems to be helping.
I am doing better and that is the main thing.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
hard day
I am having a hard day. Not sure why. Hard in a way that I am not talking about it. Not myself. Sure I can fake it when around others, but once they walk away, I am in tears. I don't know if it is everything that has happened recently, me losing my mind or if my thyroid has come undone. I am lacking focus. I am not studying, gave myself permission to take the holidays off so not really putting it off. I am swamped at work, nothing bad, busy is always good. I like the changes that are happening in my department. Sure there are things I would like to change and some things I am still waiting to see how they will turn out. My cubicle is moving soon and I don't know what that will mean. I get visitors now. I can keep working while they visit, but it makes me happy. I tend to be a bear about work - I go into my den and do my work and don't come out very often. My new cube is outside my boss's office. And while I love him I believe him right there will drive away my friends. Tomorrow is the company Christmas party and honestly I am not looking forward to it.
I have not been eating right or exercising. The weather isn't good for my walking. I hate walking when it is freezing. I keep telling myself to do something inside, but the momentum is not there. The house is a mess, no motivation. And I am so tired. I have been so tired for like a month. Honestly I consider taking a nap during lunch, I think about bedtime when I get off work. Blah. Maybe the diet and exercise is all I need.
So I have some other issues that makes me think my thyroid is off. TMI kind of stuff - let's just say changing cycles. Anyway, Sweetie being as awesome as he is told me "so?" when I told him I think my thyroid is off. Which is true. We roll with the punches.
Thyroid being off scares me. Not for the RAI. I already decided that if I go Graves' again I will get it. But if it is hyper and I get the RAI that means another 6 months of waiting to try for baby #2. Honestly that isn't the biggest thing. I worry more that it isn't off and that I am just crazy. If it is off then I can be corrected and feel normal. Right now I feel better in some ways but I am feeling off. Something is off.
Next week is Dr apt week. I have my ENT follow up to find out if my nose is better. I have my 6 month teeth cleaning - fingers crossed for no cavities. And I have a derm appt. Why not share it, I have had a spot on my hip that appears around Aug 2005. It grew and stopped and several others have cropped up. We were focused on the thyroid so this got pushed to the side. And I know I am slow sometimes, but this past weekend I decided I was going to finally go in. I was kind of rehearsing about the symptoms when I realized that my Graves' appeared at the same time. This is not like the skin condition that comes alongside Graves'. But what worries me is that it is also autoimmune related. I am not worried about it being life threatening, I know it isn't cancer or anything. But more like what I said above, not liking the idea of having to wait another 6 months. I will do it without hesitation to be healthy - of course. I don't want to take any chances next time.
I just feel out of control. As Mom and I say, we can handle anything as long as we know about it.
Thank you, getting it all out there has helped a lot. Sweetie is awesome and doing anything he can to cheer me up and Bug is amazing as always and gets me to laugh. I just need to do a little me work.
I have not been eating right or exercising. The weather isn't good for my walking. I hate walking when it is freezing. I keep telling myself to do something inside, but the momentum is not there. The house is a mess, no motivation. And I am so tired. I have been so tired for like a month. Honestly I consider taking a nap during lunch, I think about bedtime when I get off work. Blah. Maybe the diet and exercise is all I need.
So I have some other issues that makes me think my thyroid is off. TMI kind of stuff - let's just say changing cycles. Anyway, Sweetie being as awesome as he is told me "so?" when I told him I think my thyroid is off. Which is true. We roll with the punches.
Thyroid being off scares me. Not for the RAI. I already decided that if I go Graves' again I will get it. But if it is hyper and I get the RAI that means another 6 months of waiting to try for baby #2. Honestly that isn't the biggest thing. I worry more that it isn't off and that I am just crazy. If it is off then I can be corrected and feel normal. Right now I feel better in some ways but I am feeling off. Something is off.
Next week is Dr apt week. I have my ENT follow up to find out if my nose is better. I have my 6 month teeth cleaning - fingers crossed for no cavities. And I have a derm appt. Why not share it, I have had a spot on my hip that appears around Aug 2005. It grew and stopped and several others have cropped up. We were focused on the thyroid so this got pushed to the side. And I know I am slow sometimes, but this past weekend I decided I was going to finally go in. I was kind of rehearsing about the symptoms when I realized that my Graves' appeared at the same time. This is not like the skin condition that comes alongside Graves'. But what worries me is that it is also autoimmune related. I am not worried about it being life threatening, I know it isn't cancer or anything. But more like what I said above, not liking the idea of having to wait another 6 months. I will do it without hesitation to be healthy - of course. I don't want to take any chances next time.
I just feel out of control. As Mom and I say, we can handle anything as long as we know about it.
Thank you, getting it all out there has helped a lot. Sweetie is awesome and doing anything he can to cheer me up and Bug is amazing as always and gets me to laugh. I just need to do a little me work.
Thursday, December 04, 2008
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Things are as crazy as normal in my world. We got the tree up on Saturday night but finally decorated it last night. Bug is so much fun this year. I love it. I just want to soak up every second with her.
This weekend was BestFriend's b-day. We had some one on one time on Saturday - much needed with great fun. Sunday was a group playing pool and going to see JCVD. It is such a good movie. Nothing like I expected. And seeing it at the Alamo Ritz downtown was very awesome.
The best part of the night was driving home, all five of us in the car. I see a sign for an insurance company.
Me: "Acceptance insurance, I don't think I would want an insurance company named acceptance"
BF: "What about Rapture Insurance?"
Me: "Is there Rapture Insurance?"
Shawn: "Yes, Jesus"
Come on that was funny, you know it. It was like a script sooo funny. I was crying with laughter.
We walked the Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving morning - yep all 5 miles. Sweetie ran with BestFriend and MIL walked with me and Bug - who was in a stroller. It was fun. There were some nasty hills, but it was fun. Next 5k on the radar is the Jingle Bell.
Thanksgiving was at SIL's MIL's. This is the first year since 1998 that I did not host some sort of Thanksgiving feast. It was very different. I didn't think I was that big on the parade but seeing it made me feel like Thanksgiving. The walk was good for us and I would like to keep up the tradition. But missing the parade was a little sad. That and not having my Sweetie smell like smoke. He always smells the best at Thanksgiving. I think I might have to make him smoke something for Christmas on these even years where we don't have Thanksgiving but have Christmas Eve. That and with Brother not here, it was just different.
This weekend was BestFriend's b-day. We had some one on one time on Saturday - much needed with great fun. Sunday was a group playing pool and going to see JCVD. It is such a good movie. Nothing like I expected. And seeing it at the Alamo Ritz downtown was very awesome.
The best part of the night was driving home, all five of us in the car. I see a sign for an insurance company.
Me: "Acceptance insurance, I don't think I would want an insurance company named acceptance"
BF: "What about Rapture Insurance?"
Me: "Is there Rapture Insurance?"
Shawn: "Yes, Jesus"
Come on that was funny, you know it. It was like a script sooo funny. I was crying with laughter.
We walked the Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving morning - yep all 5 miles. Sweetie ran with BestFriend and MIL walked with me and Bug - who was in a stroller. It was fun. There were some nasty hills, but it was fun. Next 5k on the radar is the Jingle Bell.
Thanksgiving was at SIL's MIL's. This is the first year since 1998 that I did not host some sort of Thanksgiving feast. It was very different. I didn't think I was that big on the parade but seeing it made me feel like Thanksgiving. The walk was good for us and I would like to keep up the tradition. But missing the parade was a little sad. That and not having my Sweetie smell like smoke. He always smells the best at Thanksgiving. I think I might have to make him smoke something for Christmas on these even years where we don't have Thanksgiving but have Christmas Eve. That and with Brother not here, it was just different.
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