Let's all together exhale, ready on one...two...three ahhhhhhhhhh!
Appointment was great. Sonogram was wonderful. Baby was facing my back and sleeping. Then it turned to look down and started doing crunches, it was so cute. The tech did say that when we go back for our anatomy sonogram tell baby not to be like that or we will not find out the sex. We go back on 11/9/09 to hopefully find out. That is my birthday week, so I am hoping to buy something pink or blue for my b-day.
I have my regular OB appointment on Wednesday. Bug is going to take me. She asked if the dr was going to get the baby out - since I am c-section I have explained that the dr does it. I told her we have to wait. I think she is disappointed. She wanted baby to be a witch with us for Halloween. 9 months is a long time for a 4 year old.
I am feeling much better than this weekend. I have a little cough, but nothing bad. I am just so beyond happy. I was so scared. I had no symptoms or issues like I did last time. But the fear was there. I didn't fully understand it until after the appointment and I found myself in tears while I was driving. Happy and wonderful tears. You could see the relief on Sweetie's face too.
I just had to get on and spread the happy report.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Thoughts of the Day
- My ear feels odd, sucks, hope it isn't an infection
- Sweetie's desk is solved
- Chef Boyardee is very yummy
- I think I may get lost in the piles of laundry
- I am feeling better than earlier today - so that is progress
- I am hoping that after the appointment tomorrow, and all goes well, that I will feel up to starting back with my walking this week
Saturday, September 26, 2009
music for my soul
Today was busy as planned. Bug decided to be a witch for Halloween. Correction, she decided we both will be witches. Soccer was awesome today. Last night Bug was doing great during practice and it showed with the game. She kicked that ball several times - yay. They don't keep score so it is no win or lose, though if you ask Sweetie he will tell you the score. But it all about the fun. I just want to help her learn healthy habits of exercise and confidence. It seems to be working, even after only a little over a week that included 3 games.
Tonight was awesome. We picked up my Godmother and headed to Gumbos. BestFriend's boyfriend sounded amazing, as always. The conversation was fun, the food was yummy, and Bug was better than I even expected. Three hours at an adult restaurant is not the most fun. Luckily, she had BestFriend and Godmother to keep her happy. And it was so good for me. I needed to get out. Even if it ended with me tossing my cookies in the ladies room.
My nose is stuffed up, I am sneezing a ton, and my nausea is kicking my butt. It is all good. I plan to rest up tomorrow.
Tonight was awesome. We picked up my Godmother and headed to Gumbos. BestFriend's boyfriend sounded amazing, as always. The conversation was fun, the food was yummy, and Bug was better than I even expected. Three hours at an adult restaurant is not the most fun. Luckily, she had BestFriend and Godmother to keep her happy. And it was so good for me. I needed to get out. Even if it ended with me tossing my cookies in the ladies room.
My nose is stuffed up, I am sneezing a ton, and my nausea is kicking my butt. It is all good. I plan to rest up tomorrow.
Friday, September 25, 2009
chililng
Sweetie took Bug to soccer practice. He is so good to me. I just finished an uneventful nap and now I am trying to get something in my tummy before I have to run very quickly to the potty. My lunch was not the best for baby, apparently. I would have thought chicken and pasta - wait stop right there, can't think about it.To top it off, I have a sore throat and stuffy nose. No fever or anything so I think it is just the results of going from a high of 95 on Monday to a high of 58 on Tuesday.
In other news, today I completed a big part of the audit that we are working on. Now we have two weeks to finish it. Then work will be busy and crazy, but on my own terms.
We have our 12 week sonogram on Monday - the appointment that I have been living for. The only issue is that I didn't receive a call reminding me the time. I hope that doesn't mean that they forgot about me or that I slipped off the schedule. I will stay positive, but they will be receiving a call first thing Monday morning.
This weekend is going to be exciting. Tonight, well...isn't, but tomorrow is soccer, Niece's 13th b-day party, and then BestFriend's boyfriend is singing in his first paying gig. We are so proud and cannot wait to spend the evening listening to his wonderful voice.
The nesting is kicking in. The only problem is that I am still nauseous and exhausted. The result? I end up bitchy. But the first step is admitting you have a problem, correct? So I am working on lists, lots and lots of lists.
OK family is home, I am off to spend time with them.
In other news, today I completed a big part of the audit that we are working on. Now we have two weeks to finish it. Then work will be busy and crazy, but on my own terms.
We have our 12 week sonogram on Monday - the appointment that I have been living for. The only issue is that I didn't receive a call reminding me the time. I hope that doesn't mean that they forgot about me or that I slipped off the schedule. I will stay positive, but they will be receiving a call first thing Monday morning.
This weekend is going to be exciting. Tonight, well...isn't, but tomorrow is soccer, Niece's 13th b-day party, and then BestFriend's boyfriend is singing in his first paying gig. We are so proud and cannot wait to spend the evening listening to his wonderful voice.
The nesting is kicking in. The only problem is that I am still nauseous and exhausted. The result? I end up bitchy. But the first step is admitting you have a problem, correct? So I am working on lists, lots and lots of lists.
OK family is home, I am off to spend time with them.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
nervous
I am feeling good. Much better than Monday. I had to stay home due to the worst morning sickness combined with a migraine. Sweetie brought me lunch that day and it made everything so much better.
Last night we went to see Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs. It was so good. We laughed all the way through it. We saw the 3-d version and Bug loved it. All in all, last night was a great distraction.
I am at the point in my pregnancy where I was last year when I found out we lost the baby. That has me on edge. While I feel so different this time, I still fear going in on Monday and hearing the horrible news I heard last time. To cope with it, I am trying to distract myself. I check my symptoms often (to make sure I still feel pregnant) and keep praying. I know I have been distant with my friends, and I hope they understand.
The other new exciting aspect of our life is reorganizing the house. We need to clear out one room in order for this baby to have a place to sleep. We refuse to try to sell our house when the market is so bad. Plus, while our house is small - it is also a low mortgage. I don't want to give that up while I have two daycare payment for a couple of months next year. I see us moving in the next 2 years or so. In the mean time, reduce, recycle, organize. We are on a mission to get rid of the things we don't use. Plus, we see it as a challenge.
And I have to hand it to Sweetie. He is awesome. If I even mention - what if we did this - he is trying to figure it out and make it happen. He even told me that he likes my hormones and mood swings. He said it tells him that everything is going smoothly.
Oh and Bug's soccer is going so well. I love the T&C community. She may not be the best on the team, but she is enjoying it and it is building her confidence. I posted pics to facebook, need to remember to post some here.
Last night we went to see Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs. It was so good. We laughed all the way through it. We saw the 3-d version and Bug loved it. All in all, last night was a great distraction.
I am at the point in my pregnancy where I was last year when I found out we lost the baby. That has me on edge. While I feel so different this time, I still fear going in on Monday and hearing the horrible news I heard last time. To cope with it, I am trying to distract myself. I check my symptoms often (to make sure I still feel pregnant) and keep praying. I know I have been distant with my friends, and I hope they understand.
The other new exciting aspect of our life is reorganizing the house. We need to clear out one room in order for this baby to have a place to sleep. We refuse to try to sell our house when the market is so bad. Plus, while our house is small - it is also a low mortgage. I don't want to give that up while I have two daycare payment for a couple of months next year. I see us moving in the next 2 years or so. In the mean time, reduce, recycle, organize. We are on a mission to get rid of the things we don't use. Plus, we see it as a challenge.
And I have to hand it to Sweetie. He is awesome. If I even mention - what if we did this - he is trying to figure it out and make it happen. He even told me that he likes my hormones and mood swings. He said it tells him that everything is going smoothly.
Oh and Bug's soccer is going so well. I love the T&C community. She may not be the best on the team, but she is enjoying it and it is building her confidence. I posted pics to facebook, need to remember to post some here.
Friday, September 18, 2009
5 years
5 years ago today, my world changed forever. The life that I had, would never be the same. This is the day we conceived my daughter. This is a very happy anniversary. We aren't the type of couple to celebrate everything. But the life altering items are important to us. The ones that remind us of what makes us us, and make us look back and see just how far we have come, like looking down from a mountain, baby.
I look back and so much has changed. We have matured, relaxed a lot, changed our focus, and changed jobs several times, lol. Sometimes, it is just nice to look back and smile. Everything that happened in my life led me to this place. This place with my loving husband, beautiful daughter, one on the way, and awesome family. Because of that, I would not change a thing. I have had friends come and go. Even ones that were crappy - I don't hold any anger towards. All is forgiven. I mean, in the whole scheme of things, what does it matter?
Our plans for the weekend are busy. Soccer meet up, two games, and much needed housework. I am hoping that my nausea stays at bay and that I am able to accomplish what I need to. But for now, I am just going to sit here in the silence and enjoy thinking about my family.
I look back and so much has changed. We have matured, relaxed a lot, changed our focus, and changed jobs several times, lol. Sometimes, it is just nice to look back and smile. Everything that happened in my life led me to this place. This place with my loving husband, beautiful daughter, one on the way, and awesome family. Because of that, I would not change a thing. I have had friends come and go. Even ones that were crappy - I don't hold any anger towards. All is forgiven. I mean, in the whole scheme of things, what does it matter?
Our plans for the weekend are busy. Soccer meet up, two games, and much needed housework. I am hoping that my nausea stays at bay and that I am able to accomplish what I need to. But for now, I am just going to sit here in the silence and enjoy thinking about my family.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Tears, clouds, and beans
Tonight was Bug's first soccer practice. This is a six week "course" on skills. She was the youngest one there and didn't like playing with the older kids. After some tears, Sweetie and Bug went to the side and did their own thing. He had her doing the same drills the others were doing. She loved it. So now the goal is to get her confident enough to do it with the other kids. She meets her team on Friday and that should be good as the kids are her age.
The weather was so beautiful. Blue skies with big clouds and nice cool breeze. Afterward, we went to dinner where Bug ate her favorite - beans with some rice. Yummy. I think it was a very successful evening. Well, except for the bit of attitude I am encountering now, but that is par for the course - wait 5 minutes and her mood will be good again.
I am doing good. Work is getting a little stressed. We have one month to do a ton of work. But that is ok. My back is hurting as well as my hands along with my eyes being very dry again. This is the fun of my sjogrens. My specialist OB told me that people with lupus feel better with pregnancy, but with sjogrens - you just don't know. Great. Not complaining, though. I will endure all the pain I can if it means holding another little one.
13 days until the next appt. This is the one I am most anxious about. Maybe it is good that work is so busy with audit.
The weather was so beautiful. Blue skies with big clouds and nice cool breeze. Afterward, we went to dinner where Bug ate her favorite - beans with some rice. Yummy. I think it was a very successful evening. Well, except for the bit of attitude I am encountering now, but that is par for the course - wait 5 minutes and her mood will be good again.
I am doing good. Work is getting a little stressed. We have one month to do a ton of work. But that is ok. My back is hurting as well as my hands along with my eyes being very dry again. This is the fun of my sjogrens. My specialist OB told me that people with lupus feel better with pregnancy, but with sjogrens - you just don't know. Great. Not complaining, though. I will endure all the pain I can if it means holding another little one.
13 days until the next appt. This is the one I am most anxious about. Maybe it is good that work is so busy with audit.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
No soccer yet
Due to a two day down pour that was more than needed, Bug's soccer game was canceled. That is ok, we didn't even get out of the 70s. It was awesome. We had a great day nevertheless. We shot some video for The Spot Finder, enjoyed driving in crazy ass rain - ok maybe enjoyed is a large stretch. And did some fun shopping. We got soaked after lunch and we even had our umbrella. And thanks to the rain, one video shows the pink and purple polka dot umbrella - hahha. He will look so manly.
Bug also starts dance tomorrow so we had to go and get dance shoes, both ballet and tap - fun. She is so excited. In fact she slept in her ballet shows. I will get pics tomorrow before school, she is adorable in her leotard, if I do say so myself.
The only real issue yesterday was that baby apparently doesn't like pumpkin lattes. How can this be? While I didn't get sick, I felt like I was going to most of the day. The good news is that baby does like Lamme's chocolate covered strawberries - thank goodness. That might have been my breakfast this morning.
I know this isn't a high traffic site. But I want to capture my feelings like I did with Bug. Today is errand day. I am not sure how I am going to plan dinners - nothing sounds good.
Now I must go, it seems Sweetie is dead and we must go to the bookstore to get a new one (very odd game we play, you would have to be us to truly get it, lol).
Bug also starts dance tomorrow so we had to go and get dance shoes, both ballet and tap - fun. She is so excited. In fact she slept in her ballet shows. I will get pics tomorrow before school, she is adorable in her leotard, if I do say so myself.
The only real issue yesterday was that baby apparently doesn't like pumpkin lattes. How can this be? While I didn't get sick, I felt like I was going to most of the day. The good news is that baby does like Lamme's chocolate covered strawberries - thank goodness. That might have been my breakfast this morning.
I know this isn't a high traffic site. But I want to capture my feelings like I did with Bug. Today is errand day. I am not sure how I am going to plan dinners - nothing sounds good.
Now I must go, it seems Sweetie is dead and we must go to the bookstore to get a new one (very odd game we play, you would have to be us to truly get it, lol).
Thursday, September 10, 2009
still hanging in there
So far so good. Still feeling what I should be and doing what I need to do. I cannot wait until the appointment. Work has been busy with an audit. My nausea is fairly constant, but not getting in the way. I am emotional and hormonal, but that is to be expected.
Tomorrow starts Bug's soccer season. This is her first year doing it. I hope she loves it. Saturday is her first game. In preparation we bought a new point and click camera.
Well, I know this has been the most exciting thing on the internet, complete sarcasm. But I am exhausted and must sleep.
Tomorrow starts Bug's soccer season. This is her first year doing it. I hope she loves it. Saturday is her first game. In preparation we bought a new point and click camera.
Well, I know this has been the most exciting thing on the internet, complete sarcasm. But I am exhausted and must sleep.
Monday, September 07, 2009
I did it
OK I spent the day with the family. I love my family. We are in some ways so very different, but we accept each other and, at least I do, really like each other. Well, I was feeling so good after the day that when I got home I did a workout. Nothing crazy. I did the first trimester weight and stretch workout in my prenatal exercise book. It felt good. I didn't exercise with Bug. I also didn't gain a lot of weight - thanks to already being so heavy. But this time I know I am older and I want to feel good throughout.
So I am feeling good. Trying not to let the fear rule me. Don't worry I am watching for the "warning signs" very closely - I am not completely cured, lol.
So I am feeling good. Trying not to let the fear rule me. Don't worry I am watching for the "warning signs" very closely - I am not completely cured, lol.
Living on faith
As I have said before, I feel different this time. This does not take away the fear of another loss. Sweetie admitted his fears too. But staying with thinking positive we went shopping on Saturday for some maternity clothes. The one good/bad thing about having extra padding and being pregnant before is that I am showing earlier than with Bug.
So I am living on faith, praying that what I want is also what is meant to be. Next appointment is 9/28. This will be the 12 week sonogram. We didn't make it that far last time. I will feel much better after that appt.
This weekend has been very nice and relaxing. I have had some good family time, got to hang out with some friends, rested a ton, and today is a family gathering.
I am hoping to start my exercising again this week. I have been bad and lazy. Well, tired with nausea doesn't help. Hopefully, I can get past that to enjoy the benefits of more energy.
So I am living on faith, praying that what I want is also what is meant to be. Next appointment is 9/28. This will be the 12 week sonogram. We didn't make it that far last time. I will feel much better after that appt.
This weekend has been very nice and relaxing. I have had some good family time, got to hang out with some friends, rested a ton, and today is a family gathering.
I am hoping to start my exercising again this week. I have been bad and lazy. Well, tired with nausea doesn't help. Hopefully, I can get past that to enjoy the benefits of more energy.
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