It's Amazing

It is amazing how one's world can change in a heartbeat. People die and marraiges end at one moment in time. From that point on nothing will ever be the same. When you are in that moment your heart beats fast and you feel like you are going to puke. Your mind races to the strangest things, insurance and bank accounts. Suddenly your plans for the next ten years or even year change suddenly. Numbness sets in and doing anything or seeing anyone seems impossible. You doubt your ability to continue or function. The thought of waking up alone hurts. The thought of solitude is scary. Holidays are coming and you can't comphrehend the presence of others. However you can't help but wonder, in a cynical way, if things are turning out for the best.