So thankful

This weekend was in a word, fabulous. Friday night we went to Tammy's. We had to drive past an ex-friend's house to get there - same friend we keep getting the debt collector calls. It was a little emotional. But I was good and strong. I focused on how much has changed in the past five years. So very much is different. And I am happy with the differences.

Tammy's was awesome. We love her family and felt quite at home. Bug loves her Doodle - he is only six months older so they get along great. They live out past BFI and beyond. It was very nice and quite, very surreal. We lost track of time we were having so much fun.And last night we ran into an old friend of mine, S. I have not seen her since shortly after having Bug. It was so good to see her and show off Bug.

Today was the Capitol 10k. It was awesome. Sweetie walked with me the whole way. I loved it. It rained on us but that didn't matter. We danced, laughed, joked, oh and walked. The 6.2 miles went by pretty quickly. I did great. I finished in 1:43. I did better than I was hoping. Sweetie and I had so much fun that he has decided to walk the final three races in the Sprint Series with me.I had a weekend where I am so grateful for everyone in my life. I am so lucky to have such great friends in family. Life is good.

a little from column A, a little from column B

Where have I been? Work has been pretty busy. It is time for the audit of the trust account. That is all me, well with the exception of when I need to ask my boss for the answers, lol. But it means a lot of work. I didn't eat lunch until 3:30.

As far as my thyroid goes I have a physical scheduled for 4/21. As of right now I am going to wait until then to see where my thyroid is. Yes, I think it is off. However, this gives me three weeks to really follow my diet and exercise program.

I am still gearing up for the CPA, but trying not to stress about it.

I am working with Sweetie on something to motivate me with being healthier - like a surprise. I need something to truly motivate me. What do I truly want/need desire? Hard question.

Oh and we found Sweetie's book at B&N. And relatives found it in Houston. It was so awesome to see it on a shelf at a real book store. SO VERY PROUD!!!

And this weekend is going to be busy. Friday is spending time with my friend Tammy, her family, Brother, and BestFriend. Saturday is mani/pedi with BestFriend, and Sunday is our 10k. I am so excited. I have not walked this week as I wanted, but I am still in this. I am fighting the depression. And focusing on keeping my sunshine attitude.

Today is a new day and I refuse to let this thyroid run my life, that is the main reason I am not running to get my blood tested. I want to alter things in my life and see the results.

Happy Easter

Easter weekend was very nice and relaxed, as it should be. Friday was a day off for me and we spent the day shopping. We missed the Easter Egg hunt at the local park, but that is ok. We helped Mom get a new computer and get it all hooked up. She is high tech now using our wireless and uploading some music. Too cute. And Sweetie made us waffles last night - who could ask for more.

Today I didn't get up as early as I wanted for a walk. I was moody and bitchy, yes I can admit it when I am like that. Sweetie kept pushing for me to go. Each time I brought up an obstacle he solved it. Finally he told me "go and walk, whenever you walk it makes you happy". Then Bug told me "Mommy, go walk". So I did. And it was a GREAT walk. I went 5 miles, without music. I am ready for my 10k next week. And yes, he was right, it did put me into a better mood. And I worked hard. My heart-rate monitor said I burned 850 calories. I came back and enjoyed a bubble bath.

Now if only I hadn't eaten all the chocolate and other crap, I might have seen a weight loss from the walk :-) That is what tomorrow is for. And tomorrow I am starting the Beck Diet. More on this later. It works with WW. We shall see if it helps.

Here is Bug yesterday:Big Bug helping Sweetie:BestFriend knows how to celebrate Easter - and she bakes the BEST COOKIES: One Egg might have gone over the fence, Sweetie had to go over to get it:

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I got things halfway solved with the chip timing issue - just waiting for my info to be posted on the sprint site.

I think my thyroid is off again. I am noticing more hair loss, some brain fog, my eyes are not at 20/20 as they were last year, some irritability, and some depression. While I don't want my thyroid out of balance, I kind of hope that is what it is. I would rather have this grumpiness due to thyroid and not the potential of a bad depressive slump. I am not supposed to get it tested again until May. But I am overdue for a physical. I think I will get one and see where it says my thyroid is.

But I refuse to give in to the blahs. I will continue to fight. I ate too much today. I feel icky because of it. But it is not the end. I need to exercise tonight. I hope to walk or at least do a video. The 10k is coming up soon. I need to get some miles in before the fun.

Sunday is Easter. I am not sure what all we are going to do. We need to clean. Maybe that will help get me out of this funk - accomplishing something.

My shoulder is feeling better, but I keep aggravating it. I think it has me down as well. I want to do my weight training, I want to feel better. I keep reminding myself that I have 8 weeks of races so that I need to focus on my walking for now and I can add the weights back in later.

And why can't simply carrying the books that I need to study get the information into my head? I mean seriously, shouldn't that be enough?

OK I am off to be productive, healthy, and silly. I am sure these will help.

we are home

Our weekend in bullet points and photos:

• Saturday started with Daisy 5k. I got a PR, I took over 4 minutes off my time from last year. It was my best time EVER with a 5k. I rock. On a sad note, and one I am not dwelling on until I get an answer, my chip time is not showing up on their site. Without it I am out of the Sprint Challenge - grrrr. But no reason to waste any energy until I get a response to my email.
• We got to LA as scheduled. Our hotel was so very beautiful.
• The book release party was a lot of fun.
• And Sunday we spend the day at Universal Studios. It was so so so windy. It was crazy cold wind too. But that didn't stop out fun.
• And we came home today to find one of our trees with new leaves - spring is here.
• I have to say that my Bug was the best ever. She was awesome on the plane, at the party, at the park, and with our return. She was silly but completely awesome. I was so very very proud to be her Mom this weekend.

Tomorrow it starts

I am in bed, packed and prepared for tomorrow. I am always nervous before a race. I know what to expect from me, I know I can do it, but I always get a little paranoid beforehand. I stayed home with Bug today as she got sick at school yesterday. This turned out to be a blessing as I wanted to get our packets for the race today. SXSW is still going on and downtown was a nightmare. I love that my city hosts this cool event and that it supports our economy, but I will be happy when the excess is gone. The good thing is that tomorrow morning shouldn't have the SXSW crowd as it starts so early.

I will post pics of the release party as soon as available. I am so excited for this big weekend for my Sweetie.

Confusion

Because my life can be, at times, confusing. Here is some clarification. Saturday morning is the Daisy 5k. I registered myself and Sweetie when we thought the book release party would be the weekend of March 1st. Then, of course, it was moved to the 15th. Sweetie being awesome insisted that we still do the 5k and head to CA after. Since we took our second honeymoon our vacation is a little lacking. This way we don't have to miss as much work. While it will be a short trip, it will be an awesome experience.

I said I would blog a ton tonight in order to use my shoulder before my appointment tomorrow. So here I am. And today I have not had any pain. That is awesome, but of course I still have my appointment.

Tonight is the last night of SXSW. Thank Goodness. I appreciate everything Sweetie does, but more importantly, I miss him when he isn't here. I can't help it. Even after 15.5 years, I still get butterflies when I see him.

Today BestFriend told me that my blog needs more pictures. I can do that.This is me and Ser before our girl day on Saturday. Here we are at the Domain. Sweetie and Bug at SIL#2's b-day.This is my Bug, in all her cuteness.

I am feeling so good today. I am feeling skinny. At work A. has started calling me the "pocket full of sunshine". I like that. I try to have a great outlook and I love to hear when it shows. I was also told that I am very approachable and A. was told to come and talk to me as I make the day better. Yep, I like who I am. I will never be a hard ass type. I am me. I am silly, optimistic, and always try to find the good in things that are happening. Not to say I never feel sadness, anyone here for any period of time knows that I fight depression. I simply fight it on my own terms. Boss is out of town this week so I have been busting ass to get a ton done.

And that brings me to the studying. I really am going to get into it. I just need a schedule. Part of me would love to take the physical classes but it costs 3k. And BestFriend has mentioned a chocolate manicure if we keep up with our studies. That sounds like motivation. Do I get to eat the chocolate? And if not, truly what is the point?

I am so excited about our trip, my race challenge, the upcoming tests, and staying healthy. This week starts our new WW session. I am not sure if it is a 14 or 17 week one this time, but something is better than nothing. I am so close to my first goal. I just need to get this shoulder better so that I can get back into my working out. I am really missing my weight training.

That is all that I can think to fill you in on.

gimme a title

Shoulder not hurting as bad but going in on Wednesday to make sure it is ok. My first race of the Sprint Challenge (formerly known as spring race challenge) is Saturday. I am excited about this. Even if I have not had as much training as I had hoped at this point, I know that I can do this.

Sweetie was awesome this morning. I put on a new t-shit. I have an addiction. I love to buy target t-shirts. I put on a new one and it fits snuggly. It is the kind of tight that would be good for a night on the town but too tight for work. Sweetie saw me and said "that is a hot shirt, you can really tell how much weight you have lost".

This weekend was much fun. I adore that little girl. Between her silly growls, acting goofy, big hugs, shaking her booty, and big snuggles, we had a great time. I didn't get my walking in as I knew pushing the stroller would hurt my shoulder. But that is ok. Rest was much more important.

Slight Blogging Break

As my shoulder is hurting when I type, and any typing I do I need to use for studying, I will be taking a recreational computer break this weekend. If my shoulder does not feel better after this break, I will be seeing my doctor, no worries.

This is a perfect time for this experiment as Sweetie is at the interactive portion of SXSW and I get a girls' weekend with my Bug. I don't know what all we are doing, but much fun will be had. I might post some pics on Sunday, but nothing too strenous.

Hopefully I will be like new on Monday.

Day in the Life of a Missy

Things are exciting here in the World of Missy. We have drama everywhere. Drama tires me. We live in an interesting time. We bloggers put our thoughts "out there" for others to read. And they do. Even my little blog has a following. Ten years ago you didn't have such an opportunity to snoop on others as we do today. Of course, what you see is what you get. I don't blog about everything, only what I am ok with others knowing. Some might think I confide too much. I do what is right for me.

It has been brought to my attention that my blog causes someone pain. I am not going into who or what or why. My point is that we are all adults. We all have the control over what sites we read and when. As I have said before, my blog is a "feed the cat" blog. I am not political, humorous, or with an agenda. This is simply my life, a journal in a public form.

I don't write posts to hurt. In fact I have been blogging less in order to try and eliminate some pain from this person. I cannot do that any longer. They are a grown-up and can read or not read. If reading causes pain, perhaps we aren't truly friends as this blog is me.

I was very emotional when I got this news today. To the point of telling co-workers. I do not open up to co-workers often, but apparently it was quite obvious something was wrong. And after I got the same advice for the fourth time, I realized that I need to get back into this blog and why I do it - uncensored. If it bothers any of you, don't read. As I say, this is my blog and I write it for me.

I don't have an exciting life, most of it is with Sweetie and Bug. And to be honest, they are pretty close to everything I need. I am lucky enough to get two girl outings in a month - on a good month. I am lucky enough to be close friends with Mom. And BestFriend is more of a sister than simply a friend. She knows me well enough to know if my thyroid is off, if something is bothering me, and checks in on me to see how I am doing at reaching my goals. I am happy and healthy. Things are going well at work and I am excited about two more friend gatherings in the near future.

I need to focus on what keeps me healthy. I need to focus on what keeps me happy. Such as it is in the Day in the Life of a Missy.
Speaking of days - if you are going to buy one book this season, you need to buy 100 Days of Monsters: Sweetie is one of the contributors. He is officially published. We go next weekend to the release party in LA. Ya baby - we are big time, in a small, cute and unique way.

Thank you A for introducing me to the song "I've got a pocket full of sunshine". Thanks to Bug also loving it, it is stuck in my head. I leave you with my favorite verse:
"And there's no more lies.
In the darkness, there's light.
And nobody cries.
There's only butterflies."

Ding

Ding - I'm done. My six months are up. I have been off my meds for six months. And while I do not know where my thyroid is at the moment, I know that the medicine is fully out of my system. Can I see some dancin'?

Six months of no meds means that I am healthy enough to get pregnant. I have several friends who have had babies recently. Bug is changing her mind about the whole baby thing and is now - for the moment that is - saying another might be ok.

Of course that doesn't mean we are anywhere near trying. I still want to get this damn CPA test out of the way. There is going to be some reorganization at my work. Not any job losses, but job changes. I need to have this certificate to prove that this is what I do and I do it well.

And to top it off, I have a hurt shoulder. I am sure it is from using my mouse. Which of course is going to make the studying that much harder. But I can do it. I am Super Woman. This is going to hinder my blogging. And that just sucks.

always follow your instincts

Today started in the usual way. I had planned on my long walk for tomorrow, in WW you can eat more when you exercise but you must use the points in the day you earned them. Tomorrow is SIL#2's b-day and I wanted the make sure I was covered points wise.

However, this morning I knew I needed to walk. In spite of a later than planned start, I headed out at 8:30. Just as I started I had a thought that I needed to pay attention to nature in my walk. I needed to truly listen, I don't use an ipod or listen to music as I walk. As I walked I listened to the birds, noticed the buds on the tree and felt great. Then I took a turn and went a different way today. I simply walked where I was pulled. As I walked on the new road I saw that an animal had been hit by a car. I always feel sad when I see a dead animal and I try not to look while I say a small prayer for the animal as I pass.

This time as I passed I heard a small sneeze sound and saw a baby on the road, very very small pink baby. I thought it was the baby's last breath. I felt immense sadness, but kept walking. I thought "what can I do, that poor little baby is dying". Then I heard the sneeze sound again and again. I turned around. Mind you I didn't get very far at all, only to the next house. I stop my heart rate monitor and garmin and walk back to see what I could do. The little baby didn't appear to have any injuries. It was very young and its eyes were not open. I looked around and saw two other babies that didn't make the throw. I held him in my hands knowing that I had to do something and decided to take him home. Then I had the thought, what if there are more. I go back to the mother and see many babies in her pouch. I tried to get them but they were securely attached to her tit. I knew we would need to take the mother in to save the babies. Since I was over half a mile away from home, I moved the mother's body to the side of the road, gathered up the little one that I had picked up and headed home. I named him Wally. I talked to him as I walked home. I know I looked crazy. Luckily he was very small and people couldn't see what was in my hand. He wrapped himself around my fingers and his tail around my thumb. It was the neatest thing. When I got home I got the exact response I expected. I walked in saying that I needed everyone's help. We got a box for Wally and his siblings with a towel and while I dressed Bug Sweetie called wildlife rescue. Due to a possum having up to around 13 babies deep in the pouch we were instructed to bring the mother in as well. I called BestFriend and postponed our mani/pedi and headed to get the mother. Her body was cool but not stiff. This was a good sign that the babies in the pouch were still getting the remaining milk.
We were greeted by the nicest woman at wildlife rescue. She let us watch her take the babies out. She had 7 inside of her for a total of 8 that we saved. I told her Wally's name and she didn't think I was crazy - though I did find out Wally is a girl. We made a donation so they can help with the costs of the orphans. It was such a nice experience. They never asked for money. They did have a sign stating that they are a non-profit and the form asked for money - but we were never hounded to give. I appreciated that. She even said that we can call and ask how they are doing. And she said based on how big the babies were, though still very small, had a very high chance of survival.

This made me feel very good. Always listen to instincts. If it weren't for me making sure to listen to everything I heard and taking a different route, they might not have made it. And I love that I have a Sweetie who is so awesome with things like this. Bug didn't fully understand what was going on, but she has been in the best mood ever since. She knows we did something good.

I also dyed my hair last night. I decided to do something fun. BestFriend and I had our mani/pedi and a great lunch. It has been a GREAT Saturday. Even if I still need to get my 4 mile walk in :-)