Last Day 2005

Today is the last day of 2005. What a great year. Sweetie and I are doing better than ever, we have a baby, and while I am unemployed at the moment, I did finish my MBA.

No time to go into a lengthy post. I hope everyone has a SAFE New Years Eve.

Not sure if I will post until after our anniversary, Jan 3rd - 8 years.

A Year in Review

I got this idea from Crista "very cool idea, which is to list by month the first sentence of the first post for each month of the past year. I included the title of each post (with a link embedded should anyone be interested in reading more) since it often provides some important context and/or better encapsulates the post…I also, like Kether, sometimes included more than one sentence. So sue me. ;) Anyone else wanna play?! " She wrote it so well, thought I would "borrow" it, lol.

Jan: Day Four of vacation and New Years Day Four was our last real day of "our" vacation. We slept in, ate breakfast, slept more and headed to USA Baby.

Feb:"Is that sorry on your breath?" Allison Kraus Forgiveness, apologies, and mental growth. Much as an alcoholic will not be able to seek help until ready, the same goes for correcting wrongs or forgiving those wrongs done unto you.

Mar: What a difference a day makes I did not realize what anemia could do to a person.

Apr: One Year First, I want to say a big Congratulations to my Sweetie. Today marks 1 year with his current job.

May: Weekend Check In This weekend has been so wonderful so far – and it is not finished yet.

June: 38 Week Appointment Today was our 38-week appointment. In spite of the odds, she flipped.

July: Perfect Outings The most wonderful thing to wake up to is a newborn’s face, a face like fresh untouched snow, perfection in every inch.

Aug: Feeling Great am feeling great. I have been for days now. Saturday we packed up JuneBug and headed to MotoDiva to help her make a movie.

Sept: And so I cried Yes, I cried. My Sweetie and I took her to her daycare this morning.

Oct: The Human Condition Saturday night my Sweetie and I went to Carmina Burana performed by the Ballet Austin.

Nov: HUGE SUCCESS This Halloween was a huge success.

Dec: Flying There is a great thing called "Flying". This is with Flylady. Flying is getting your house in order with an easy approach.

Happy Happy Dance

I got down another size in jeans this weekend, officially in some single digit clothing. Now I need to get cracking on working out for Carnaval. Tomorrow is going to be busy with visiting my old work and then in the evening seeing Best Friend and her husband.

Plans for New Years Eve are in the works. Sweetie wants to have a quiet evening with a few friends and Bug. The holidays are so very different now that we have Bug.

On other news, her scooting/crawling had taken a new step. She is going clear across the living room and into the dining room in a couple of seconds. Time to baby proof.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas. This holiday was amazing. First let me show you what Santa gave me. Yes, I now have a microwave. We had one before. However, when it died a few years ago we did not replace it. The main reason was that we could not find one that was big enough. The one we had was when they made them large enough for casseroles. This one is bigger than our last. My first thought was "I am getting some popcorn". It is going to be strange. We are so used to cooking with only a stove, oven, and electric skillet. Who knows maybe cable is next. LoL.


Christmas Eve Eve we had my niece and we enjoyed shopping, having lunch, and going to my Brother's. It was a lot of fun. Great food, decorating the tree, and niece had other kids to talk to. I hope this tradition continues. But we won't mention my Sweetie eating a full raw jalapeño pepper.

Christmas Eve I had my normal breakdown and my Sweetie pulled me through it, as always. We went to Church. It was great. They kept it funny for the kids and it ended with everyone holding a candle and singing silent night. After, we had our Christmas eve celebration. Other than me misjudging the start time, due to getting out of church late, I think it went well. We made Snow globes. It was so much fun. But we didn't start gifts until almost midnight. Bug made out. She was so goodands played with everything she received. Sweetie received a freaky little doll that he has wanted. He looks like a kid with this gift. The evening continued until late. I hit the pillow at 3.

Christmas Day started fantastically. SIL and Niece always stay at MIL's. This allows MIL to see Niece's face with Santa gifts. We thought this was a good idea and had my Mom stay the night Christmas Eve. We even put a stocking out for her during the night. She did not notice and when we gave it to her she started to cry. Bug was so happy with her Santa gifts, she looked at us to as if to make sure they were for her. We ate banana nut bread, opened presents, and packed up for Mom's. It was a laid back day. We talked about family no longer with us and enjoyed each other. After a wonderful game of Phase 10 (i won), we headed home. This time we went to bed at oneish.

This morning, Bug let us sleep until 11:30, with a couple of feedings as our only distraction. Today is a relaxing Boxing Day. Tonight is dinner at Mom's for leftovers.

I hope everyone had a great Christmas. I cannot believe next week is 2006. That means that our 8th anniversary is only 8 days away.

Busy day

Today was wonderfully crazy. Bug was feeling great, and telling us all about it, and went to school. I went and did some shopping. I finished buying Bug's gifts to others, just need to finish one thing. I also bought items for Christmas Eve. Last year, I hosted decorating cookies. Sweetie is worried we may not have enough time. I will figure it out though.

I finished my shopping just in time for lunch. I decided it would be a great treat to take my Sweetie lunch, so that is what I did. We had the best lunch. We ate in the breakroom - nice breakroom - and finished our visit with ping pong. OK mine was more pong than ping, lol. I worked on Bug's gifts and then headed to Happy Hour for a ex-coworker's going away party. Funny that it lands on what would be my last day. Long story short, I could not take Bug into the bar area at all. I can understand this but the manager was a HUGE horse's ass about it. Just as I was heading out, I called Sweetie to discover he was in the parking lot. He offered to take Bug from me so I could enjoy the happy hour. Enjoy I did. I had adult beverages and had fun. All for free. The drinks were weak so I was never "out of control". I discussed going back to work for the AP Manager. Would be a hard decision. The pay would be less and the position , well I don't want to say less because AP has its challenges on a daily basis, but not what I was doing. But I would keep the company and the benefits and great time off. And I would be able to go to my old boss and say "Good morning, yes you could not get rid of me." Such a hard decision.

I would love to post more, but I am tired. I need to go to bed. Tomorrow is a big day. We have my niece for the day and night. We need to finish some shopping and then get ready for a small dinner at Brother's house. It will be fun.

525,600 Minutes

First things first, I got my grade last night for the CPA. I did not pass, just as I suspected, but I did better than I expected. Next time I will shine.

The interview went well. They were honest about the job and that is a little intimidating.

Bug and I slept a lot today. She has, yet another, ear infection. We will get through this too.

Today would be my parents 32nd anniversary. To celebrate, Sweetie watched Bug and Mom and I went to Alamo Draft House and saw Rent. It was great. From the moment I saw Angel, he was my favorite. I am so surprised that he is not one of the original cast. I want to see the Broadway version now. I totally teared up with the events around the funeral. It is a great movie and one I recommend if you do not mind singing dialogue. It, however, did not make me want to move to NYC. Visiting would be nice, but it looks too damn cold. LOL

Now I need to soundtrack.

Ballet, Lights, and Cookies

I have been trying to blog several times today without any luck.

Another great weekend to report. Saturday night was Nutcracker. It was amazing, as always. This is the 43rd season for Ballet Austin to perform the nutcracker. I cannot wait until we can take Bug. We saw the ballet and then went to dinner. Outback is perfect at 10:00pm. We had a fantastic and romantic evening. One thing I did learn, it is time to retire my reunion pants. They were simply falling off me at the Ballet.

Sunday was the trail of lights with Mom, Sweetie, Bug, MIL, SIL, SIL's brother, grandpa, and niece. Bug slept through about half of it, but she was able to spin under the Christmas tree at the end with her daddy. It was so much fun.

Today was a day for Bug and me. She had a rough night so we kept her home from school. Since I have been recovering from my cold as well, it worked out wonderfully for the both of us. We slept a lot and watched a lot of TV.

Tonight, Sweetie made me dinner. Shortly after finishing Mom called to tell me to come over and pick up homemade peanut butter cookies, right from the oven. So perfect. It is the holiday season.

Tomorrow I have an interview. We shall see, I am holding out for the perfect job. The good news is that the Boss would be a mentor type like I had at a prior job. I will keep everyone updated.

Nothing Better

Than brand new sheets, flannel at that, and holding a sleeping baby. Shhhhhhh don't wake her.

And it is so

First let me start with last night. We went to Bug's school for the Christmas party. It was so much fun. After, we went to see Santa. Serif was so good for him - although not smiling for the camera still. Such a good night.

This morning started out slowly. When I got to work my boss's boss asked to speak to me. He told me that today would be my last day and I will be paid through next week. This means I got my vacation. It was very strange. I thought Thursday would be my last day. I made sure to finish the work I needed to. No matter what I did not want to leave them in a bad situation.

AP Manager, Tiff, another co-worker, and I went for a long lunch. It was very nice for a last time out. We had the company Christmas party today. During the party, I went back to my desk to send my goodbye e-mail, I am no good with goodbyes, and gather my things to leave. I sent the e-mail and lingered too long and people who I e-mailed began coming over to say goodbye. It meant a lot. An auditor friend there, not the one with KPMG, gave me the name and number of a woman with his company. He said I will find something in no time. Tiff walked me out. We both started tearing up.

It was very hard to say goodbye to AP Manager (Kimberly) and Tiff. They are friends that make my experience at the company worthwhile. I am going back on Tuesday to show of Bug. That is going to be hard.

After leaving I met with a headhunter. We shall see. I am holding out for the perfect job. I want a job like Sweetie, he loves his job and everyone loves him. I am doing ok. I am starting to get bitter and I don't want to. My boss finally spoke to me today. First time since I gave notice.

This next week I am focusing on Christmas. I have four days to clean, decorate, and finish my craft. Then on Friday Sweetie, Bug, Niece, and I are going to have fun. Maybe we will do some baking. I want to get Niece in the kitchen and see what she can do (under complete supervision no worries SIL).

The good news about the day - I had two conversations about my weight loss. One co-worker said that she didn't remember my face being so round (based on my ID), Kimberly said I lost a few chins, and another co-worker said I look beautiful and sexy.

Free Biscotti

Biscotti makes me happy
Biscotti makes me sing
Biscotti makes me forget the 80 cents I lost in the machine

Sick at home

Yes, I am home again. I feel like crap, stuffed nose, achiness, sneezing.... I am eating breakfast now and then going to sleep until I feel better. I am all set up: eating breakfast malt-o-meal (although sweetie makes it better), have my diet coke (maybe no withdrawls this morning), TV remote (because when you are sick you get to watch a lot of tv - damnit when is a new episode coming out), and both phones (in case someone wants to call and hire me, or call and fire me).

The nyquil is kicking in. Must finish diet coke. I do have to make sure to get up someitme tioday and shower so that I can be presentable for Bug. I get to pick her up today - Sweetie has a work thing tonight.

There is more to write, but alas, I have lot all ability to think.

Interview

The interview went well. The most overtime they work is an hour a day during close. WOOO HOOO. That means if I get this job, I would not have anymore days where I am working to midnight. The guy I interviewed with went to the same HS as Sweetie, graduated a year after, went to the same college and graduated the same year as Sweetie, and is attending SEU for his MBA and knows my favorite professor. We shall see. I said I could start mid-January. I need some time for me.

Currently I am cleaning my desk. I want to leave it tidy. I feel like crap. I have a cold and I think my head is going to explode. I just found some dayquil. YAY. Let's hope it works. I think I might have to call in tomorrow. I had planned on doing this for one day anyway. But I didn't want to actually be sick.

Saturday is our big date night. Dinner and Nutcracker. I cannot wait. I am hoping to wear a Christmas dress that I have not worn in some time. I hope the 53 pounds gone allows me to be comfortable and confident.

Getting to Saturday is going to be busy. I am making gifts, need to finish shopping, and Bug needs to see Santa. We shall get it done. Damn why isn't the dayquil working yet?

Well I have a whole other side to clean so I better get busy.

Picture Time

I totally forgot to post about Saturday. It was perfect. We had our first family photos taken, and Christmas cards made. It was so much fun, other than Bug not smiling. But that is ok. She smiled every time away from the camera, lol. My baby bug. Saturday night was my mom's Christmas tree decorating. It was fun. However, my Brother and I got to chat about being out of work for Christmas. While mine is voluntary, his is not. We watched Christmas specials and Bug and I took a nice long nap. Mom gave me medicine for my stuffy nose and failed to mention that it causes drowsiness. But it was good and fun. Most of the Christmas shopping is done. That makes me happy. Now it is time to work before my interview.

Movie Review Time

Short moment to discuss work - my boss is an ass. It became apparent that I could no longer work with him. Even more apparent he will never like me. I gave two weeks, hoping they walk me sooner. I have an interview tomorrow though, and with a company only 5 miles from home and right by Sweetie. That sounds wonderful, no hopes up no hopes up.

Now to the meat of the post. Sweetie and I saw "The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe" on Friday night, yep opening night. It was wonderful. If we had not just finished the book, we would not have noticed the changes as much. Nothing big like Lord of the Rings. If you have had the pleasure to hear my Sweetie vent about this, well you know how we feel about it. The cast - wonderful. Queen Jadis was amazing. Although not tall enough, but you have to read Magician's Nephew to know this. The children were fantastic and very close to my mind's eye. And the movie looked the way Narnia looks. While some of the little additions made sense due to explanation - like how the movie began - there were also a couple of changes that I could not understand. Don't get me wrong, they did not ruin the movie. But the conversation with the beavers about Aslan was not complete. They left of the part where the kids ask if he is a man and find out he is a lion. The also changed a couple of other things, like the fox. However, all in all I loved the movie. Sweetie made sure that I would see it. We held hands and did the whole "date" thing with it. And after the movie, we talked and talked about if the movie lived up to the book. My favorite part? When the stone table breaks. Enough said. I totally teared up at the scene leading up to this. They really pulled it off. My second favorite is when all the children arrive in Narnia and Peter apologizes for not believing her. These are my favorites in the book and the movie. Sweetie's favorite agrees with my second as well as the Centaur rushing Jadis with the Rhino. It was a great evening and he is the sweetest man ever.

Today involved some girl time as Bug and I did some Christmas shopping. Hope Sweetie likes what we got him. She was very picky - you know wanting to grab everything for him. Now it is time to prepare for my interview and get a good night's sleep.

2 Weeks

I just gave my two weeks notice.

BRRRRRRRRR

OK I live in Texas. I am a Texan. We (at least in Austin) freak out with cold weather. Yesterday the temp dropped into the 20s with some rain. My company closed at 3:00. I got out at 4. I finally made it home after 5:00. It iced over fairly good last night. Most schools are closed and companies are starting late. Sweetie, Bug and I enjoyed a easy morning with some warm breakfast before heading out into the streets. I found out before leaving that the company is closing at 3 again today and that my boss is iced in - YAYAYAYAYAY. This made going in sound so much more appealing.

I headed out. It took me over 30 minutes to get what normally takes 5. At this rate it would have taken me 3 hours to get to work. I decided, along with Mom telling me to turn around, that I can do more in my workday at a computer, be it at home or work, than sitting in traffic unable to do anything. Sweetie made it to work after dropping off Bug, but his commute is less than 1/4 of what mine is. So I sit alone in the house, well as alone as you can be with cats. It is nice after yesterday.

Yesterday was so busy at work. I took tamales in for breakfast. I did not get a chance to heat them and because they sat out all day, I had to throw them out. I was so busy that I did not even stop to get water. I only had my diet coke from the morning. Luckily the AP manager is an angel. She brought me homemade soup for lunch. Not only that, she heated it for me and put it in front of my face to eat. Good thing, or I don't know when I would have been able to eat. The my temp asked if I would like a soda. Very unlike myself I said yes. They were my life saviors yesterday. It made me feel very loved after my boss was being such an ass again. One of my complaints when I leave will be that he expects me to know everything about my recs and entries but it is ok for him to forget about his. BLAH. But at least others love me. And I presented at the meeting. It went ok. I am sure my boss still wants to get rid of me.

On other news, Bug turned 6 months yesterday. How is that possible? He appointment went good. The doctor is still cautious of her weight. He says she is very very healthy, skin looks good, is very strong, and extremely happy. He admits that she might just be thin. She looks small but not skinny. So we go back in three months to see how she is doing. I feel good about it.

Last night we snuggled due to the cold until her 3:30 feeding. Which, due to her weight, we have to continue since that is an extra 4 oz. At this point she went to her crib. Her sleeping in our bed is a very special thing, only happens when mommy needs it or due to the cold. I heard her over the monitor talking away. It made me smile. Then a few hours later I woke up to her talking. She is just like me.

I know if you are from up north you think we are crazy - but it is only 27 degrees outside. IT IS COLD. Our town shuts down for weather like this.

Crazy busy

The close meeting is tomorrow, which means that I will miss Bug's 6 month check-up.

I wanted to check in, let everyone know that I am doing great, and leave you with one thought.

I was feeling distant from Sweetie. He was feeling the same way. Nothing happened to cause this feeling, we had a great morning. The biggest difference is that we both were very busy this morning working and unable to chat much. Here is our IM conversation. Sorry ladies, he is taken. He is all mine.

me: i feel lost from you today

sweetie: i am getting the same feeling from you... like we are so extremely far apart

me: yes that is the feeling, like I have not seen you for days

sweetie: i know, i miss you mouse

me: what do we do to fix this?

sweetie: i dunno mouse... i think we just need to see each other today. meaning - when you get home, i think the feeling will go away

me: ok

sweetie: i don't know why we feel divided, but there is nothing we can do about it -now-. We simply have to wait to get back into each other's arms.
sweetie: to me - it just reaffirms how much we love each other. So much that a couple hours of the day of not being together is painful or "weird"

me: I love you

sweetie: i love you more than anything

In need of sleep

WOW. That is what I have to say about this weekend. Friday night I got together with HowieMaui. We realized we have been friends for 20 years. While I have not seen her in 15, we have kept in touch with the occasional letter- yes, the actual hand written kind. Last time I saw her was the summer of 1990. This was a big summer for me. I went to both UT band camp - please no jokes, I did not play the flute - as well as Camp Allen. She also went to Camp Allen and this was the third time that we went together. We made sure to get the same camp cycle and cabin. That was also where I met James. James from Belton. Poor guy, I do not even remember his last name. All I remember was that he was blonde and we kissed during a dance at camp. Yes, a church camp, of course. 1990 was a big year for me for many reasons. No detail for you. But buy me a drink and you can hear the whole story. Oh where was I? Oh yes, HowieMaui, so I remember the year of that Summer camp trip very well. She came out with her husband. He is great. We bowled and played a board game. Just a really nice evening that went into the wee hours of the morning. I also have to add that my brother found out that I had to work late, so he made and brought food to the house. Such a wonderful brother, I do not say that enough.

Saturday morning was the church bizarre. It was wonderful and Bug got to meet Santa. Then we headed to the tamale fest. That was a fun filled day. Bug got to play with older girls and be the center of attention. Sweetie also tried on his costume for Carnaval and DarkDiva measured me for my corset. I am so excited. I should be working out right now. Found out my bottom will be showing (/em covers mouth in shock). I must start working out. Carnaval is coming soon. The good news is that my Sweetie is a bottom man, so the likely hood of his hands leaving this area for strangers to see is very slim.

Today was the normal church and grocery shopping. Then we gathered MIL, SIL, niece, and Mom and all made bourbon balls. YUM YUM. These are my favorite. We also tried a new kind. In the past, we made bourbon balls which is chocolate and bourbon as well as rum balls which is butterscotch and rum. This year we made mint balls with mint chocolate and peppermint schnapps. Hope they are good. They sit for 3 weeks and we will eat them on Christmas Eve. This makes them very strong. After the in-laws left, we watched Emmet Otter's Jug-Band Christmas. This is one of my favorite Christmas specials. I am lucky enough to own it.

OH AND DID YOU KNOW, A FRAGGLE ROCK MOVIE???? YAYAYAYAYAYAYYAY

Flying

There is a great thing called "Flying". This is with Flylady. Flying is getting your house in order with an easy approach. This is much needed. There is a 31 day beginner program. We started it today. Perfect since I start studying in January. Currently we are waiting for the sink to finish soaking in the bleach/water solution.

Work? Yes, I feel I must touch on it. I don't know what I am going to do. I am currently in close and hating every minute of it. I go back and forth between writing my resignation letter, trying to stay, or walking out. OK so maybe it is a back and forth and over there instead.

The good news is that tomorrow is Friday. Our weekend is packed again. This is nothing new. We have the church Christmas Bizarre. I am making pound cake. The morning will be filled with baked goods, casseroles, pancake breakfast, and Santa. Just when we think all the fun could be had. We go to Darkdiva for Tamale fest 2005. We all make tamales while chatting and general merriment.

OK just finished one side of the sink. OMG. Seriously, it has never looked so good. There is something to these flyladies. I cannot wait until tomorrow to do the other side. Sweetie got so excited he took pictures of the side clean and the side untouched. It is so neat to see the difference. I am totally into this 31 day beginner plan. Bring it on. Plus maybe I can redirect my frustrations with work into cleaning.

Now I sit in my "too big but so comfy for it" sweats while drinking hot cocoa made with 1% milk - sooooo good. Now I am heading for bed. My Sweetie will read to me another two chapers. We are with the Beavers now. So exciting. Next Friday. I am so there. All I need is a babysitter, any takers????

I forgot to mention, I measured on Saturday. I am down 52 pounds and officially a medium now. WOOOO HOOO. Sweetie can't keep his hands off of me. ooh-la-la. OK now I am seriously off to bed.

What are you looking at?

It is done

The test is complete. I am at work. I am fried. Cannot think and my hands even hurt. I feel like I completed another half marathon. The time was similar - 4 hours.

My reward? Snowballs. Yes the pink ones with coconut, marshmallow, chocolate cake and cream. Yummy.

Sweetie called me today just as I was to take my test wishing me good luck from him and Bug. Such a sweet message to hear right before taking the test.

My mom sent me the best e-card. It read: I don't care how you did today. I want you to know that, pass or fail, I am so proud to have you as my daughter. You are more than I could ever have dreamed of. Love, Mom.

She is so fantastic. This morning Bug woke up, but not hungry. As soon as I picked her up she calmed down. I took her back to my bed and we snuggled for about 30 minutes. What a wonderful way to wake up.

I know this is short. I simply wanted to check in, let you know I survived, and am gaining back brain power as I type this.

Operation Shutdown

Things are crazy emotional. I am losing my mind. I tried to study during lunch. It was a no-go. I wish it was because my brain is so full of knowledge. Nope, it is because I am tired of it all. I have a meeting with my boss at 2. I am dreading it. I am dreading everything about work. I wish I could just quit. This sucks.

OK enough complaining. I test in the morning. The theory is that I am not going to get on the computer tonight at all. We shall see how that goes. One of the other BIG parts of this test that is getting to me is that the testing location is next door to SKIDS. I have not been back there since I walked.

Would someone please have the company that I want to work for call me? I am a really good employee. In spite of what my boss says or me blogging right now.

I cannot wait until tomorrow night. I get to relax and celebrate my Best Friend's b-day. I think Sweetie shall drive and I will enjoy an adult beverage.

Was it something I said?

It happened. Bug ran away from us. She found a hidey hole and thinks it is fantastic. She crawled under the coffee table taking one of her favorite toys.

Three Days

Currently Sweetie and Bug are Christmas shopping for me. They are so good to give me the time I need to study.

Three days until the test. I am at the point where I do not care about the results. Yesterday was not productive at all. Bug woke up at 4am and we had a rough day with her needing her Mommy and not eating. We got less than half her normal intake into her. Very stressful.

As I have said before, my distractions right now are proving studying very hard. Between Bug and work, it is difficult. I realized if I don't pass, it is ok. I will know what to expect from the test, my application will be current, and I will feel like I am at least in the process. I am still planning to take Audit in February. The thing that makes me feel better is my auditor friend. She failed the Audit portion by one point. This is what she does for a living and she failed it. Not to mention how badly one point must feel. Her life is not over, she did not quit her job. She did not question her career. She simply kept testing. Don't get me wrong, I am going to study and study during these next three days. I am going to go in clear headed and do the best I can.

Tonight, before going to bed. Sweetie will finish reading the Magician's Nephew. The night I posted my wish list, he started reading to me. We started with book one because Sweetie wanted to know how Narnia came to be. However, it is not mandatory to read book one to understand The Lion Witch and the Wardrobe. He is so wonderful. When he reads he uses a different voice for each character. Not only that, he is consistent with it. Digory and Polly always sound the same.

OK, I posted and gave updates. Now I can focus on Studying.

No Christmas Tree

Nothing drastic. We did not get the decorations up as planned. My Sweetie was playing his game with his friends and we decided to do it after Bug went to bed. Well, she decided to stay up until 11:00. However, before going to bed, she made sure to essentially crawl at least 10 times in a row from one side of our rug to the other. We recorded her scooting on Nov 14th. Last night she did one of these scoots in her play pen for the family to see. Everyone reacted with being impressed. We were worried that Sweetie and I missed her first full out crawl as we did not see the movement in the crib. Then she did it again today in front of my Mom who also saw it last night. We confirmed that the movement last night was the same as we recorded on the 14th. But tonight was the first time back to back to back to back...etc.... and covering distance. I got it on tape. So very cool. We learned that when my Bug wants a cap to one of her bottles, she will go to great lengths to get it.

Oh and one other update. We did not attend the Turkey Trot as planned. Bug started coughing that morning. While it was only in the 50s for the event, we did not want to chance getting her cough worse.

All I have to say is a fan and AC on during Thanksgiving is just wrong.

White Roses

I am on the couch with Bug sleeping on me. I am absolutely in love with my life. It doesn't matter that my job sucks and I am not prepared for my test. I have a husband who adores me, and makes Thanksgiving fantastic. I have a home that I adore. Small but very us. Even with how we have changed over the years it is still us. We are listening to the "Magic of Christmas" on 95.5 - nonstop Christmas songs until Christmas. "Mary did you know" is playing. My mom and I love this song. While the Kenny Rogers song is good (he does sing mine and my Sweetie's song, "Lady"), we prefer Kathy Mattea's version on her album "Good News". This song really gets to me this year.

I had a headache all day. Now that I am doing better, I have a baby on me. It is ok. My Sweetie made a very good point. I was stressing about my test, not being ready and all. He said "Aren't you more stressed that you will pass?" I stopped and questioned what meant. He reminded me that once I pass one section, I only have 18 months to pass the remaining three. If the 18 months pass and I do not pass the other three, I lose the credit for all tests and have to start all over. That is a little overwhelming. This statement took a lot of stress off from me. He is the best ever.

Yesterday was wonderful. We ate in the evening. Sweetie BBQ'd the turkey, took half the time. After dinner we all simply sat back and talked. I caught everyone up on my work and Sweetie talked and talked and talked. If you know him at all, you know he can talk it up. I love it.

Tonight, we are putting up our Christmas decorations. It is yet another tradition. While we decorate we eat leftovers from the day before - yum ham sandwiches - and watch Miracle on 34th street. It is so much fun. I love the Christmas season. This one is so very special. Bug, of course, has no clue. However, I do, and that is all that matters.

The title? I am currently looking at the wool roses that Sweetie gave me in January for our 7th anniversary. So beautiful.

Waiting to go home

I am in a good mood. I just talked with a co-worker about the horrible mess. We both think my boss is having problems at home. It was good to let someone else know what is going on, other than my two good friends here.

I applied to about 10 places. One I really really really really want. It is for a financial analyst for a company that I have been dying to work for. Fingers are crossed. I could even carpool with Sweetie. No hopes up.

I also applied to work for UT. No, not the same UT that Sweetie worked. HowieMaui also works there and that could be fun. I need to get my resume and letter of intent in the mail for the position.

I finished my game plan for my studying this weekend. Not as bad as I thought. Then I can always do more problems if I feel I need to in the remaining time. My auditor friend took the test on Monday. She said it covers everything. She did not finish in the 4 hour time frame. She still had one more paragraph. She told me that I will do better. I hope so. I do not want to have to study for this again. I want to move onto the next section. Then I will be testing in Feb, and May. BLAH.

Here's to another 40 hours of studying before the test.

Thanksgiving Eve

Happy Thanksgiving Eve. Yes, this week has sucked ass. However, tomorrow is one of my favorite holidays, only second to Christmas.

What I am thankful for by Missy (these are in no particular order):
1) a healthy bug who makes me smile every time I see her
2) a husband who is creative, check out his new Specks comic
3) a best friend who gives the best gifts, who loves Christmas as much as I do (if not more) and supports me no matter what.
4) friends who agree with me when I am treated badly - wonderful feeling to know that I am not crazy
5) a mother who is more like a best friend than a mother
6) family in town that I can depend on
7) Sweetie, anything and everything about him, he is my soulmate
8) Being eligible to test on Wednesday.
9) My health, my home, my life
10) Me, I am at a point where I really like myself

In theory, we are attending the turkey trot tomorrow. Bug's school is sponsoring the Kid's K. We have to go and have fun. Sweetie is doing the turkey again - love it. Everyone is bringing food. We are not eating until 5. This means I should have a little time to study before the fun begins. After dinner, we will probably play games and moan in our misery (from being so stuffed).

This weekend I am focusing on studying. Sweetie gets a wonderful weekend with Bug. I hope they enjoy it. Wednesday is Best Friend's b-day as well as my testing day. That night we are celebrating both. Regardless if I pass or not, I will have succeeded in keeping my application active.

And I completely forgot to mention. On Saturday, I got into the next size down for jeans. It is so nice to wear jeans that are not baggy in the butt. It is even nicer to know that I can wear this size again. WOO HOO!!!!

I hope everyone has a wonderful and safe Thanksgiving. Enjoy your family and friends. I know I will.

30 Days

I am too pissed to really blog right now. I had a meeting with my fucking boss. Excuse my language. Actually please do not. I was told that I have 30 days to improve my work or I will be let go. WHAT???? ME?????? If anyone knows me this is very hard to understand. This would put me at being let go 10 days before YEAR END CLOSE. I think he has lost his mind.

Wish List

Stole this from SIL - but it is a great idea:

- Make a post to your blog or livejournal. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all. The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

What do you wish for?

1. A job that I am happy with and appreciated - ok no one can help me there but myself - but it is a wish.
2. A clean house - yes stole this one too. But it is true, with Bug on the move very soon, we need to be ready.
3. Student loans paid - not realistic if you knew how much I have in student loan debt, I went to a great school that was private. Well worth it though. The plan is to be paid off in 10 years. But now would be so much easier. If that happened, I could work part time and tell my boss fuck you - see #1.
4. 80's movies that I love - then I can pretend I have time to watch them.
5. To read books with my Sweetie again - as in he reads to me - next on the list - a rereading of The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe - last one I read was The Magician's Nephew (Book one) while I was pregnant and I need a refresher of book two before the movie. My dad gave me the best hard cover Narnia Collection years and years ago. Then I want to see the movie. I hope they hold true to the book.
6. To pass the FAR section of my CPA - I guess if I want that one I should stop blogging and start studying again. Stockholder's equity is waiting.
7. Traditions to introduce to Bug. Yay first holiday season.
8. A romantic evening with Sweetie to see the Nutcracker - already bought our tickets. Last year was so wonderful with dressing up and having fun. I want another - it is now a tradition.
9. Banana nut bread for Christmas morning.
10. Not Christmas, but close enough, an 8th anniversary that consists of our four traditions that we do every year. How well do you know us? Can you name them?

BLAH

I am studying like a good girl - going on 2 hours. Only 6 more planned for the day. I just had to get on, I know I know I am bad. But I want the world to know. Readers of Missy's World - please know that I HATE Deferred Taxes - both assets and liabilities. OK back to work. I need to find out how I did on my simulation. See it is the test's fault. There is a portion that has you research on the internet. Not my fault that I come here automatically. Good thing they won't have blogger at the testing site.

Cured? Like the ham.

OK so maybe not cured. But I did get out of the house today. Mom and I went on our annual shopping trip. We started at Starbucks and a Eggnog Chai Latte. Yummy. We hit a couple of stores, had a healthy lunch, and then we picked up a Bug from daycare. It was so good to see her at school. She loves being around the babies. I have no idea what Mom and I talked about before Bug came around. Before we picked her up, she was our main topic of conversation.

My studying sucked tonight. I still feel like crap and am about to go to bed. Alas, it can wait until tomorrow. My Boss e-mailed me to let me know he was going to be out of the office tomorrow. And I just finished chatting with the AP manger. She said her boss, my boss's boss, will also be out. Sounds like it is going to be a productive day. I am going to do my project first thing in the morning and then sneak in some studying.

I cannot wait until the test is over. Yes, it has hit the point that I simply want it over. Blah. Less than two weeks. I know there are three other sections and I may have to retake this one, but I cannot wait until December. I plan to read and craft.

Sweetie is so wonderful. He went and got me yummy dinner. He takes such good care of us. I am very very lucky. However, he is a uni-tasker. Much to his happiness, he found out this week that he is not alone.

Tomorrow night is a girl's night out. This is with my DI/Icom girlfriends. We are going to a sushi place and getting the back-room. It should be fun. I hope I am up for it. After Sushi the girls are going out to experience live music. I, however, will retire for studying. Unless, of course, I get a lot done at work lol.

Still Sick

I feel sick and like blogging. Strange combination. Bug is all better. She stayed home with me again today to make sure she is up for daycare. I think it was Sweetie's goal for her happiness and good to rub off on me. He also knows that when she is here, I will nap with her. While I am feeling a bit better, I am still coughing up nasty stuff and wheezing. Looks like the doctor's request of Friday return date is better than I thought.

Tomorrow is my dad's b-day. My mom and I normally go shopping. If I feel up to it, I still want to go to a couple of stores in the afternoon or something. Do not get me wrong, I am feeling better, but not up to par yet. I tell you, never plan to call in sick. You will end up really sick. Not fair.

Bug has been great today. She is entertaining me with her bald head. My mom says that with her bald head, she looks like I did at her age. She is really playing now and has a great personality. She laughs, dances, and smiles. Bob loves her enough to let her pet him. Such a good cat. The others stay away. I don't blame them.

CPA two weeks away. With everything going on, we will see. My only goal now is to take it and find out what to expect. I should get the results at the end of the year.

I have decided that I am testing the very slow option. I don't care how long it takes. Well, once I pass the first section, I only have 18 months the pass the reminder.

Thanksgiving is next week. YAY. I love Thanksgiving. We hope to do the turkey trot, me study some, and have Thanksgiving dinner in the evening - like when I was a kid. This means Sweetie doesn't have to get up quite so early for the bird. Bug and I may do the Turkey Trot alone. We shall see. It is a tradition that I want for my little family. The remainder of the day is with everyone else. I am making my famous fruit salad and maybe some green bean casserole. Other than that, I am a bad hostess and will let everyone fend for themselves.

ok diaper calls....

How a Bison says hello!

The wine tasting and zoo was fantastic. Butterflies were everywhere. I got to pet a zebra, camel, and bison. Bug loved it. That night, the party with high school friends was a lot of fun. My friend Chris even came. Yesterday, was the family gathering. Sweetie BBQd chicken and Mom baked a cake. I am so lucky to have the family and friends that I do.

Yesterday, I started feeling sick - coughing, sneezing, weezing, running nose. Blah. Bug also was not feeling up to par. Today I got the call at work that Bug was sick as well. Great. So we both went to the doctor. I think it was her plan to make sure I went in. She has an ear infection and can go back to daycare on Wednesday. I, however, have bronchitis. I am prone to it. I am not to go back to work until Friday. We shall see how my boss reacts to this. I called him and, of course, I got his voice mail.

We had a big evening. Two important things happen. For those of you who don't know, Bug started losing her hair on the sides of her head. This left a silly looking mohawk. Many wise individuals adviced us to shave her head so that it will come in even. Well, after I cried some, we did it. I now have a bald baby. She looks so different - but still cutest ever. She also had her first almost crawl. Her knees were under her as she moved forward. I would not call it a crawl yet, but so close.

I must go to sleep now am feeling sick in ways that I do not like to write about - it involves a lot of running quickly to the bathroom from both ends. Yucky Yucky Yucky.

Introducing - Bald Bug!

Happy Birthday To Me!!!!

Yes, today is my actual birthday. This day 29 years ago, I came into the world. Last night Sweetie and I enjoyed a relaxing dinner at Joe's Crab Shack. We came home and I went to bed early. I awoke to a happy baby and have had a relaxing morning. I am currently waiting for my hair to finish - yes, dying it again. I cannot help it, I like change.

However, there is a reason that I am blogging this morning. Not because of the wonderful gifts I already received from MIL, Mom, Sweetie, and Bug. But I have a bigger gift to post about. The gift to myself. No, not the bubble bath, hope to get that in tonight or tomorrow morning.

I did it. I met my birthday weight loss goal. I am totally shocked by it. I have lost 50 pounds. That is fifty pounds. FIFTY!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAY I had Sweetie come over to confirm. He thought it was amazing. I am feeling great. Please note the new sticker on the side.

Now I must get ready for an amazing day. Go away cough, you won't ruin my day.

Almost Almost Old

Tomorrow I will be Almost Old. 29 years old. I am excited. Tonight is going to be a date with Sweetie and a relaxing bubble bath after. I must get a good night's sleep. Tomorrow is the wine tasting and zoo. I am so excited.

Quick post

Quick post before heading to a happy hour with two ex-classmates. It will be fun.

Last night was a great dinner with MotoDiva and DarkDiva. We discussed MotoDiva's 20 year reunion and my 10 year. MotoDiva's was in NYC. She even watched the finishers of the NY Marathon. That is a goal of mine, a far off goal - but a goal nevertheless. MotoDiva's b-day is in the end of March. She wants to take the three of us, and maybe Sweetie if he is good, to NYC for a visit. Sweetie and I have never been but have always wanted to go. It might just be a lot of fun :-)

Two weeks until Thanksgiving. I cannot wait. However, I have to find time to clean in between studying. If only my vacuum had a book rack. Who am I kidding? I do not vacuum, my Sweetie does everything. He is amazing. We need to figure out what Bug is going to wear for Thanksgiving dinner. I know in the morning we are going to the Turkey Trot. Want it to be a new family tradition. Bug's school will have a tent with face painting. Yay.

I had a bad dream about the test last night/this morning. Basically, I goofed off and all of the sudden it was time to take the test and I had not studied anything more than what I have at this point. I have to take the pressure off of myself. I have a family who I adore and who need me. Many brilliant people have had to take it twice, or more. If I don't pass, there is always next time and I will be better prepared. However, I am not giving up without a fight. I plan to do as well as I possibly can during that four hour period on Nov 30th.

Sweetie is picking up bug, going shopping (FOR ME), and coming to the happy hour to show off our baby. One has not seen her and the other last saw her at the end of August. She is completely different now.

I hope everyone has a great evening.

Back on Topic

I hate miscommunication and misunderstandings.

With that said, back on topic.

What was the topic? Oh yes, it was me. All about me. Three days until my b-day. Not sure about the plans for Friday. Things have changed as BestFriend's husband has a test on Saturday morning. This means Sweetie and I might get a date night. Regardless we will have fun.

This past Monday my bug turned 5 months. Yes everyone, FIVE months. She is huge. As a celebration I let her play with her food and spoon. Talk about a HUGE mess. At least she had fun.

She now knows how to roll to get where she wants to go. Next step is crawling. I am so not ready for that.

Tonight I am having a late gathering with MotoDiva and Darkdiva. Should be some good girl talk and pancakes.

Alas, it is time to get my Bug.

Shame on Texas

It saddens me to report the results of the election today. The amendment to define marriage as only a man and woman passed. IT PASSED! How is this possible? How can people be this stupid? I am emotional as I write this. Travis County, the majority of Austin voted against. This makes me happy. Austin has a very liberal reputation with things like this. However, the remaining portions of the state did not agree. I saw an interview with a man on the against side. He was taking the loss in stride. He explained that other discrimination cases did not pass the first time, race or sex, he said that the Travis County results made him want to keep working. He said there will come a day when gay marriage is recognized. I only hope it happens in his lifetime.

This evening is the first time I have felt ashamed of my State. It makes me sad.

Please Vote

While I try to keep political discussions out of my blog, today is very different.

Today is Election day. Today in Williamson County, we have a ballot without people. This election is supposed to have the highest turnout for a ballot with only amendments. There is good reason. Texas has a very important issue at hand.

Proposition Two: Amendment 2
Brief Explanation as on KXAN's website:
HJR 6 would provide that marriage in Texas is solely the union of a man and woman, and that the state and its political subdivisions could not create or recognize any legal status identical to or similar to marriage, including such legal status relationships created outside of Texas.

I am voting against this absurd amendment. My Sweetie and I believe, no backlash please as this is our opinion, that gay marriage should be allowed. If you do not know, we go to an Episcopal church - women as priests and an openly gay man as a Bishop. One of my greatest friends is a gay man. I believe God made us to be happy and Christian-like (we do not believe that everyone has to worship the way we do - but that is a different blog altogether). Why should this not include those who love the same sex?

I believe everyone should vote No today, regardless of what you believe. Imagine, if you will, that you are gay, have a committed relationship for longer than most straight couples you know, and you are madly in love with your partner. How would it make you feel if you were told your relationship wasn't real, that your commitment didn't matter, that the feelings in your heart were wrong? How would you feel if you were told you were sinning by simply fulfilling your heart, the way God made you?

One of the things I love about my company is that we offer "same-sex" benefits. This is awesome. Times are changing. Look around, everything is changing. In the state of the world right now shouldn't we encourage more love. How can loving someone be wrong?

You want to know the funny thing? For all those reading this who think I am crazy, regardless of how this law passes, there will still be individuals who are gay and in your community. They will still have relationships. They will still feel love in their heart for the same sex. This election will not change this. What does voting No do? It shows that we have respect for these people. It shows that we believe that all individuals should have the same rights. This is America. Voting Yes is discrimination, the same as that based on sex or race.

Be a real Christian and do not judge that you do not understand.

Vote No and show that Texans are not closed minded hillbilies.

I will step down from my soap box now.

A Wonderful Day

This morning began so wonderfully with me waking to a talking baby. If only I knew what she was saying. It was only an hour after her last feeding so I knew she wasn't hungry. I listened for a few seconds smiling, I love listening to her babble. I run in and hug my beautiful baby. We play and snuggle and end up sleeping on the couch all snuggled for over an hour.

The baptism was fantastic. We sat in the front row with our best friends. Such a beautiful day. During her actual baptism she did not cry. She looked very confused as to why she needed her hair washed again today. She was so wonderful. At one point during the service she got a little antsy. I took her to the cry room. There was a mom in there already, to another girl that was baptized. We had a nice talk. Her daughter is 1.5 months older than Bug and they live close to us, I am thinking potential playmate.

My Sweetie was so cute. He wanted to get Bug a Bible for the baptism. We went to the Christian Bookstore yesterday. He found one right away for her. It came up that he did not have a bible to call his own. He proceeded to look for a bible for himself. This took quite some time as he sat down and examined the different kinds. Alas, he did find one for himself. Having Bug has really brought out our faith. I love it.

After the baptism, I decided that I did not want to deal with a restaurant - getting seated, splitting the check, not being able to hear everyone, and Bug getting cranky. So I had the idea for everyone to bring food to a park near our house. This is a park I used to go to as a child. Sweetie thought it was a great idea. It was perfect. Sitting in the shade at a picnic table, bug could make noise without causing distractions. Everyone had food they wanted and we could hear all conversations. It was perfect. After a couple of photos, we changed bug into a more comfortable outfit that would allow playing. Don't worry, I will post photos as soon as they develop. She was so beautiful in her dress.

Yesterday was also DarkDiva's youngest's b-day party. Bug's first non-family kid party. She did great. She watched the older kids with amazement, how do they do that running and sitting? She even went down her first slide. Then last night MIL and Niece came over and we all went out for icecream sundaes. What a treat.

Bug has had a huge weekend and the next one is going to be at the same fast pace. I am currently writing this as Sweetie, Mom, and MIL solve puzzles. And, understandably, Bug is sound asleep.

I am so happy. Nothing better than being in your Husband's arms while watching your daughter receive baptism.

Oh and I am just going to add that my AC was running a few minutes ago. Come on, it is November.

Whistlng in the Dark

There’s only one thing that I know how to do well
And I’ve often been told that you only can do
What you know how to do well
And that’s be you,
Be what you’re like,
Be like yourself,
And so I’m having a wonderful time
But I’d rather be whistling in the dark

Pictures Pictures Pictures

you asked for it. ok maybe you didn't. who cares.

It is all about me

That is what my Bug's onesie read yesterday. And indeed it is true.

However, for one day it gets to be about me, alright for a weekend.

Still 10 days away, but plans are coming along nicely.

Friday night hopefully we are going to movies with Best Friend, Her husband, and Sam.
Saturday during the day will have a wine tasting and zoo with DarkDiva and MotoDiva.
Saturday night is a party with the girls I connected with at the reunion.
Sunday is going to be family day.

I am tired just writing this. Plus getting in 9 hours of study from Friday-Sunday. It will be good. I know that I want a long bubble bath. My last one was before Bug arrived.

Four weeks from today is my test. I can do it. I had a small breakdown this morning. Luckily I had my cheering section, Sweetie, to tell me that I can do it.

Now it is time to pick up my bug.

**PICTURES ARE COMING SOON**

HUGE SUCCESS

This Halloween was a huge success. Sweetie and SIL won costume contests at their works. Our plans changed slightly for our night celebration. We went to MIL's to show off Bug - oh I mean Cow. When we got there we did not want to leave. You see, Sweetie's family loves this holiday and in the past it has been spent together. Sweetie dressed in his real tall and creepy outfit, Bug as her Cow, and me as the pilot. We went trick-or-treating with SIL, BIL-to-be, and niece. It was so much fun to show off Bug. SIL's costume was fantastic. Then we went to Mom's and showed off Bug some more. It was a great evening.

Today is Sweetie's dad's b-day. He would be 56. He would be very happy that we celebrated last night together. Happy Birthday!

Today last year was the first time we saw Bug. Our 8 week ultrasound. And now she is a crazy rolling, laughing, and "talking" baby. So awesome.

Happy Halloween

Today I am a pilot. I am wearing my FIL's flight suit and my Grandpa's helmet. I am too cute.

I cannot wait until tonight. Bug's first Halloween. The photo shoot went SOOOO well on Saturday. I love the pictures. She is the cutest baby ever.

Currently it is dark and rainy outside. I love it.

This is my Sweetie's favorite holiday. I simply want him happy with the day. Not exactly sure what we are doing tonight, it will depend on the weather. He loves this holiday more and more every year. He is already planning costumes for the three of us for years to come. There is nothing better than hearing my Sweetie become giddy after finding out about a costume contest at work. Good thing we live close. He went home and grabbed his great costume.

This weekend was good. Friday was time with Brother and SIL. Saturday was the photoshoot and a day with just the three of us. Bug was in the best mood giggling and laughing all day. Sunday was busy. We went to the later service since this will be the service with the baptism (they alternate between the middle and later services). It is different from the one we know but nothing too drastic. It reminds me a lot of CEC. Due to the later service we got out to our chores later than normal. We stopped for a quick visit with MIL, SIL, and Niece. Then we went and purchased Bug's dress for Sunday - SOOOO pretty. Then we got a b-day present for DarkDiva's youngest (b-day party on Saturday) and headed to the grocery store. Even with going non-stop we did not get home until 6:00. This made for a tired little family.

The good news is that I got my Chili last night. Thank you Mom. Now I just have to wait to get off from work so I can get my Bug and we can begin our celebration. I cannot wait.

Pictures to come.

Friday Friday Friday

Yesterday I woke up late, got ketchup on my shirt, and got thrown up on at daycare (by Bug so that is ok). However, my day was good. My project at work is coming along nicely and I have really enjoyed my work this week. Damn, I just had a great post and it disappeared. Recover blog you failed me. Let's see if I can remember what I was saying - though I am sure it will not be as clever.

I think I am meant to be an accountant. I studied three hours yesterday, one at lunch and two at night. I am really enjoying this. I have gone over cash, marketable securities, partnerships, and owners equity. The biggest thing is that all of this was covered in Advanced, my horrible semester due to SKIDS in Spring 2004. I know it was the stress of working with idiots that caused me to do so poorly. How do I know this? I remember so much of what I am studying right now. The exact same information that was on the tests in this class. I cannot wait until I pass, I will send a letter to Dr. G and let her know the good news.

Today I went to the doctor. It was my follow up from my medicine changed 6 weeks ago for my thyroid. I have lost 12 pounds according to their scale. The NP was impressed but wants to make sure it is not because of my medicine still being too high. If it is not my thyroid I will have to see a dermatologist. So they drew my blood and I will find out on Monday the outcome. If my current meds are too high, can't I stay on them until my b-day??? LOL, no, I would not do that, I know the risks and I know why they are watching me so closely.

I am wearing a sleeveless shirt today. I used to never wear sleeveless anything. Then September 2004 my Sweetie picked out a sundress for me and since I have had the greatest confidence. Ok it is not all from the dress, more like the dress was one of the results. The other result is at daycare in her PJs.

In my 47 pounds lost, I have finally hit a point where I am in between sizes. The jeans I am wearing now are too big, I need a belt. I even put them on straight out of the dryer. However, the next size down is still too tight. Although I did get them zipped and buttoned. I went into the living room to show Sweetie. I told him "I can't sit or breath, but I can zip them up and I couldn't before". He laughed and said he was proud. I can really tell the difference in my body. Everyone at work comments on how much I have lost. My temp calls me Lil Bit. I have even been told that I need a new wardrobe. Little do they know I have a nice wardrobe as soon as I get back to that size. I gained my weight so quickly due to my thyroid that I did not purchase a lot of clothing.

This weekend is going to be a little lazy. Tonight we are seeing my Brother, tomorrow we are taking Bug to get her Halloween pictures taken, and Sunday is Church and store.

And then.....

HALLOWEEN - YAY. I get to dress up for work. Don't know what I am going to be yet, but it will be fun regardless. Me and My Cow.

Tired

So we all know that I get sick easily. We all know that stress can make me sick. So I am making sure to go to bed on time. So far so good. I am exhausted today regardless, but it is a step. I tell myself that even if I am not done studying, I have to go to bed. I will study less if I get sick. So that is where I stand.

To explain something some might not understand. I have to test before December because my application will expire in December. I have to test one section. However, I do not have to pass. Once I pass one section, I have 18 moths to pass the other three.

When I pass, I will feel a great accomplishment. However, if I do not pass this time due to going to sleep on time, or playing with my daughter, I will not feel a complete failure. This test covers A LOT of information and I have higher priorities in my life. That said, I do not want to have to study again. And there are three other people taking this section with me.

The baptism e-mail went out yesterday. I cannot wait. After the service, we are going to lunch. Nothing fancy, just a chance to stare happily at my little bug. We have to see if the outfit we have for her will fit, she has gotten so big.

I am wearing a shirt today that I do not even remember the last time I wore it. I have not been this weight since 2000 before our Vegas trip. I am feeling great, other than the tired part. Only three more pounds, as of last Friday, for my b-day goal.

Yay Birthdays. Mine is now 18 days away. I have to decide what I want to do. I want it to be grand. I have an invitation from DarkDiva to go to a winery and zoo in Johnson City. Not sure that is what I want. I am being very selfish about this birthday. I am doing what I want. It falls on a Saturday this year. YAY.

I think I might pack up my little family and head to the Ansel Adams's exhibit. I love his photography and that would be a great way to celebrate. Sweetie bought me a huge framed Ansel Adams photograph for my 21st b-day. That was a great b-day present. Bug also has her first b-day party invitation for that day. We shall see if we make it, she has never actually met the b-day girl so it is not like it would be a complete loss if we did not go.

Another thing hit me yesterday as I was typing up the baptism e-mail, I need to know what to wear. I know Bug will be the center of attention, but I also want to look good and confident. It is a special day.

My Sweetie and I are going to finish Bug's costume today - did I mention she will be a cow? So exciting. We are entering a very special time for her, a lot of new things. It is so awesome being a mom. My Sweetie and I agree. I had no idea I could love or worry this much. I also cannot believe how close it has brought Sweetie and me.

Now it is time to head out. I need to pick up a bug and kiss a husband.

Honey, I have a headache!

I get migraines. It is true. Today I got one that caused me to throw up four times. Not fun at all. Once my headache gets to a point, I need sleep, medicine, and fatty foods to get rid of it. Luckily, my Sweetie went and got me some good fatty food for dinner.

Today was one of those days where you can't believe everything in your life is true. I was holding Bug today and watching her in her amazing ways made me really stop and think "wow she is our baby, this is real life".

Last night was also like this. After my blogging we watched Grey's Anatomy, yes we watch this one too. However, we were in bed due to being so tired. I have this thing where I try ever so often to sleep the wrong way on the bed. This drives my Sweetie crazy, in a funny haha crazy way. So I was lying the wrong way on the bed while watching TV. Sweetie proceeded to lay on me. This led to about three tickling matches. This morning, he thanked me for being so silly with him. That is my favorite thing about us, the silliness. While we were watching tv, being silly, and listening to the monitor, I couldn't help but take it all in with a deep breath (hard to do when someone tickles you) and smile. Life is good.

My milkshake is doing its job and my head is feeling a bit better. I am tired. I studied during lunch so I think I am going to take a break tonight. Cash and securities will have to wait until tomorrow.

I always say that I hate migraines but I love how they feel when they end. I am not quite at that point yet of absolutely no pain, but I am getting close.

Randomness: The push bars for the doors at work, to leave the wings and go back to the main hallway or lobby, are heat activated. Tiffany proved it to me by me trying to open it with my foot. My question then is, why don't they let the robots roam the halls? Maybe I am ignorant, wouldn't be the first time, but I don't understand why doors going OUT of a restricted area would be heat sensitive?

Over too quickly

This weekend passed much too quickly. I worked an actual normal day on Friday. Mostly because I left at 5 without a word. We shall see the results tomorrow. Saturday night we enjoyed an evening with Best Friend, Best Friend's husband, and Sam. It was so good to see them again. It lasted until the wee hours and it was well worth it.

Today was relaxing. Currently, Sweetie and I are in bed watching TV attempting to sleep early. We will see if it works. Due to church and getting in very late, we only got about 4 hours of sleep and we are exhausted.

Here's to a wonderful week. Who knows, maybe I will only work 40 hours.

SCREW THIS

extra vacation might not be worth this. Excuse my language but I am so fucking pissed. My boss sucks. he should never be in management. I worked 14 hours today.

At Work

Yes, it is another long day. All I have to say is that I am leaving early tomorrow and not stepping foot in here until Monday.

My Sweetie is so wonderful with picking up the slack. OK what slack, he does everything. Well he is wonderful about picking up Bug and entertaining her when I have to work late.

I am very happy right now. My friends are amazing. I am so truly blessed with the friends that I have. The two women from the reunion are already planning our next get together. My greatest guy friend ever, Thomas, from high school is coming to visit in February. I cannot wait. I plan to take a day off from work to spend time with him and his wife. Plus the Divas and Mars have been a great support network during this stressful time.

You know, I have never mentioned Mars. She and I were best friends way back in the day. We met at church and she moved away when I was in 5th grade. Well, over the summer she came back. YAY. I have not had the chance to meet up with her, but it is coming and I cannot wait.

It is strange, my co-worker friend Tiffany, has really turned into a real friend. In spite of her being barely 22, she is awesome. In many ways I feel like the big sister with her - crazy crazy girl. However, I have to admit she was the second reason for my staying here, that and the time off.

So why am I blogging if I should be working? My boss has me on "stand-by" for when he finally wants to discuss my accounts. That is ok. I keep thinking next quarter has to be better. Plus I keep looking forward to the week off that I am taking in between Christmas and New Years. Bug and I are going to live it up.

This has been a hell-of-a three weeks. But as my Sweetie says, it will be worth it. Now back to that studying aspect. I have to get onto that. My temp at work (who is now a full time employee) is also studying for the FAR section to test the same time as me. To motivate myself I suggested we study during lunches together. I know you all must be freaking out if you know anything about her. However, I cannot have her pass and me fail. Whatever works for motivation, right?

I cannot believe Halloween is so soon. Last Halloween was so wonderful. No one at work knew I was pregnant. It was my secret. This year I get to show off a little cow. That is what we need to do this weekend, the remainder of her costume and photos.

Oh and Sweetie is all better. Of course he is. This is his normal course. He gets sick about every 6 months or so, is dying for less than 24 hours, and then is normal again. This one lasted 22 hours.

New Pics

Time to catch up

OK this is going to be long, just warning you.

The reunion. It was such a blast. It was casual and fun. Many of the people who came on Saturday did not come on Sunday and vice versa. The two women that we hung out with on Saturday continued to offer great entertainment. The food was good and the company good. The only hard part was watching the video year book. The only shot of me was with my two best friends at the time. While part of me wishes someone would have hit me on the back of the head to show me that they were not true friends I believe the past put me where I am now. Plus neither came to the reunion. Although each had someone ask about them. The last part of the evening consisted of me, Sweetie, Bug, two "new" friends, and three other people sitting around gossiping. I know it is bad, but we had great fun. The funniest part was when we discussed one guy who apparently has come out of the closet, I said "He IS??" They all turned to me, laughed and confirmed the statement. Another funny thing is I did not run into any other accountants, at least none that advertised it. I did run into three or four teachers. It is funny, we closed the bars on Saturday and then we closed the park on Sunday. They actually lock the gate. We were all sitting around talking and a cop car pulled up. He was very understanding and let us say our goodbyes and pack up. And I have already received and e-mail from the two "new" friends asking when we can get together again. Next time less alcohol.

Update on Bug - She is eating cereal in a high chair and from a spoon. You start the cereal very watered down with formula and then reduce the amount of liquid gradually. Well, last night was the first time the formula was thick enough to use the spoon. She is doing so good. She is going to be a cow for Halloween. I know very different from our original plan, but we fell in love with the costume. I just heard her sigh over the monitor, man I love her.

Sweetie is sick. If you have ever had a sick man around you, you can relate. He is miserable. He started throwing up last night and today has not been better. He called me today because he wanted to hear my voice and because he felt squirmy.

Work: Is it better? Some. I worked 13.25 hours yesterday. That sucks. And then I get slack for leaving at 5 to get Bug. I am trying to make it work. I did not go to the interview. Sweetie brought up a good point, I am trying to study for the CPA. If I am trying to get used to a new company and job I will be more stressed. Plus there was NO way I could get away.

What else is new? I have felt out of it for over three weeks now. I cannot wait until the hours decrease.

This weekend. I am not sure what we are doing this weekend. I would love to do as another blog I read wrote and sit around in PJ's all weekend. Rather, I think I will study as much as I can and try to relax. I am hoping I don't have to work.

OK time to feed bug more cereal or at least see if she wants to wake up to eat.

Checking in

I have not disappeared. I will write more about the reunion part 2, bug update, work, interview update, and other nonsense as soon as I get a free moment.

In the meantime, Bug is Famous.

Reunion Part One of Two

So the event I helped plan last night went well. I helped plan it in the sense that I wanted an adult night. However, few people know I helped since the invite went out from the organizer as to avoid confusion.

I was dressed up, feeling great, and with my Sweetie on my arm in my favorite outfit of his. When we got there we found the organizer and one of her good friends. Actually the good friend recognized me. She said I was the only one (other than the organizer as they are great friends since high school) that she recognized.

A word to sum the evening: Fantastic.

There was almost a fight when one guy who I went through all of school with approached a woman thinking she was a classmate. You see the only planning was really "let's meet at 8". We could not get a reservation for our group due to costs and not knowing how many people would turn up. So he approached this woman and said "Enter name here??" It was not her and the guy with this woman assumed that my classmate was hitting on this woman. The man proceeded to push the classmate (and he is not a big guy at all) by the neck. Luckily another classmate, one all the girls had a crush on, came and broke everything up explaining to this man that the classmate thought she was someone we knew and that we were there for a reunion.

So my impact in HS was much larger than I thought. I had two people who I was friends with in elementary, was in brownies and girlscouts with this, but not friends in high school approach me and give me big hugs and ask how I am. Oh and this classmate who was pushed also told me his life story for the last 10 years. He approached me which I thought was so interesting. We were in kindergarten together and did UIL together in 2nd grade. However, I never really spoke with him since, other than if we were in the same class. He came up and said "Hey Melissa, how are you doing?" He ended the conversation when the organizer came to save me, he was rather drunk, and he said "WOW you both look so fantastic". I also had others know who I am and I was just shocked. One of the ex-girlscouts (although once a girlscout always a girlscout) has a 10 month old and lives close. I am thinking "play mate for Bug". This biggest thing about this girl that I remember is that in 1st grade she walked on her tip toes everywhere. I wanted to be more like her so I did the same thing.

However, not all of it was like old friends. There was a group in HS of some preppy and mean girls and guys. They were there. However, they had their own table and did not approach everyone else. Honestly I don't care. One of the girls used to make fun of me in Jr high because I did not have all the "in" items. She was there. I did not recognize her at all. She looked like a tramp. So funny.

I must say I am a cheap drunk now, very different from before Bug. After only three beers, my feet no longer hurt and I was feeling great. I did walk over and look at the "prep" table but did not stop and say hi.

I am not sure what time, the organizer, her old friend, their designated driver, my Sweetie, and I headed out to find more action. We went to "Cheers shot bar" where I enjoyed a buttery nipple - LOVE THOSE. And then we walked many many many blocks to the "Gingerman" where we sat outside, drank some dark beer and chatted. I totally blew their "good girl" image of me and I will be invited to the next party, lol. The funny thing is that between us we have 5 kids. At 2, we were kicked out. Closing a bar, I don't think I have done that in 10 years, lol.

Anyway these two women live close, have kids, and a lot in common with me and my Sweetie. I even sent an e-mail to the ex-girl scout asking to meet up sometime.

It was so fantastic. It was great to see everyone last night. It was a great preview on how today will be. I can't wait. I get to show off my Bug.

Now I must go and get myself all cute for tonight. I have to get there early to help set up. It is hard being so needed. I will try to post pictures tonight if I get a chance.

TGIF

Summary of the work situation: They want me for a second interview - but they want me for 3 hours and it is (with good traffic) 45 minutes away. BLAH. I got my boss a boss's day card. I am good like that. He is still driving me crazy. However, I feel I need to make it work.

Reunion: Tomorrow is the adult portion. We shall see how this works since the group doesn't have any reservations. Sweetie and I might just make it a date night and people watch.

TMI: There is nothing better than morning nookie when there is no time. I was 30 minutes late to work *blushing*

Weight Loss: I lost another 3 pounds this week. My total is now 45. Please notice the new star on the side. Only 5 more until my B-day goal. And 4 weeks do that :-)

CPA: Testing Scheduled Nov 30th at 9:00. Wish me luck. Somehow I need to find time to study. It is very hard when you have a husband and baby like I do, I want to spend every minute with them.

New Quiz

New Quiz on my other blog

Interview

As Tiffany, my co-worker and friend said, the interview was not perfect. There were not any huge alarms like with the SKIDS interview. However, I did not rush home wishing and hoping to get it. The time off, vacation wise, would be 1/2. I have to decide if half the time off is more important or if 7k is. I was really looking forward to taking 4 weeks off next year with my Bug.

So I got into work late, as expected, and I did not leave until almost 9. The biggest difference is that I did not mind. My boss was more like his old self today. Maybe he was just PMSing as the AP manager said.

Boss' day is Sunday. I think I will get my boss a card or something.

So what changed? A few things. I believe it is all about state of mind. I am trying very hard to be happy there. Life is too short otherwise. Also my Sweetie and I got onto a discussion about what we would say if Bug hated her school and wanted to quit going. I turned and said "I would say that she can't quit, and instead focus on helping her find a way to make it bearable". I went quiet and said "I have to make it bearable before I leave." Then my Best Friend had me write my boss a letter telling him how I feel. However, she told me not to send it until the next day. I believe she knew what she was doing. She told me my first draft would be emotional. It was. However, I got it out. Although I didn't send it, I got into a better place with everything. Hard to describe. Then there was the interview. I "stepped out" on my company. I set up the meeting secretly and discussed changing my place. However, once I was there, it wasn't perfect, it made me realize that my work isn't so bad. Not that this place would suck or anything.

Now everything could change tomorrow. I will honestly consider everything if an offer is made. However, if it isn't, I won't be jumping out any windows.

My Sweetie is just so wonderful. He has no trouble taking care of Bug when she needs it. It makes me relieved. And now it is time for bed. 6:00 comes early.

Sitting and Waiting

I promised myself that I would not be negative with this post. However, I should have left 20 minutes ago. I don't mind working late. What I do mind is when they say "hey there is a small potential for an entry so please sit around and do nothing and wait on us".

BLAH.

Tomorrow is the interview. I am nervous. Looks like the commute would be half. The time off would be half. Hmmmmmmm. Like I said before, it has to be perfect. I have accepted jobs where things weren't right but the price was good. It isn't worth it. Although 7k extra a year would be nice.

The benefits here are so good.

Well, I HAVE to study tonight. My Sweetie and I worked on our evening and morning routines to make sure everything gets done and timely.

Tabasco Addict

It is official. My Sweetie is a tobasco addict. He took our bottle to work today for his chips. This is an issue. LOL. Next thing you know he will buy Tobasco by the gallon.

4 MONTHS OLD

Bug turned 4 months on Friday. Since everyone has been so good listening to my complaining this week, I will reward you with photos: 1)See she can be a devil baby, look at those eyes, and that tongue 2)Happy Bug 3)Sweetie eating Bug's neck, of course. Look at her Sweater, so cute 4)Bug on her pretty new blanket.

Sunday :-)

I am at work, like a good girl. I thought I should hop on while reports run. Such a good employee am I. Friday, my Sweetie, Bug, and I went grocery shopping (I know, such a party lifestyle). Saturday, I woke up early and came into work. I beat my boss and left after him. I think I got a lot done.

I am very torn as to whether or not I should go to another company.

Last night I got a fever, stupid working too hard. Luckily, it broke during the night. We did not go to church as planned and instead slept in as late as a Bug would allow. Then we went to the grocery store again (forgot items, of course) and went shopping for reunion clothes.

I am so pumped. We found me an AWESOME outfit. I cannot wait. I am wearing some of it now, the top and jacket. I might wear it on my interview. My Sweetie was worried because it shows of my tattoos. I told him that if I was unemployed and looking for a job, I would hide them. However, I am employed, so for me to leave is going to have to be for a company that is ok with hard working employees with tattoos.

I am happy and doing good. In the parking lot of Khols, Mom and I think we saw an ex-friend. Not sure if it is true. If so she has given up the big Texas vehicles, who knows. I just hope she got to see my Bug. She is so perfect. OK I think I have done enough work. I am headed back to my Sweetie and Bug.

YAY ME

After a crappy week, there is some good.

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Ladies and Gentlemen, please let me announce to the world that my BMI is no longer over 30. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY. All those health risks, goodbye. I have lost 42 pounds. I am feeling great and my jeans are falling off. I added another star to the right. Yay ME. I am only 1 pound from what I weighed when I started HES and SEU.

Long time no blogging

Never post that the next day is going to be good. Never, Ever, Ever.

I just got home from work. Yes take a moment to look at the time. I worked from 7-12 tonight.

But let's recap first.

Tuesday was Sweetie's first day at his new job. He loves it.

Tuesday and Wednesday were not good for me. My boss sucks. The boss the I blogged about last year, writing that I love him as a boss? Yep, the very one. He has changed. He does not support me and my family.

Bug has an ear infection. I am home for the remainder of the week. However, I am working from home and going in at night. I got home last night at 11:30. Luckily my Sweetie was awake, along with Bug. I gave her a bath, mostly to calm me from my day and he made me dinner. Today he came home for lunch. He works so close. If only I did... I will get back to that. He made me lunch and ate with me. He loves me so much.

Yes, my boss sucks. I don't hate anyone but he is growing on me. I am home with Bug. I have to be. There are no other options. He tells me it won't work, that I need to be at work (that working from home won't work). Now keep in mind when I left the voice mail that I had to pick Bug up from daycare and when I left a voice mail after the appointment, both times I said that I would work from home (as much as I can with an upset infant) and that I would work every evening and on the weekend (but not next weekend that is the reunion). That was not good enough for him. He suggested that I call some stranger and have them come to My home and watch MY sick baby. Screw him. Now keep in mind my company has 6, yes 6, months of sick time. All you need is a note from a doctor regarding a family member or yourself. I have this note. Technically, I don't have to do anything. But I am a damn good employee and I am doing so good. I got so pissed that I couldn't even blog about it. My Sweetie got so pissed that he almost called my boss. My Mom also did as well. That would have been bad. hmmmmm perhaps that would be good....... I even called my boss' boss and complained to him. I am just trying to make it work. I love my company and everyone but my boss. Hmmmm, maybe I could get him relocated. That is a thought. I am a scorpion, I can do that. It is the face to face that I can't do.

I have an interview on Wednesday. I don't know if anything will come of it. But it is good to know that companies closer to home like what they see in my resume.

So good things of the past few days? I have an amazing group of friends. They are supporting me and making me feel good. My Sweetie loves me more than anything. He waited up for me again. All I have to be is in his arms to feel

This is how I have felt this week:

More than you wanted to know about me

I am in a revealing mood. We purchased a tv today. Ours is dying and we wanted to celebrate Sweetie's job.

So here I sit while I watch him manipulate our entertainment center to fit our "the best for the next five minutes" tv.

I was looking through my bookmarks. A person's computer says a lot about them. More than the documents inside, book marked sites are a reflection of a person's true self, ok maybe not that extreme. In my bookmark list I have several parent sites, walking sites, message boards that discuss many things including sex. I realize that I am a complex person.

In as many ways as I am open, I am a personal person. My experiences have defined who I am. My Sweetie and I were talking on the way to Fry's today. I am more confident than I have ever been. Every one seems to notice it. Even with 35 pounds left to lose, I am feeling great. If I don't lose another oz, I know that I am a beautiful and sexy person.

An older gentleman approached Serif and me tonight and commented on how small she is. He said she had the best seat in the house in my arms and said "You're doing great Mom." It made me smile.

So I know, it must be boring to read about how happy I am in my life. But I can't help it. I have experienced such pain and sadness that I love everyday that is good. I make sure that I don't take advantage of such things as a fantastic marriage, a wonderful daughter, and a roof over my head. You never know what will happen. All you can do is hope for the best from any horrible situation. That is what I have learned. Good comes from all bad, even if you don't see it at first. If you are lucky, You will see it within minutes. Otherwise you have to have faith that things will make sense eventually.

So here I sit, my living room is now a mess with books everywhere. Someday I will read all of these books. Tomorrow is Tuesday, world domination Tuesday. Tomorrow will be good. Wednesday is BestFriend's husband's b-day. Yay for 34. It is also the anniversary of finding out that we were pregnant. Such a good day.

Of the things on the floor, a painting by the Blue Man Group in Las Vegas, Pooh House from Disney World honeymoon, the picture of Sweetie and me at my BBA graduation, and the copper tin with notes of what my Sweetie loves about me (not to forget first anniversary gifts, wood carving of love, etc). These are all things that mean a great deal to us. We are the best of friends. I feel sorry for any couple where the two people are not best friends. We know more about each other than anyone else. We can finish each other's sentences and anticipate any need of the other. We can say a simple word like "Westwood" and know what it means. My Sweetie knows my Missyisms with the proper pronunciations and meaning. For example, zerbal. While I say these words, I will not reveal the meanings. Our relationship has changed and emerged, evolved and grown. We are not the same couple from thirteen years ago, let alone a year ago.

Why do I ramble like this? Mostly because I can, lol. Also, I feel so secure, happy, and confident that expressing these sentimental feelings will not hurt me.

I am strong.

I am awesome.

I am madly in love.