6 months

It is almost 3 in the morning and I am awake. Nothing bad mind you, purely pregnancy. I tossed and turned until 2. At this point, I awoke to pee and thusly, awakened the beast within – also known as hunger. We had our last birthing class last night. We always eat dinner before class. Apparently, this was not enough for me for the night. I got up quietly – no need for Sweetie to be disturbed – to find a fast and healthy snack. What else can I do when eating peanut butter crackers while waiting for sleep? Blog. The tour of the hospital was awesome. The labor and delivery room is very nice. Seeing where our little June bug will be born made it so very real for us.

Tomorrow/today marks a special day for my Sweetie and I. It is 6 months since our whole world changed. 6 months since we recommitted to each other in such a profound way. Celebrating these occasions is very important to us. We have plans with my brother for dinner. However, we will celebrate with lunch (unless I am passed out from lack of sleep tonight) as well as some on Saturday.

The last 6 months have been remarkable. In many ways, we have gone back in time to when we were new lovers with the excitement of simply hearing the other’s voice. However, it is like going back with the knowledge we have now – we are comfortable around each other unlike any new relationship. I am grateful, even much obliged, to everything that occurred with our past that set the stage for our turning point on Saturday, September 18th. Everything happens for a reason. We are where we are based on past actions. It is simple logic that if I am happy where I am, that I cannot be unhappy with the past actions that brought me to my current destination.

A person’s life is like a rich tapestry. The colors fading in and out represent the relationships that come and go. However, the main theme, the colors you can see from across the room, these colors represent the people most influential and important in your life. Ex friends and lovers are only seen when up close, as their presence is never for long or with a large enough importance to weave into the grander pattern. While their actions may help alter the present into the future, they served merely as stepping stones to get our life to the next step. They are not the people that we use to define our lives. The ones that we use to define our lives know us, mold us, and inspire us. They are the ones that we call on when times are tough, the ones that we can be goofy around, and the ones we cannot wait to tell when we have good news. These are the people we are proud to call family, friends, and mentors. I cannot imagine my tapestry without my husband’s influence. He is the one I turn to when times are tough. He is the one that I am the goofiest around, and he is the one that I cannot wait to share good news. He is my world. No other can take his place.

Alas, I found the bottom of my juice box. I must attempt to sleep. If all else fails, I might be back on tonight for more blogging fun.